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About hopelessromantic

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    Tripolar....Manic, Depressed, and Irritable

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    North Carolina, USA
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    music of Delta Goodrem, writing songs, following College Football

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  1. Hello from a coastal NC neighbor!

    1. AnxietyGirl74


      hi. how are you/ Sorry my computer screwed up so it won't let me do question marks. I actually had to move to coastal SC but I'm still pretty close. I used to go to Trinity Wellness Center when I was in Leland. Now I go to Michael Wilcox in Garden City. 

      I hope you're doing well. This is the time of year I usually have a rough time. I'm actually doing well so far, though. I was shocked,  but in a good way. Glad to hear from a neighbor even if it is a little further than originally thought.

  2. Anybody have the problem of timing out and having to sign back in? I signed in then later opened another window to check social media - when I went back to this window I had to sign back in - this has never happened before - - - is this a new safety feature or something?
  3. Great weekend for college football!

  4. Woke myself up crying this morning - I can't even blame the dreams on Seroquel because I didn't take it - but this one is one of the dreams I have had several times, I just rarely wake up and remember it quickly enough. But it was there vividly this morning. The dream represents fulfillment in a part of my life that is very unfulfilled. I was having a hard time with this part of my life the night before, ruminating on it, getting angry about it, going round and round in my head and again coming up with no clear cut answer. And for some reason a few hours later after I fell asleep I had this dream again where this part of my life was just about perfect. The nicest people helping me and sharing in this area. Familiar friends from dreams before reaching out. I wasn't manic in the dream but I felt euphoric. I woke up and instantly started to cry, knowing that I probably will never have the fulfillment I experienced in the dream. All of this sounds like a great storyline for an episode of THE TWILIGHT ZONE but that's how it is I guess. . . . .
  5. hopelessromantic

    How Do You Feel THIS MOMENT in Time?

    I feel pretty good today - excited because Celine Dion released a new song today!
  6. hopelessromantic

    Do you think MI makes you more egoistic or the other way around?

    I like to call it being "self-aware"
  7. Very weird dreams on Seroquel - plus side is, it kept me asleep. Groggy as hell when I woke up, though, on those levels - back then it was 600mg, then 500mg. Now down to a fragment of a 50mg. The restless leg was terrible, had to combo it with benztropine.
  8. hopelessromantic

    What does your anxiety attack look like?

    Heart beating to where I thought people in the room could see it through my shirt. I was trying to do the breathing to get it to slow down (another hope that no one is staring at me). I did not know my heart could pound like that in just a matter of moments when the meeting turned into a "let's go around the room and share ideas". GULP
  9. These replies are full of great advice. There is an upcoming Saturday when my SO is volunteering and it will take up most of the morning and afternoon. I decided to use that time to do something she said she would love to do with me, but I know she would get bored in 20 min. So I am taking a road trip for that day! That way I can experience it, not be rushed or made to feel bad that she is bored, and when we get back home that night we will have stories to share. WIN WIN!
  10. hopelessromantic

    How did you spend your Easter holiday

    Hoping everyone had more fun than stress. I just walked across the street to my neighbors. I made peanut butter eggs (not too hard but very addictive) and as usual let her family do most of the talking since I'm rather introverted. Nice to have someone open up their home and table.
  11. hopelessromantic

    Why does no-one love me? Oh yeah, I'm an arsehole.

    Do you want friendships or a relationship? Sometimes your answer might be "neither one". What about group support, possibly one for MI but another one more socially based, perhaps a church group that goes out for coffee. Anyway, you have to think long and hard and choose wisely. Many of us have our "friends" online. I am one of them. I am socially awkward. Ask yourself what you really want . . . . .start small if you need to. Who knows, you might meet a friend and it turns into a relationship.
  12. I get more mean and irritable - the day before I am downright nasty
  13. hopelessromantic

    Driving on the freeway. Gulp

    Maybe having the radio on a calm station? I use Spa on XM satellite to keep me calm. Let the other cars pass you, and stay in the lane closest to the exit you need. If you keep your eyes focused ahead, it is somewhat less taxing on the nerves than looking in the rearview and seeing all the tailgaters and zippy lane-switchers. Good luck to you, the traffic struggle is real.
  14. hopelessromantic

    Feeling distant from God

    I felt closer to God and more interested in church when I was manic. I was filled with love and joy and all the things that church and a relationship with God is supposed to make you feel. Back then everything was elevated, especially senses. Sometimes I feel like a fraud because I could not get there in a genuine way. I still pray and talk with God but "the shine" is off, I guess is one way to put it. Once this depression and irritability lessens I hope to go back to church and have a better outlook.
  15. hopelessromantic

    I think I hate most of the human race

    I have so little in common with most people that I don't try anymore. We are getting new neighbors but I am wondering about going down the street and introducing myself as I don't believe it's going to turn out to be anything other than - - - - - just that. A neighbor.