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A while ago i had a moment when i was suicidal and i attempted its not like i had it too bad but i took my meds and wanted to get better and i wanted off of em cause it had been a while and who wants to stay on em and so i told my mom and she agreed with it and it was alright for a while but i had a breakdown and my mom put me back on them ( theyre zoloft btw) and i dont really have an outlet so im here and i wanted to know if it ever truly does get better.

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It can get better but it might take time and maybe med changes. It took time for me to feel decent and each time there were bad times again I got discouraged. But now things are better most of the time. Doesn't usually work to go off meds, though. 

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Slow and steady. Slow is smooth and smooth is fast. You get what I mean. Psych meds are a marathon not a sprint. I literally only know one person with MI who responded to their first med enough that they didn't need a change or add on (which is why I think lithium should be more first line but anyway). It gets better, it's just that sometimes it gets worse first 

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On 8/6/2017 at 4:37 PM, Iceberg said:

Slow and steady. Slow is smooth and smooth is fast. You get what I mean. Psych meds are a marathon not a sprint. I literally only know one person with MI who responded to their first med enough that they didn't need a change or add on (which is why I think lithium should be more first line but anyway). It gets better, it's just that sometimes it gets worse first 

thanks for replying its been a year im still here mostly because im afraid if i did anything my mother would get rid of my dog but nothing has really changed except my mom who says shes looking for a doctor for me and so on is actually not because its been like 5 months since i first asked and ive resorted to weed to deal with my problems

 

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