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This is my first time writing but I need help from someone I don’t know and doesn’t know me.

I feel like giving up on life, I want to cry all the time and just everything is just suffocating me. I’m faking smiles and happiness when I’m struggling to feel any emotions. I feel so god damn empty!! 

But I’m not suicidal and I never think about it. I’ve never done self harm and I’ve never taken up the offer.

I feel like everyone has something in there life that they can love. I don’t. I know this isn’t for everyone but I feel like it. From people having that special someone, that thing they love to do or something that makes them feel safe. For me I don’t have anything like that and I haven’t really enjoyed anything in a long time. I feel so empty.

I don’t feel safe anymore and I’m scared of the dark. It makes me jumpy and gives a feeling like I’m being watched. 

I know it sounds stupid but I’m a teenager and I just... can’t.

i haven’t talked to anyone about this and I just don’t want people swarming me about it. 

I feel like my life’s a mess. I feel like I don’t belong. I feel like where I am isn’t where I should be. I don’t know if I’m depressed. But I know I need help but death will never be something I consider. It scares me.

If anyone else feels anything similar please talk to me or if you have any advice. I feel like I’m suffocating. 

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You sound depressed, though I'm not a doctor.  You're just naming a lot of things that could be related to depression--losing interest in things, loneliness, feeling like everything's off, sadness, crying, etc.  You can get help even if you aren't suicidal.  That's actually the best time because your brain is still active enough to let you do the work, as opposed to when everything's gone. 

Apologies if you know this already, but the two main things are usually therapy and medication.  Sometimes a primary care doctor will handle medication and sometimes it's better to see a psychiatrist.  Therapy can be from a psychologist or a social worker.  You mentioned that you're a teenager--does that mean that you're on your parent(s)' health insurance currently?  If so, you might need to bring one of them into the loop.  Is there someone who you feel more comfortable with or who has more knowledge about depression?  Another option, if you're in school of any sort, is counseling resources through school.

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9 hours ago, dancesintherain said:

You sound depressed, though I'm not a doctor.  You're just naming a lot of things that could be related to depression--losing interest in things, loneliness, feeling like everything's off, sadness, crying, etc.  You can get help even if you aren't suicidal.  That's actually the best time because your brain is still active enough to let you do the work, as opposed to when everything's gone. 

Apologies if you know this already, but the two main things are usually therapy and medication.  Sometimes a primary care doctor will handle medication and sometimes it's better to see a psychiatrist.  Therapy can be from a psychologist or a social worker.  You mentioned that you're a teenager--does that mean that you're on your parent(s)' health insurance currently?  If so, you might need to bring one of them into the loop.  Is there someone who you feel more comfortable with or who has more knowledge about depression?  Another option, if you're in school of any sort, is counseling resources through school.

Thank you for taking the time to reply. My mother may be aware of the fact I may be depressed and we have talked. Thank you again.

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I remember that kind of feelings you have now from my teenage years. I know it can be hard. It's good that you talk to your mother about it, honest relationship with her can be very helpful.

I also advice to talk to psychologist first, though. Professional help could have a good impact on you.

It's a very good news that you don't feel suicidal. I also never did, though suffer from depression sometimes and had the same feelings as you. But you have a whole life ahead of you and I'm sure you will meet that special someone one day. I wish you all the best!

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