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  1. Still doing quite well where the paranoia is concerned. No hallucinations either. Let me know how you respond to it.
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  3. I've heard a lot about Latuda for bipolar depression, but didn't know that it was effective for psychosis (which I... probably should have... seeing as it's an antipsychotic.) But since my dose went up to 160 mg, the voices I used to hear have disappeared, my paranoia has gone way down, and I feel much happier. Has anyone else been helped a lot by Latuda for psychotic-related symptoms?
  4. There was a time when I was convinced I had BPD and would spend all hours of the night researching the best treatments. Now, that said, I am obviously no expert. But I have read that antipsychotics have shown to be of benefit for those suffering from BPD. For PTSD, I am not so sure. I have heard that Seroquel helps particularly, but again, I am no expert. I have also heard that Lamictal is useful for BPD. Personally, when I took it I felt like I was floating on clouds -- slightly hypomanic. Not the typical response from someone with BPD, probably, but I've Lamictal is known as a great anti-depressant mood stabilizer. I've read that antidepressants like Prozac aren't of particular use for BPD, but that statement would be a whole lot more useful if I had the statistics behind them. I'll try to dig them up.
  5. Paroxetine made me manic so I couldn't try that again. Thanks for the replies guys. It calmed down after a while and the Depakote was increased. Sometimes I get initial "activation" after starting an AD that never goes into full-blown mania.
  6. Ditto with dancesintherain's second paragraph. Does your doctor know the full extent of what's going on? Now would be a good time to see him/her. And if you ever feel like you're in danger, or if someone else, please don't hesitate to check yourself into ER. I know it sucks, I know it's hard, but it's the right thing to do.
  7. Made a change or two... depakote -- mood stabiliziation (1000 mg, titrating up) zoloft -- depression/anxiety (25 mg, titrating up, I assume -- I explained how I went a bit manic on this one-- or rather, after stopping it abruptly) latuda -- psychotic symptoms/depression (160 mg, very effective) ativan (1 mg 3x per day, for anxiety) adderall (10 mg 2x a day, for idiopathic hypersomnia)
  8. depakote - for mood stabilization zoloft - for depression/anxiety latuda - for psychotic symptoms/depression klonopin - for anxiety
  9. My doctor started me on 25 mg of Zoloft early last week to help combat my awful anxiety (I would wake up in the middle of the night, panicking, and I didn't know why) and I didn't want to take Klonopin every day. Starting yesterday I felt an incredible calm come over me, along with rushes of euphoria. I also have more energy/motivation. I didn't think ADs could work so fast. I also was started on Depakote as a mood stabilizer (Lithium was making me shake badly) but I don't see how that would have an effect on my anxiety... would it? Any stories/experiences would be very helpful. Thanks.
  10. I believe cyclothymia is a "mild" (pardon the term) kind of bipolar, where you have hypomania but mild depressions rather than major depressions. It is possible that your new doctor has diagnosed you with bipolar II rather than cyclothymia.
  11. I saw my tdoc for the first time in a long time but I've started to notice things about her that I hadn't before.... For instance, she said she'd get some paperwork and explain it to me, but she never did. And she focuses a LOT on my diagnosis rather than my symptoms. When I expressed that I was concerned that I had Borderline Personality Disorder, she shot that down without a blink but her only explanation was that "BPD is usually caused by abuse or neglect" which I know isn't exactly true, is it? Besides, I'm starting to wonder if I'm not repressing some past abuse/neglect myself, or maybe have not just processed it fully. It scares me and I don't know how she'd respond if I brought it up. She said, "You sound manic" or something and I did NOT sound manic I sounded confused and maybe quasi-psychotic and paranoid. i don't know. What are your red flags with tdocs? What would make you run in the opposite direction? edit:// Oh, I forgot to add, it doesn't feel like we get anything /done/, you know? Like we just talk. And she makes me feel better about my worries (not my paranoia tho, I spent the whole session believing that she could read my mind) but what's the point of therapy if we don't accomplish anything?
  12. I did a partial hospitalization program where the main therapy used was DBT and it really helped me. Since it ended I haven't gone back to my binder because I'm afraid I'm not smart enough to work through the skills on my own... but I need to get back into it. Sometimes I wonder if my 'manias' have just all been the side effects of drugs and I'm really BPD. I know SSRI's and some antipsychotics are activating to more than just BP people. It doesn't explain the extended psychosis I've had, though.... but I guess here is not the place for this ramble. It just sucks because taking some pills when you're anxious is easy and I found some of the DBT stuff challenging. But ideally I would like to be off the benzos. I don't know where this anxiety has come from.
  13. No.... I don't know anything about it other than what I've read on here. Is it helpful for anxiety? I remember I tried low dose Haldol for the anxiety and it was like taking a sugar pill.
  14. My anxiety has been very severe lately. I wake up with my heart pounding and there's an awful tension in my chest. The benzos I take aren't enough and my doctor said that he would consider adding another medication. I don't do well on SSRIs or Buspar. Gabapentin did nothing. Another user helpfully pointed out that some people find success with low dose typical antipsychotics. Has anyone here ever been prescribed an antipsychotic for anxiety? I'm hoping to stop the Seroquel but it does nothing for my anxiety anyhow.
  15. I think Abilify is known to be activating. It made me manicky, and when I asked my pdoc about it he said that it could do that. I was on 10 or 15 mg at the time. Taking it in the morning is a good idea; I hope your sleep has improved! If it doesn't I would make an appt with your doctor. Repeated nights of insomnia aren't good for anyone.