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Is this anxiety? Trying to define the constant negativity.

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I’ve been dealing with major depressive disorder and anxiety for several years now. I’ve read a lot of books on psychology and neurology. But I’ve only recently started seeing a psychiatrist. I was getting prescriptions from general physicians. Currently I’m on Wellbutrin and it works great for my depression but my anxiety still shows up. I told my doctor that it feels like an under-lying current. The anxiety is constant but I keep it at bay. He prescribed me Seroquel 25mg. Today is my second day on it. I don’t think I really knew how to describe my anxiety before today because today my brain feels silent. It’s like before there was a constant negative voice, my own voice - I guess, that would always repeat any negative thought I ever had. All my doubts were vocalized by this voice. I’ve never described it as a voice before because I always associated it with just thoughts. But today those thoughts are not there. I’m calm and that’s weird. So my question is, is it really anxiety? 

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I have very negative thoughts from anxiety/depression. I don't know that I'd call it a voice. It is more of an inner dialog that is ongoing in my mind.

I tend to think of it in terms of the ego. I read the Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle some years ago. If I remember correctly, he talks about you have the self and the ego. Most people think that their ego as themselves. It is pretty deep stuff.

Glad you're getting some relief. I took Seroquel a long time ago.

I would have to ask does this voice feel like you or something/someone else?

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