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  1. Please don't be scared of taking it, I know taking antipsychotics can sound scary as I was very scared to try Rexulti, a different antipsychotic, but it has helped me so much with no side effects. These are really effective and safe medications. Plus, you're on such a low dose I really don't think you'd run the risk of having any side effects. Do yourself a favor and relax, and get some much needed sleep.
  2. I've also been on the same dose range as you, 0.5mg-3mg a day for years with no problems. But because of the opioid epidemic, they don't want to be responsible in any ODs. How do they know if their patient is secretly taking an opioid along with their benzo prescription? Plus, some doctors genuinely think of benzos as something that gets you insanely high like amphetamines or opioids. It doesn't help that the withdrawal from them can be uncomfortable. I think it's so overhyped, everything about benzos. The only thing not overhyped is how effective they are for anxiety/panic. I am just as dependent on my Prozac, Rexulti, and Trazodone as I am on my Klonopin. Privately insured psychs wont be as benzophobic, but medicaid ones, YES. They simply don't want to be held accountable incase ANYTHING were to happen.
  3. I've always taken Rexulti in the AM. It made me slightly tired at first, and now I think it's slightly stimulating.
  4. How common is it for BPD people to go on sex binges? I've been craving sex and getting it anywhere I can. I make sure I am safe, but I wonder if what I'm doing is wrong.
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    Clonazepam .5 mg. Addictive?

    I take clonazepam 0.25mg twice a day. Have taken up to 3mg a day, but I've been on clonazepam daily regardless for 6 years now. I am physically dependent but I am not addicted; I never crave clonazepam or abuse it. It still works for me, I think you have nothing to worry about. It is a life saver for anxiety and panic.
  6. Thanks so much for the reply. I had only gotten sober by detoxing, at home at that. I haven't been to a 12 step meeting in a long time, I think I ought to swallow my pride and check it out. I definitely am experiencing PAWS, some days are much worse than others. Example, today is a good day. It's so strange how the brain works; I hope the PAWS goes away soon or dies down a lot. I can't get the vivitrol injection because of financial reasons, so I am stuck on the once a day pill.
  7. Klonopin 0.25mg-0.5mg twice a day - Antianxiety/Antipanic Prozac 20mg a day - Antidepressant/Antiobsessive Rexulti 1mg a day - Antipsychotic/Antidepressant Trazodone 50mg a night - Sedative Naltrexone 50mg a day - Anti-opioid/antiaddiction Truvada 200mg/300mg a day - PrEP/HIV protection
  8. I have been craving opioids again, after being clean for 7 weeks. It's hard to believe I am admitting this to really anyone, but I miss them a lot. This is going to sound more like a blog post but I need reassurance from someone who was also addicted to opioids, specifically heroin and fentanyl. I am randomly smelling the vinegary burnt marshmallow smell (I would smoke H and percs) and it's driving me nuts. I'm on Naltrexone 50mg a day....can't get the implant. Everything in my life is going well and I am just scared of what could be. I don't want to die. Is anyone else recovering from opioids? They scare me so much. So many people I once knew are now dead. I hate taking the once a day pill, since I could easily stop it, but I don't want to talk to anyone about my thoughts as I know they will pass. What's the right thing to do? Just do it? The reason this is especially difficult is that I live with my parents, who think that naltrexone is a literal cure. They think I'm cured as long as I take naltrexone. How do you tell someone your willpower is weakening? They will think I want this. I don't know what to do.
  9. I am probably too late to this, but I would ask for an alternative. One taste of opiates and you'll be back. I know from experience.
  10. l'appel du vide

    No more Xanax. ☚ī¸

    Klonopin has treated me well for 6 years. Never gained a tolerance to the anti-anxiety or anti-panic effects, just the sedation and loopiness. 0.25mg twice a day is enough to keep my agoraphobia away. Higher doses definitely have a negative effect on my mood....but you have to find a balance. Since Klonopin has such a long half life you'll feel very stable, you won't wake up in withdrawal or anything. I have skipped doses on accident and not noticed.
  11. I second low dose Trazodone. Remeron was the only medication that made me straight up fat. Trazodone has worked at 25mg-50mg for years, with no side effects. Give it a try.
  12. l'appel du vide

    Clonazepam (discard by 8/16) 😂

    You'll be absolutely fine. Trust me. lol.
  13. There is no equivalent to suboxone for inhalants, but naltrexone has been approved for alcohol and opioid addiction. It is currently being tested as an anti addiction for many substances, I would recommend experimenting with that. It has saved my life.
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    Safety Of SSRIs/SNRIs

    I agree with everyone above me. It does nothing to state that we could improve our conditions by having better connections, better self esteem, whatever. We all work on that, it's basically unsaid. We have all tried everything in our power. When your brain wants to terminate itself, better self esteem will not save you. Period.