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Lady Krazy Kat

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About Lady Krazy Kat

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    Call me Kat

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    New England, USA
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    writing, reading, psychology, social work, art, crafting, yoga, meditation, libraries, community theater, hiking, biking, swimming, traveling, animals, vegetarian cooking, live music/festivals, making awesome quirky-themed mix CDs

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  1. Today has been radical acceptance and riding the wave
  2. How about lamictal? When I used to take Zoloft and it didn’t quite work, I added lamictal and the combo helped tremendously. Don’t have be bipolar for lamictal to work. If you just need it for winter, Wellbutrin is approved for seasonal depression.
  3. Been struggling with some urges this week..... I will stay sober today: -Because I'm trying to lose weight, and it fucks with my metabolism (not the best reason, but it is what it is) -Because I'm tapering off Klonopin right now and it would interfere with that process -Because it fucks with my sleep -Because it is an embarrassing "teenage" drug to do, and I'm a 31 year old woman -Because I feel physically/mentally better when I DON'T do it.... and feel more confident the more I fight the urges -Because it's a beautiful fall day out, I have the day off, and I'd rath
  4. No, you are not the only one. In my early 20s, I "accidentally" discovered that purging was "cathartic" for me and brought about the same "release" that people who self-harm in more conventional ways tend to report. It did not start as an ED behavior for me, but rather, I would often eat (not even binge) to have something in my stomach to purge... or would purge on an empty stomach even. Regular individual psychotherapy and DBT group therapy (typically helpful for other forms of self-harm....I had to "argue" to the intake worker that my purging WAS self-harm) helped me overcome th
  5. Whether or not you test positive for benzos would depend on how "sensitive" the test is that the PCP ordered (i.e. the cut-off levels for that drug). I work in an outpatient dual diagnosis treatment program, with substance abuse as its primary focus. We test for 8 categories of substances, one being benzodiazepines, which are not "supposed" to be taken while in our program but exceptions are made case-by-case, with the preferred benzo being clonazepam due to less abuse potential. About a year ago when we switched labs, several of our patients who were on (prescribed) lower-dose clon
  6. OMG YES. I can 100% relate to what you wrote. I'd write more but I'm off to work now.... I'll come back to this later and say more. Just wanted to let you know you are not alone.
  7. God, I hope not.... I am only 30, and I don't even have kids yet (want kids, so it would make me very sad if I was going through early menopause). IDK if "menopause age" is genetic, but it's hard to tell anyway because both my mom and my maternal grandmother had hysterectomies, so they had surgically-induced menopause (mom in her early 40s, grandma in her her mid 30s), both due to severe endometriosis. On a side note, I have tried to bring up endometriosis to my current gdoc and current/past gyndoc at different points in my life when I've had similar bouts of this a couple years ago and
  8. Sorry for the squeamish....mention of bloody girly stuff. So, some of you may have known from other of my threads that I am tapering off Zoloft. I don't think I am doing this excessively fast... it's slower than what previous pdocs have recommended. However, I have gotten some of the weirdest side effects from it in numerous body parts: the notorious brain zaps, weird "behind the eye" headaches, migraine-like visual disturbances that come and go (with or without actual headaches), excessive bouts of alternating constipation and diarrhea, one fainting episode with many more dizzy spells,
  9. The only medication I ever felt was helpful for my BPD symptoms (well, technically I have/had complex PTSD which is like PTSD with borderline traits) was Lamictal... SSRIs haven't been helpful, AAPs weren't helpful, benzos were helpful until I built up a tolerance and refuse to keep going up, etc. (This is why we are in the process of tapering me off my meds... because medications have either made matters worse, had nil effect, or some combo thereof. The ones I stuck with for so long were basically because they had the least side effects not because they were effective. Lamictal helped
  10. Hi Tryp. I read your reply like a week ago, just felt too, IDK, embarassed/awkward/whatever to respond. I do really appreciate what you wrote. And I'm glad that I'm not the only person who has issues with the word "manipulative." I think that's "my word" (i.e. my belief about my behavior) and my own projection rather than what other people tell me the behavior is.... but I could be basing that on years of emotional abuse/neglect in which I was made to feel that things were *my fault* and *not real* or what not (without being told I was being "manipulative" or not). So, yeah, I am abl
  11. I just donated, kind of embarrassed about how small my donation is, but whatevs... At least I didn't opt for dumping the ice water on my head. If I have more money left after my next check and paying car insurance, I'll donate a little more in a couple weeks
  12. My name is Kaya, and I'm kayaking to Kiev to key khaki Kia's and kill this krate of Krispy Kremes.
  13. Make my own program. Who is John Galt?
  14. Today I'm grateful for beautiful weather...and for getting my ass back into therapy after 6 weeks off
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