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hello all,

i'm having a lot of trouble with some inattention/hyperactivity and i've been seeing psychiatrists for 16 years+ now but only recently my pdoc started suggesting i have some ADHD symptoms and i was wondering if those of you who have ADHD for sure and have been aware of it for a long time validate some symptoms for me? like do you experience the same kinds of things?

- inability to sit in lectures for longer than 10 minutes, feeling like need to move and feeling like "being on fire" and needing to leave?
- inability to read for longer than 10-15 minutes, lose thread of thought, feeling almost like emotional pain because can't go on with reading?
- same for everything that requires concentration for longer than 15 minutes?
- at work doing 1000 things at the same time (write 3 words in an email, then go back to the Word document, then adjust music volume, go back write another 5 words in the email, check another email, forget to add attachments etc etc)
- panic while watching movies bc losing track of what's going on have to take a break?

the problem is i also have borderline and boredom is a huge thing for me, and i can't escape boredom but is it bc i can't pay attention? or just.. what? WHAT'S GOING ON I'M SO CONFUSED?? could i really have had ADHD for years and decades and never realized it until now that i've stabilized my bipolar on meds? is that a thing? pls help guys thanks i'm not a freak right.

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What do you mean "not realized it"? Have you just now started experiencing these symptoms or are you just now aware that they have always been there?

I'm ADHD-Inattentive type so I don't have a lot of advice for the hyperactive part but yes I absolutely suffer from some of what you do. I used to absolutely love to read. I could sit and read a book for an hour easily, sometimes for the whole day. But starting around 2 years ago I started to lose that ability; all the way to the point where I couldn't read two paragraphs without forgetting what I had just read or, if I am able to sit and read for 30 minutes, I'll realize two chapters later that I haven't actually been retaining the info because my mind was off somewhere else without me even noticing. It's led to me just not reading or watching movies/new shows. Before I went to my psych it got to the point where I couldn't even play my favorite video games anymore because my mind would be all over the place and I'd have no idea what I was doing halfway thru the match. 

You're not alone my friend. I hope the Concerta is helping!

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I have had ADHD ever since i can remember 

I am ALYWAYS moving even if i look still im wriggling my toes or mving my tongue 

I cant listen very well

I forget things easily 

I am depressed/anxious but when i wasnt i was very hyper literally climbing on the walls and even now i can have those moments

I find it hard to concentrate 

I am always thinking my mind is going 24/7

I have been on tablets for years however and it does help me i know ive been off them for times but i honestly cant remeber a time i havent taken medications for it i take hte concerta 36mg i think thats hte right unit of measure not sure but i cant still have hte above symptoms, ADHD can be hard to spot sometimes some facts about it too females tend to be less hyper but harder to concerntrate while males are more hyper (not a sexist thing just something that tends to be more present in the specfic genders) however can easily be both ways trust me the tblets work and if htey arent you may need a higher dosage hope this helps

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I usually have 5 or 6 books on the go at a time, read a page or two of one, swap to another. This is with non-fiction, normally I just have one fiction. Before goodreads I found it really hard to finish a book, but now I like adding them to the list, I get a real kick out of it, so I can finish books :)

I interrupt people and finish their sentences and can't stop myself jumping in to other people's conversations sometimes when they are interesting or WRONG about something.. like the lady who I heard utter the words "It's the smart version of Autisim" ... WHAT

My moods tend to change at the drop of a hat.. very low emotional inertia you could say. They also tend to be really extreme, according to my BF.. I thought this was normal, he said he never saw anyone cry like me in his life and he's nearly 40. I cry like actresses on TV cry when they find out their children are gone.

I can be really irritable

Every flatmate I ever had had to sit me down and talk to me about leaving the oven on or the hobs on or the gas on. It never did any good.

I can have an irritated tone of voice because it seems urgent to get the information out quickly, and I upset people :(

I often zone out while people are speaking, even when I am interested or it's important or both

I sometimes lose my train of thought in the middle of a sentence

I leave my keys in the front door for anyone to just walk in

I leave the back door wide open

I boil the kettle to do the wash up, start doing the washing up.. start doing something else.. water is cold by the time I get back to the wash up, if i get back to it

I tend to half do a household chore and then this feeling starts, I call it the buzzing, I get it when I write as well (I've dyxlexia) it's like a restless feeling but i know restlessness it's not restlessness.. I feel like if I keep doing it my head will start bleeding so I move onto another one... I tell myself Ill do the other half the next day but I never do usually

My autopilot is unreliable and will do strange things or break down completely if interrupted

I can NOT concentrate on the road when I'm cycling (this is why I refuse to learn to drive a one tonne weapon of mass destruction called a "car")

I won't watch a movie in one sitting unless I have to.

I am completely addicted to my phone and can not seem to control this, furthermore I knew it would happen so I waited ages before getting a smart phone.

If I listen to audiobooks or online talks etc. I need them to be sped up or I can't concentrate

Yeah I get depressed and have had delusions during depression in the past

I can't tell what order things happened in when I remember them, I have trouble gageing how much time has passed

I have almost no working memory so I am bad at tasks that require that. So for example in school I was ok at algebra and linear programming because you could see it so you didn't have to hold anything in working memory, I could do maths where every step was pretty stand alone and didn't require you to remember anything about the previous step, but once it did, I was lost. This meant I couldn't do certain things that were supposed to be "easy" and I could do certain things that were supposed to be "hard"

I always score really low in IQ tests because I'm 1/3 of the way through when time is up, like so low that if that was my actual intelligence I couldn't live on my own.

If I am concentrating on something and someone interrupts me I feel really disconcerted and sometimes really angry, like it's star trek and I just got teleported to an alien ship against my will with no warning.


I haven't got a dx because my country is really backwards in terms of that, I'm an adult but they want to interview my parents and see all my old school reports from 25 years ago.
 

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