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  1. i seem to have a sensitivity to codeine based pharmaceuticals. years ago i had an episode of suicidal thoughts, bad, very serious, after being sick and prescribed codeine cough syrup. just recently i have been having some health issues causing pain, and my doctor prescribed oxycodone, very low dose, i only took it a couple days around thanksgiving, and then again this past friday night. by saturday morning i was a suicidal mess. i wailed through my entire tdoc session. i was actually able to get myself there bc i was so scared. but i went in my pajamas. i'm only feeling back to normal today. (i also flipped out when i took it around thanksgiving, but my boyfriend was here and kept talking me off the ledge and suggested i stop taking the meds, so that cleared up after a couple days and i felt better.) i just can't seem to find any understanding of this. if it's a known side effect, what the brain chemistry interaction is. i read recently that the oxy doesn't eliminate pain, but tricks your brain into thinking it doesn't feel the pain. so, i am assuming this means brain chemical manipulation = the effect i am experiencing. trust me, i won't be going near these drugs ever again. but i would still like to understand the science of it if anyone can help out. a lot of this stuff is really difficult for me to understand when i find resources with information. appreciate any information anyone has to share. also i wasn't sure where to put this, sorry if it's in the wrong place.
  2. WytchyWoman

    How Do You Feel THIS MOMENT in Time?

    completely and utterly exhausted ... and yet unable to sleep!!! YAHTZEE!
  3. FINALLY found the status update thing ... i had it disabled. sheesh. 

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    Hate the holidays? This is a safe thread.

    oh thank you for this. i despise the holidays. i despise them. i am in a profession that is extremely busy at the end of the year. i don't want to be merry. i want to go to bed. i don't want to be festive, or give you my money for your charity, or eat your cookies you made with ingredients i can't eat. i hate the assumption that just bc i am alive, i must be christian, i don't do this holiday, and no that doesn't mean i want it abolished, i just don't want it shoved down my throat every single where i turn. i have to drive by a mall to get home from work and the shopping traffic adds 30% travel time to my commute which is already 3x as long as it should be bc the state doesn't have the infrastructure to support the volume of commuters during rush hour. my mom died gosh over 20 years ago and that first year, everyone pressured me to celebrate. i didn't want to. i wanted to go to st thomas. back when i actually had money and could have gone. but noooooooo that might screw up someone else's holiday. if there was any small place to escape or avoid it, it wouldn't be so bad. i stopped to buy some toilet paper and toothpaste last year and when i didn't make eye contact with the bell ringing santa hat wearing person blocking my egress, i got a "MERRY F*CKING CHRISTMAS!" from the person. hey. you wanna stand in the cold and ring a bell, enjoy. just leave me alone. i shouldn't be made to feel guilty for not interacting. i'm tired. i'm slightly crazy. i just don't wanna have any part of any of this. and yet, i have silver bells in the cafeteria at work. it's so obnoxious.
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    New Adderall Rx

    thank you so much for this. i noticed a weird thing. i can read again. with focus and clarity. i haven't been able to for so many years now i can't remember when i could. this tiny thing is huge. also, while i almost forgot to eat dinner, once my stomach growled i cooked myself hot food (not bread and cheese or cereal), and washed the dishes immediately after eating, not 3 days later when i had no more clean spoons. also i swept and vacuumed. i've pretty much just been sitting on the couch for the last couple of months, so while this doesn't sound like a lot, it really is, for me. and if it is cumulative, perhaps i may just get my life back in time. i really appreciate the information and support from everyone. i was very afraid to try this. but i'm glad i did now.
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    New Adderall Rx

    i finally started today, not noticing much myself ... we shall see. is it an immediate reaction or something that builds up?
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    New Adderall Rx

    Thanks so much for the feedback. I am going to try it tomorrow morning. I figure, just in case there are any side effects, I would rather have them on a weekend than at work. My PCP said it was a low dose, but it helps a lot to know specifically that it's a starting dose for pediatric treatment. I'm hoping i have a revelatory experience like you did @mikl_pls; I am truly at my wits end at this point. Fingers crossed.
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    New Adderall Rx

    10 mg XR i didn't realize it could help depression too. that actually makes good sense, but i hadn't thought of it. that could be a really good thing for me, especially at this time of the year in new england. thank you. so glad your meds are helping you so much!
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    New Adderall Rx

    My PCP just prescribed me Adderall. I've had a lot of pdocs/tdocs over the years suggest an ADD-inattentive dx, but i was never prescribed anything for it before so I have zero experience with this type of med. I haven't started it yet. I'm a little nervous because I have had some crappy experiences with negative side effects and withdrawal symptoms with other meds. I know you can't offer medical advice, but any anecdotal experiences / advice for a newbie would be really awesome. I know even the best of doctors cannot paint the full picture of a med, only you, the actual users of the medication know what the experience is really like. Appreciate whatever anyone would care to share.
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    How do you do a status update?

    that's so weird. i must have something turned off. thanks!
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    How do you do a status update?

    i don't have it either , i'm on chrome, is it a browser specific thing?
  12. WytchyWoman

    How Do You Feel THIS MOMENT in Time?

    tired. again. woke up at 2:30am and could not go back to sleep. this is so frikkin old. idky they can't find something that will knock me out. holding out hope for later this month when the cannabis card comes through. so not my thing, but if it helps me sleep, i'd stand on one foot and quack like a duck. boss talked with me about tardiness yesterday, so great, now the job that keeps me awake at night will stress me out for fear of losing it because it makes me not sleep. maybe it would be a blessing, though idk how i'd pay my bills without it. i hate my head. PS: My kitty has already started the seasonal snuggling. my one good thing.
  13. WytchyWoman

    How Do You Feel THIS MOMENT in Time?

    paranoid. very, very paranoid.
  14. WytchyWoman

    How Do You Feel THIS MOMENT in Time?

    tired and annoyed. i can't believe that f*ck texted me. my codependent withdrawal got a hit so i'm not in so much pain, but i'm pissed. maybe i'm over-reacting but i think it was a crappy text . i'm reading it to say "i miss my 'pet name for objectified sex toy' ". four days we don't speak and that's what he comes up with? at least i don't want to text him anymore.
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    How Do You Feel THIS MOMENT in Time?

    Relieved my Facebook wasn't hacked and it was just me getting my account info confused lol
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