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I've left high school and my hometown. I came here, and I was happy. But I could still hear my family and my old classmates demeaning me and hating me in my head. My concentration isn't what it used to be, so I've not been my best academically, which is a huge trigger.

I've started on my hip now so no one knows. I'm so ashamed 

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