Dudette posted a topic in Personality Disorders - Fuck Off! No, Wait. Fuck Me Now!Indecisiveness, but knowing what i should do. Staying stuck in my head with irrational thoughts. Want to change my happiness but not knowing how to start (afraid to leave the familiar and failing). Meds dont help so i just lay in bed depressively saying to myself your a lazy peice of crap. And other low blows to myself. How to end a relationship that enables you but dang thats the best you've been loved. However, you cant see a future with them. Ex on the mind, master manipulation. Mental illness is just in your head, shake it off. WOULD HAVE BE NOW IF I COULD. Divorce.... mind cant rest want him but not how it was. Unhappy with body image, job, living situation ect... want to be gonebut im too afraid to die. But im really not living just existing. BPD/ depression/ panic disorder/ traits ptsd... need help cant bring myself to try again. Been many years but worse the last 2-3 years. Only 29yrs old, innocence stolen at 5yrs old.
Dudette replied to Azzer's topic in Personality Disorders - Fuck Off! No, Wait. Fuck Me Now!I am currently dating a female to male transgender. I have never dated females and don't view him as a female. Please don't end your life. Pursue your happiness and if being a boy on the outside as you are within is your key then don't let people stand in your way of that. If they truly love you they will accept you as you are. If you'd like to talk further message me!!