I feel you. I am high functioning with TRD too. At the first of the year, my employer told me that part of the expectations for me in 2019 were to work 55 hours a week during February, March, and half of April. No bonus and no OT. They have no idea of my M.I. and I’ve been with the company 17 years. It feels like they are pushing me over the edge. I need this job to support me, my son and my dog. My weekly pdoc appointments will need to go on hold during this busy time which means even less support. I’m exhausted already and it’s the end of January ( 40 hour weeks ).
I sometimes envy those on SSDI too. But, I realize I couldn’t maintain my standard of living on those funds. It’s like being in a pressure cooker. My heart goes out to you!