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    painting/drawing (watercolour and inks), comics, writing (poetry and short stories), accounting

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  1. packing sucks MAJOR balls, am i right folks

    1. coraline


      If I'm going on a trip I make a list of what to bring and lay everything out and check it off the list as I pack it..that way I never forget anything..

    2. echolocation


      i'm also a fan of lists! i have it a little easier in that regard, because i'm packing up everything i own to move home. can't forget something if i pack everything. :) 

    3. Geek


      Major balls. For sure.

  2. echolocation

    cartoon - things you can take your meds with

    @quietly bonkers not that you should do this, but you reminded me of how my dad gave my dog pills. he used to make a batch of waffles on the weekends, and rip up the leftovers through the week to stuff the pills in. he'd put butter and syrup on them and everything.
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    Jobs and Anxiety

    i had an office intern/assistant type job at an accounting firm when i was in high school. mostly i did filing and putting paperwork together, but they wanted me to answer the phones too. i didn't have to answer questions or anything, all i had to do was get the caller's name and reason for calling, and then transfer them to the person they wanted to talk to. i absolutely couldn't. i would have panic attacks. i told my boss i couldn't, and she was sympathetic, but it was really embarrassing. at the end of tax season, they didn't need me anymore and i was SO relieved. the other phone-answering job i had was at sears, where i did catalogue stuff and office maintenance. that also scared the shit out of me, but after working there a couple years, i kind of hardened to it and stopped giving a shit. i really hated that job. i have gotten slightly better at phones. the right meds helped a lot. i haven't had to do phone stuff at the job i've had for the last few years, but i think i maybe could now. anyway, i totally get where you're coming from, and that sounds awful. i hope your new job doesn't require taking calls. does just answering phones in general make you anxious? would exposure via having friends call to chat be useful? i had a serious fear of anything to do with phones -- texts and calls. just messaging and chatting with friends made it easier over time.
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    How Do You Feel THIS MOMENT in Time?

    scared!! we have a new fire alarm system installed and it seems to be really sensitive. i was making potato pancakes and it started doing a warning beep, so i abandoned ship and cleaned everything up. i got two made.... they were REALLY FRIGGIN GOOD but i didn't want to continue for fear of setting it off. loud noises really get to me. ETA i have calmed down and found out i hit the smoke point on the oil i was using. never done that before! will use different oil next time.
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    whatever the weather

    so dark and rainy today! i woke up about half an hour before my alarm and thought it must be earlier based on how dark it was. going to be relatively warm, between 5-10 degrees all week (mid 40s).
  6. silly as is it, cold cucumber slices under the eyes can help you look more refreshed. leave em on for 5-10 minutes. i had a friend that swore by it. it's pretty much just about cooling to reduce puffiness and hydration to settle the skin. drinking lots of water and using a cold pack will get you the same results. i don't know if you're a makeup person at all, but a bit of concealer works great on dark circles. bronzer or blush can give you a nice lifelike glow if you're looking zombie-ish. patting a little light-coloured eye shadow right in your tear duct area can brighten up the eyes. bonus points if it's shimmery.
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    How Do You Feel THIS MOMENT in Time?

    i've got some pre-anxiety about a meeting with a program adviser in an hour. it shouldn't be a big deal, but meetings always give me the quakes.
  8. echolocation

    should i continue therapy?

    hi everyone, thanks for responding! i think i accidentally turned off my notifications for this thread, so i didn't see your replies until now. pdoc's opinion was to see how things settle out for a couple weeks, and then re-evaluate then. because i've been pretty stable with medication, his advice on that frontier was to see my family doctor, who should be able to manage my meds as long as nothing severe happens, and can refer me to a pdoc if something bad should happen. moving home is definitely going to be different, but i think it should go fairly smoothly. the moving process itself is usually stressful for me, but i've managed okay in the past. i'm going to be living with my mum, who i get along with very well, and the pets, who love me very much. moving home puts me closer to my two best friends, so my social life should remain intact. dances, rabbit, i hear what you're saying about being proactive instead of having to find a tdoc while in crisis. i have been able to stick out the summers in the past between school years without tdoc/pdoc support, so i have a history of managing for at least a few months. i think what i'm going to do is be careful, watch my mood/symptoms, and re-evaluate after being home for a few weeks.
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    tell me your disaster roommate stories

    @sbdivemaster holy shit, man. that's next level. i can see why you never lived with roommates again. @dancesintherain god!! i'm lucky in that we get our own bedrooms in my dorm, but the walls are paper thin... in my second year the girl in the room next to me started seeing someone, and i had to listen to them having loud sex on the regular. not great.
  10. echolocation

    How Do You Feel THIS MOMENT in Time?

    SO anxious. I'm dealing with admin stuff regarding graduation in the spring and making sure i actually have enough credits and all that jazz. writing formal emails and explaining my situation gives me the heebie jeebies.
  11. texted my best friend, who's been there too. drew a picture. listened to this song on repeat.
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    Relapse after a year

    hey, it's gonna be okay. relapse isn't the end of the road, nor a start of a brand new one. it's just a bump. that year you spent clean hasn't gone to waste at all. now, you have an entire year where you only harmed once. that's very, very impressive. don't start your count over; relapse isn't a failure. i had a class this evening that really upset me, for some reason. i really, really want to harm. i'm sitting with it. it's hard, and it sucks. if i wasn't in school i don't think i'd have the problem with SH that i do. sending solidarity. you're not alone, man.
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    How Do You Feel THIS MOMENT in Time?

    sleepy sleepy. don't want to go to class, but will. i found out i only have to take two classes instead of four next semester to graduate. i'm so fucking close. i want this so badly.
  14. like everyone else has said, the route is usually high dose SSRIs/SNRIs and low AAP adjuncts. having bipolar and taking ADs is tricky. as far as that goes, i wonder if @aura would want to contribute? i think she's written about treating ocd when you can't use ADs. my pdoc has called me "obsessive spectrum". he said it's not really ocd, but not all of my symptoms are covered by ocpd, my primary diagnosis. i relate a lot to pure-o. either way, my cocktail is pretty typical of that of someone with ocd, and the treatment we've done is about reducing obsessiveness, so i do use the label. my ocd is more obsessive than compulsive, but i do have some compulsions. in my experience, medication did most of the heavy lifting with my ocd stuff. a more sedating AD shut down a lot of my anxiety, which always triggered obsessing and ruminating. once we found the right dose, the risperidone adjunct vanquished most of my intrusive thoughts and some of the more bizarre ocd-related behaviours (needing to walk a certain way, fixations on numbers and time, inability to tolerate an environment that wasn't "right"). what i was mostly left with after medication was the roots of my anxieties -- fear of being imperfect, fear of risk, catastrophizing, fear of failure, all that fun stuff. therapy has been immensely helpful with lessening those fears, mostly by exposure and gathering experiences of things turning out okay when i've been afraid something would happen. for me at least, the therapy happened after the symptoms were more under control, but you can go the other way too. therapy can be a lifesaver when ocd isn't responding to meds, or when medication options are limited. i did a lot of reading back through old CB threads when i got my diagnosis (still do, heh). basic google searches were handy, too. ocd canada has a good page on ways ocd can manifest. that's enough writing!! i definitely recommend poking around old threads and seeing what resonates. new diagnoses are good -- it means your team has more tools to understand what's going on. hope you're well. :-)
  15. hey everyone! i'm moving back home from university in a little over a week, and in doing that, losing my pdoc (who also does therapy with me). i've been very fortunate to be able to see him every 2-3 weeks for free during the school year, and over the 2ish years i've been seeing him, i've gotten so much better and learned so much. i will be sad to no longer see him. now i'm at a bit of a confusing crossroad. if i want to continue therapy, i'll have to find a new therapist and start paying out of pocket, which is doable but expensive. the thing is i'm the most stable i've pretty much ever been, which is making me think that i don't really need it anymore. i think therapy is helpful though, particularly in breaking down some of the ocpd stuff that's programmed into me. that said, i have pretty good tools to use from the last couple years, so maybe i can make a go at it on my own? i see pdoc on thursday and will bring this up with him and see what he recommends, but i wanted to ask CB as well, because i know lots of you have more experience with therapy than i do. i'm also not sure about finding a pdoc. besides a couple instances of minor dose changes, my meds have been very stable for about a year now. do i really need to find a new one? thoughts on cost/benefit of therapy when well? advice on finding a new tdoc/pdoc? hope you're all well.