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I really only feel ok when I swallow a pile of Ativan

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I had a panic attack on Wednesday with heart palpitations.  I began freaking again on thursday and getting very agitated.

Considering swallowing a bunch more ativan.  Just a chronic heavy feeling in my chest like I can't breath.  Called the psych who says I got to wait until February.  My job is a joke.  And I am not sure anything is wrong with me.

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Have you taken a CBT class? They can be really helpful for panic and anxiety. I did it for anxiety, but there were people in my class with panic attacks.

If you are on the verge of panic attacks all the time, there is something wrong. 

If you are misusing ativan, make sure not to drink. 

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I agree with crtclms and think that therapy might be useful to you. Ativan won't cure you, and you might develop a tolerance to it and then it won't work when you really need it.

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I never take more than 3mg of Ativan, and only in cases where I am flipping balls.  Other times I take half the dose, or less.  I tried CBT while on no meds.  Not sure it worked for me and I felt like my thinking got worse.

I was having a real bad day the other day.  Sometimes Ativan feels like it is the only thing working at times.  Things are improving a bit though, and I haven't taken any ativan today.

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I can sympathize, I feel the same way sometimes. I've been having panic attacks lately and my pdoc said I could take an extra valium if needed. It's escalating though so I may need to ask if I can go up in dosage. She only wrote a script for 30 but said I could take an extra one with panic so I did, so now I am out and I can't get them filled yet... so anxiety is knocking on my door...

Sometimes therapy does help some people with anxety and/or panic disorder... I personally didn't find any relief from it but as always, YMMV.

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Just so you know, 3mg of Ativan is a pretty big dose. 

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I take a .5 mg dose.  almost daily.  I am just having a hard time.  Zoloft is seriously doing nothing,  Just makes me tense and ragey.

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Maybe CBT isn't the med for you. Maybe ACT would be a better approach. There are a lot of therapeutic modalities for anxiety that can reduce your dependence on benzos.

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2 hours ago, Iceberg said:

Wait three at once or .5 every four hours? 

I take only .5mg once a day or every other day.  I have taken 3 mg but not at once, and usually if things are bad, at a 1mg every couple of hours.  That's rare though.

Doctor says I don't have big problems. He sees people who shoot heroine and take 20mg of ativan in a day.  This is why I am signing up for a new doctor.  I feel Like a raging bitch on zoloft.

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