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hello I keep reposting the same stuff but i know two people who suffer from ptsd and i want help

these poeple have had these things happen to them (not both have had them)

sexual abuse

physical abuse

mental abuse 

private information handed out


been with the wrong people


please help me out

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Please refer to my response on your other post, which explains why we cannot assist.

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