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so, i went to the doctors today and they were all freaking out concerned about my weight. I am only 30 lbs.  "underweight". under weight my ass. everyday i come home from not eating at school and then binge eat a whole bunch of food. then throw it all up. i made promises that i would eat. but they said nothing about throwing it back up. im suppose to weigh 40 more lbs than my current weight. and im so happy about it. 

Edited by WinterRosie
Took the numbers out

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I really hope you get some help for this before it ruins your health.

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how much a healthy weight for you would be would depend on your height etc, to me what you are now doesn't seem too low, but then again i do have a pretty warped view on what is considered too low and i'm only 5'2 so it would be too bad for me, but that weight at say 6'5 would be really low.

idk, im rambling. also no offense but RIP your teeth. honestly i'd still be purging all the time if i wasnt constantly terrified of my teeth falling out.

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Hello.

Friendly admin reminder that we don't allow numbers on the ED board because it can trigger the fuck out of people, and that's not cool. Eating disorders are competitive enough and don't need the encouragement.

As for what you "should" weigh, it sounds like there is a discrepancy between what your brain is telling you, and what the people who are specialists in bodies are saying. Do they know that you're purging? 

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The more you loose, the more you'll have to gain to recover. Your just digging yourself a hole my dear. 

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Are you going by typical XX weight? Remember that for men of the same height a higher weight is expected and essential for health.

How about eating more (minus purge), enough to make doctors happy, but exercising more too (not so much that doctors worry). Healthy amounts of exercise increases testosterone levels (regardless of chromosomes).


As for what you "should" weigh, it sounds like there is a discrepancy between what your brain is telling you, and what the people who are specialists in bodies are saying. Do they know that you're purging? 



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