This topic is now closed to further replies.
I’ve a question for the hive mind.
I get different diagnoses depending on who I talk to.
I definitely have had serious early childhood adverse events, and have been retraumatized as a teen and adult.
excessive worry and fear
Overreactive, esp about marriage
Inability to concentrate
When my symptoms are acute, which happens every couple of years, and always in summer, which happens to be an anniversary date, I get:
Feelings of rushing, or charged
Irritable & agitated
Emotionally labile (3 hour crying jags and I never cry)
Self destructive behavior: sexual promiscuity, suicidal ideation
Intensely strong sense of fear, heart pounding
Intrusive alarming thoughts
Time shifts between past memories and present experience
I have a history of recurrent depression. I have never felt euphoria.
I have persistent pain, and migraines.
Those who say I’m bipolar seem to worry about my paresthesias and rushed electric feelings.
Those who say it’s trauma seem convinced by intrusive thoughts & history.
it’s important because SSRIs are verboten if you are bipolar but good for trauma, and antipsychotics or lithium do nothing for trauma long term but are good for bipolar disease.
Has anyone had to navigate competing diagnoses? What did you do about meds?
Has anyone here come to realize the moments when you are projecting in a relationship? By Projection, I mean the behavior where you do not accept your own thoughts, motivations, desires, and feelings as your own. These "unwanted" feelings or thoughts are dealt with by being projected / placed outside of yourself or attributed to someone else...
I've noticed (as a chronically depressed, anxious, highly-sensitive person) that I have a habit of often projecting, and misinterpreting other's behavior as critical, unloving, uncaring, angry and disapproving...when in fact, these are the constant ruminations that I have about MYSELF. This is simply how my brain operates in the world. I'm VERY critical of myself (I often see myself as unlovable, unworthy, lazy, too emotional, disorganized, I never do anything right)... Ex: Someone communicates a neutral statement to me, but I over analyze and read into it emotionally, and start feeling and questioning that the person is angry with me or disapproves of me.
Anyone experience this? How do you de-program your automatic projections?