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  1. I just asked a psychiatrist about it straight up and she asked me some questions about it and sent me to a psychological assessment with computerized tests and neuropsychological tests and whatnot and received a rule-out diagnosis of ADD because they weren't really sure. They had historical questionnaires for two family members and someone that was currently close to me if I can recall correctly. The neuropsychological tests seemed like they were also helpful for my psychologists/psychiatrists to clarify my other problems. I think they usually do less testing, though.
  2. I have never had a doctor that even mentioned picking up meds, including controlled meds, a couple days early, but I usually pick mine up late because I suck like that and forget to take them sometimes and develop a backlog, then forget to refill until my bottles are empty. My pdoc had asked me whether I am still taking Klonopin and to make sure that I take it when he was the one prescribing it. I was scheduled to take it 3 times a day, but I was worried about taking it that often and often took it less. I mentioned this worry and he suggested taking it as prescribed to worry less. I think that he was also checking this monitoring service. I do not have a daytime dose anymore, so I probably should have paid more attention.
  3. I am living with somebody else most of the time, but he is gone for quite a while semi-regularly. I tend to go nuts from lack of social interaction. It is not because I like it; it is as you described, the level of baseline anxiety gradual rises until it is to the level of the worst social anxiety for some reason that I don't understand. I found some place that is doing in person therapy, I walk to a nearby dollar store most days and go inside and buy an energy drink, my therapist gave me the name of some kind of mental illness club or clubhouse or something that is still allowing people to come in-person.
  4. I do not take any medications for pain except for OTC meds, but have done PT and chiropracty, but not recently. I did not realize that I was still bothered so much when I did not have to sit so much during the day, and I don't know if trying to up exercise to make up for the sitting is making it worse. I probably really need to make an appointment because it is getting a lot worse when sitting or laying down, and that is ruining a lot of the day when I need to focus or sleep. Work is not going well and I am going to have to sleep in another place because I am thrashing too much, way too much. I have been reluctant to go back because physical therapy seems like it might be an ordeal right now.
  5. The problem with sleeping that I am having is that life is essentially a rolling series of naps, but I can't get a good long nap in at the end of the night, just a bunch of broken short naps, and it is increasing my tendency to microsleep and have short naps during the day, so Klonopin might work better because I guess that is early wake insomnia. It might just be a problem of dosing or that I am getting jumpy. I am also having a lot more physical pain in my back and legs now that I have started jogging and walking again and am worried that it is still messed up from an injury and delaying seeing a doctor. I still have some Seroquel laying around. Maybe I should get rid of these tons of spare pills laying around? I don't know if I will try taking some of it, but I will probably wait for my appointment. It kept me asleep pretty well, but the side effects were not great for some reason that I don't remember. I was taking Ambien for a while, though, and the side effects of that were probably the worst of anything, and it didn't even keep me asleep.
  6. I am on Klonopin .25 mg per night for sleepwalking. I have enough Klonopin to take more right now, but I don't know if I am still allowed to take the .5 Klonopins since my sleep doctor took me off the other dose. I think I need to go jogging/walking today if I can ever focus enough to get anything done so that I can go do that or maybe just go so maybe I can focus better later possibly or maybe just get Taco Bell.
  7. I had an unavoidable few days of sleep deprivation, one with a lot of sleep deprivation, and it is clearly causing some issues to start up! I had a call scheduled with my psychiatrist, but I missed it, and I do not know if he will call back again. He said that he would, but I would not count on it. I can down a lot of benadryl, but it is not helping very much. I was wondering if anybody had any good advice or suggestions for heading off an sleep deprivation induced episode or slowing it down.
  8. That's cool, I have never done therapy with a practitioner that used DBT, I think. I had a lot of success years ago with ERP with compulsions, but I don't think that would be easily found right away with my insurance. I will tell her that I am not that open to that variant of that particular technique and ask about variations. I did a quick google search and saw something about eating the ice or using hot sauce. However, I am somewhat afraid that it would be exchanging one ritual for another ritual, as well.
  9. I don't think it will work at all because I don't want to do it because it is too aversive. It is also impossible to do in a lot of situations like driving and circling around an area and making sure that I didn't run over anyone. There is no freezer there, plus it is more important because that is actually somewhat dangerous and not just a massive waste of time. Trying to resist compulsions is just giving me another weird tic that seems more involuntary.
  10. Apparently the foods include other nightshades. I don't know about you, but I eat potatoes and tomatoes every day. This information is really disappointing because I'd probably miserably fail a test even after I gave up tobacco. I hope you can figure out something or maybe the lab can give you some suggestions. "Dietary intake of nicotine may be an important factor in the interpretation of nicotine testing in nonsmokers. Foods that contain nicotine include cauliflower, eggplants, potatoes, and tomatoes. An individual may consume enough of these foods to obtain 1 µg of nicotine, the amount comparable to that inhaled by a passive smoker. The method of absorption is different when eating than it is when inhaling, and the level of nicotine is lower when the nicotine-containing foods are cooked. 9" https://arupconsult.com/content/nicotine-metabolites "Nicotine is an alkaloid found in the nightshade family of plants (Solanaceae), predominantly in tobacco, and in lower quantities in tomato, potato, eggplant (aubergine), and green pepper. Nicotine alkaloids are also found in the leaves of the coca plant." https://www.sciencedaily.com/terms/nicotine.htm#:~:text=Nicotine is an alkaloid found,leaves of the coca plant.
  11. Are you a vegetarian? Some less accurate nicotine urine tests hit if you eat too many cruciferous vegetables.
  12. Has anyone heard of using ice cubes for panic associated with delaying or fighting off compulsions associated with OCD or any other kind of panic? My therapist suggested trying it to help lessen panic to delay compulsions. I thought it might be kind of iffy. I tried it though, and it did break my rising anxiety, but it caused a different kind of anxiety because I was so disgusted. I had to wash my hands to get rid of the feeling of water worming out of my hand, and it might have been counterproductive. Maybe cold packs are better?
  13. I decided to schedule with a new therapy clinic because the phone system at my old place was hard to get through. It happened to have some therapists that were doing in-session appointments. I was pretty grateful for it because I do not know if the phone sessions were helping as much. I also do not have very much insight into my mood so it is helpful if they can notice if I am disheveled and smell weird or if I cannot stop moving and have bizarre clothes on. She specified in person only to the receptionist after my first session so I do not know if that means I am super batshit.
  14. My work is having a potluck. Only a few people are going. I am not going. That is a terrible idea at the start of flu season. I briefly considered going and not eating anything because it might ease my anxiety to get to know the faceless people behind the emails and voice chats better, but it doesn't seem worth it.
  15. My psychiatrist was sick on Friday, so I still don't know. I've been really thinking about it, though, and I have a feeling that it might be very removed intrusive thoughts because they talk about all my OCD crap like Satan and me harming people. What I have to do is mostly things that I associate with OCD.
  16. I think that restraining does increase my anxiety, and it tends to head straight towards depersonalization when I am in public, which is probably more annoying. I have a necklace like that, maybe I will look for something else in addition.
  17. Does hearing voices that present inside your head count as hearing voices? I mean as opposed to the type that are heard as if you are hearing with your ears, indistinguishable from the surroundings. They are completely uncontrollable by me and I feel compelled to speak or do something as a result of hearing them sometimes, though they do not tell me to do anything. I am pretty sure that they are some kind of mental subprocess that is completely out of my control. I described this to my new therapist, and she was still concerned and asked for the number for my psychiatrist, so I was wondering. I have an appointment with him on Friday, so I guess that I will ask him then, but I was kind of curious.
  18. I've worked in an Amazon warehouse that was for the flights, and it was pretty mentally stressful. I tend to not deal with work stresses very well, though, and the weirdly intense performance pressures and the odd social thing that was going on there stressed me out pretty bad. One thing that freaked me out a lot was that they rotated us around in between different types of work each day, with no way to predict it. I worked there over the holiday season, so that might influence my opinion. They offer a lot of unpaid time off.
  19. I have hypersomnia, but I tend to fall asleep suddenly and with little warning. I am lucky enough to have a better response to ritalin for it. I use a SAD lamp that Alexa turns on every morning at the same time and then an alarm. It helps a little bit. Sometimes I use it when I really need to stay awake, too. I hear you about it being hard to do things. I feel and am tested as safe to drive now, but it is hard to sit down for a while and not get very sleepy. The QC person was doing a meeting one day and my map was great except one spot and she was like were you falling asleep?!? and I just went ahead and admitted it.
  20. I lost some weight on it on higher doses. I am not really sure why. It didn't work very well at all for me, though, and I was kind of foggy on it. YMMV
  21. It isn't covid stuff, but I didn't get a whole lot of stuff because I already have too much. I am thinking of tossing a bunch of yarn, a ton of badly fitting clothes, some laptops that have been waiting to be fixed for years, a large collection of scented soaps that make me break out, and a lot of stuff like that that are sitting around in piles because I can't stand sitting at home and looking at this stuff and thinking about it. I haven't done anything with it for years and probably never will. I got motivated after posting this and started throwing away things, but then I came across a cheesy study bible that someone left here years ago. I felt guilty after I tossed it in the recycle bin, so I left it in the abandoned house on the street.
  22. Self care is pretty much a lifelong issue for me. I tend to decompensate and let go of most reasonable things like regular showers, brushing teeth, doing dishes, not eating pizza all the time. As time goes on, it becomes somewhat easier to regain some sort of reasonable self-care routine after out of an episode and sometimes retain some essential elements of my routine while in a particularly bad period.
  23. I've taken Strattera, guanfacine, and clonidine as an adult, but not together. I was taken off of Strattera during a psychotic episode, because I tend to react badly to antidepressants, and that was the last antidepressant-like thing that was in my cocktail. I took guanfacine and clonidine separately. I haven't tried most antidepressant augmentation strategies for ADHD. I found guanfacine and clonidine a lot more relaxing than Strattera, but Strattera was the only thing that seemed to help with concentration and attention out of the three for me, but I didn't notice it, other people did. It didn't feel anything like a stimulant, but apparently it really made a difference in my behavior that other people noticed and I couldn't detect at all. Guanfacine and clonidine seemed to help more with the weird restless anxiety and greater difficulty controlling my frustration. I don't have a super firm ADHD diagnosis, though.
  24. My psychiatrist referred me back to my sleep doctor for mild psychotic symptoms with insight and severe dissociative symptoms because he thinks they are associated with poor control of my sleep disorder. Is narcolepsy really that heavily associated with psychiatric symptoms? edit: Wow, I have been reading articles about psychosis associated with narcolepsy and it sounds really heavy on psychiatric symptoms. I didn't know about that, and that they figured out that it was neurological so recently. I bet it was considered psychiatric before that.
  25. I tried to quit Latuda because my differential diagnosis for bipolar with psychosis is a complex dissociative disorder, though it wasn't successful. I didn't feel a lot of withdrawals until a depressive psychosis hit really fast and hard. I think that they let me go too fast, and that slower is better and that the depression was connected to it because it was so rapid onset. Of course, I'm also prone to depressive psychosis and might not have been medicated well enough otherwise.
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