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  1. On 10/12/2020 at 8:32 PM, dancesintherain said:

    I've used ice for anxiety before, but not for a compulsion.  It's part of a DBT skill (TIPP) designed at getting  you to re-regulate when you're extremely dysregulated.  I don't really have compulsions, though, so I'm not sure what it would look like.  In anxiety it can be helpful to get my heart rate down and to slow down my thoughts.  That said, all of your reasons for why you don't like it make sense to me.  When I use it, I do an ice pack. 

    I'm not sure if that helps at all.  Just thought it might help to hear that it's not completely out in la-la-land. 

    I went back to the shrink today and told her that I didn't like the ice cube thing but I would like some other grounding technique and she told me to try washing the dishes and to focus on each of 5 senses and maybe put on music or something.  That seems great because I love the sensation of water but I hate washing dishes so if I decide washing dishes will make me more sane, I might start doing them more regularly.  That seems like a DBT skill, too.  I love meditation, maybe I could get into this mindfulness stuff.  

  2. I have a lot of these imaginary conflicts running through my head frequently as well.  I can get quite off-kilter about them.  I wouldn't say I'm always angry, sometimes I am angry and sometimes I am paranoid, but I tend towards anxiety most of the time.  I feel like I have some kind of unprocessed something? as well and am always running scenarios in my head to try to predict what will happen next, but it doesn't really work that well and I just get neurotic.  

  3. 10 minutes ago, KJ said:

    My Clone (daughter) just sent it to me. I though it was pertinent to this thread.


    She also sent me this, which is 100% accurate. She's 15.

    I want to send this to my dad.  Imma steal it.  

  4. 12 minutes ago, KJ said:

    I recently met someone, and after an hour or so, he asked what I was 'on', as in illegal drugs. I was quite taken aback, and had to admit that no, it's just my personality. I'm like this all the time. Which then left me to ruminate about what every single person I have ever met in my entire life thought of me.

    I get asked that, too.  I guess I take meds to not be inebriated.  

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  5. On 10/23/2020 at 1:49 PM, jarn said:

    Oh, I know, the sweeteners...yikes!  

    I do drink a lot of liquids, that's part of the problem.  With tea and water now I probably average 4-5 L a day, and I'd say that was similar to before, too.  

    Great job on giving up soda, it's so nasty!  I feel like the sweeteners are addictive, too.  It is creepy.  Averaging like 3L a day here of Diet Mt Dew.  I definitely need to give it up.  I have a really bad energy drink habit, too.  

  6. My psychiatrists often get to the point where they refer me to neurologists, and my current psychiatrist is telling me to go to the neurologist a lot.  I was not sure why, but I was talking to my partner, and he took me to the hospital again after I overturned an SUV a few times several years ago, and he said they said something about a TBI, but I didn't remember.  I know that it occurred in a different state.  I don't really remember what I told him about it.  I don't really know what's in my medical records about the time that I hit a semi truck and I don't really know how severe it was.  How can I bring up these concerns to a neurologist or whatever relevant doctor?  I don't even really remember much of anything about these accidents.  Also, my neurologist was last working with Covid patients the last I talked to him.  

  7. I take Klonopin for sleepwalking and I was trialed for some kind of prescription brand of melatonin because I probably have the REM type and not the non-REM type, but it didn't really work much.  Klonopin works better(for me)  but doesn't get rid of it.  I don't really have any useful  lifestyle advice for sleepwalking except we often sleep separately because REM sleep behavior disorder can have complete dream sequences acted out which is bad when they are terror dreams or action movie dreams.  

  8. I just asked a psychiatrist about it straight up and she asked me some questions about it and sent me to a psychological assessment with computerized tests and neuropsychological tests and whatnot and received a rule-out diagnosis of ADD because they weren't really sure.  They had historical questionnaires for two family members and someone that was currently close to me if I can recall correctly.  The neuropsychological tests seemed like they were also helpful for my psychologists/psychiatrists to clarify my other problems.  I think they usually do less testing, though.  

  9. I have never had a doctor that even mentioned picking up meds, including controlled meds, a couple days early, but I usually pick mine up late because I suck like that and forget to take them sometimes and develop a backlog, then forget to refill until my bottles are empty.  My pdoc had asked me whether I am still taking Klonopin and to make sure that I take it when he was the one prescribing it.  I was scheduled to take it 3 times a day, but I was worried about taking it that often and often took it less.  I mentioned this worry and he suggested taking it as prescribed to worry less.  I think that he was also checking this monitoring service.  I do not have a daytime dose anymore, so I probably should have paid more attention.

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  10. I am living with somebody else most of the time, but he is gone for quite a while semi-regularly.  I tend to go nuts from lack of social interaction.  It is not because I like it; it is as you described, the level of baseline anxiety gradual rises until it is to the level of the worst social anxiety for some reason that I don't understand.  I found some place that is doing in person therapy, I walk to a nearby dollar store most days and go inside and buy an energy drink, my therapist gave me the name of some kind of mental illness club or clubhouse or something that is still allowing people to come in-person.  

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  11. 1 hour ago, notloki said:

    It sounds like early waking.You should be able to sleep the whole night without waking, except to use the bathroom. I Have chronic pain, too, and pain is disastrous to sleep. pretty well need to be pain free to sleep. Do they treat your pain? The body will not heal quickly if you are in pain. If it is a chronic condition then it is worth it to see a pain doctor. In today's world they (DEA) don't want generalists writing pain med scripts. Pain doctors and neurologists are the ones they want writing long term pain meds.

    I do not take any medications for pain except for OTC meds, but have done PT and chiropracty, but not recently.  I did not realize that I was still bothered so much when I did not have to sit so much during the day, and I don't know if trying to up exercise to make up for the sitting is making it worse.  I probably really need to make an appointment because it is getting a lot worse when sitting or laying down, and that is ruining a lot of the day when I need to focus or sleep.  Work is not going well and I am going to have to sleep in another place because I am thrashing too much, way too much.  I have been reluctant to go back because physical therapy seems like it might be an ordeal right now.  

  12. 4 hours ago, notloki said:

    Ativan. Klonopin takes an hour to be effective and is used for early waking insomnia. The faster hitting benzos, Xanax, Ativan, and Halcion are used when the problem is getting to sleep. Ativan and Xanax have essentially the same time to onset

    I take Lunesta and Klonopin for early waking insomnia, it takes a lot to keep me asleep. When I  can't get to sleep I Take Ativan. If I have laid in bed and not fallen asleep in 30 mins. it is unlikely I will sleep.

    The problem with sleeping that I am having is that life is essentially a rolling series of naps, but I can't get a good long nap in at the end of the night, just a bunch of broken short naps, and it is increasing my tendency to microsleep and have short naps during the day, so Klonopin might work better because I guess that is early wake insomnia.  It might just be a problem of dosing or that I am getting jumpy.  I am also having a lot more physical pain in my back and legs now that I have started jogging and walking again and am worried that it is still messed up from an injury and delaying seeing a doctor.


    27 minutes ago, dilemma said:

    When I was having problems sleeping, I used low doses of Seroquel to help. I think it was recommended by people on this board, but it was years ago. It worked well.  Most people seemed to take 25mg-50mg. My sweet spot was 50mg although after quite awhile I had to bump it up to 100mg. 

    I now take a different AP than I was taking then, and it helps with sleep, so I went off the seroquel eventually.

    I still have some Seroquel laying around.  Maybe I should get rid of these tons of spare pills laying around?  I don't know if I will try taking some of it, but I will probably wait for my appointment.  It kept me asleep pretty well, but the side effects were not great for some reason that I don't remember.  I was taking Ambien for a while, though, and the side effects of that were probably the worst of anything, and it didn't even keep me asleep.  

  13. I am on Klonopin .25 mg per night for sleepwalking.  I have enough Klonopin to take more right now, but I don't know if I am still allowed to take the .5 Klonopins since my sleep doctor took me off the other dose.  I think I need to go jogging/walking today if I can ever focus enough to get anything done so that I can go do that or maybe just go so maybe I can focus better later possibly or maybe just get Taco Bell.  

  14. I had an unavoidable few days of sleep deprivation, one with a lot of sleep deprivation, and it is clearly causing some issues to start up!  I had a call scheduled with my psychiatrist, but I missed it, and I do not know if he will call back again.  He said that he would, but I would not count on it.  I can down a lot of benadryl, but it is not helping very much.  I was wondering if anybody had any good advice or suggestions for heading off an sleep deprivation induced episode or slowing it down.  

  15. That's cool, I have never done therapy with a practitioner that used DBT, I think.  I had a lot of success years ago with ERP with compulsions, but I don't think that would be easily found right away with my insurance.  I will tell her that I am not that open to that variant of that particular technique and ask about variations.  I did a quick google search and saw something about eating the ice or using hot sauce.  However, I am somewhat afraid that it would be exchanging one ritual for another ritual, as well.  

  16. I don't think it will work at all because I don't want to do it because it is too aversive.  It is also impossible to do in a lot of situations like driving and circling around an area and making sure that I didn't run over anyone.  There is no freezer there, plus it is more important because that is actually somewhat dangerous and not just a massive waste of time.  Trying to resist compulsions is just giving me another weird tic that seems more involuntary.  

  17. Apparently the foods include other nightshades.  I don't know about you, but I eat potatoes and tomatoes every day.  This information is really disappointing because I'd probably miserably fail a test even after I gave up tobacco.  I hope you can figure out something or maybe the lab can give you some suggestions.

    "Dietary intake of nicotine may be an important factor in the interpretation of nicotine testing in nonsmokers. Foods that contain nicotine include cauliflower, eggplants, potatoes, and tomatoes. An individual may consume enough of these foods to obtain 1 µg of nicotine, the amount comparable to that inhaled by a passive smoker. The method of absorption is different when eating than it is when inhaling, and the level of nicotine is lower when the nicotine-containing foods are cooked. 9"


    "Nicotine is an alkaloid found in the nightshade family of plants (Solanaceae), predominantly in tobacco, and in lower quantities in tomato, potato, eggplant (aubergine), and green pepper. Nicotine alkaloids are also found in the leaves of the coca plant."

    https://www.sciencedaily.com/terms/nicotine.htm#:~:text=Nicotine is an alkaloid found,leaves of the coca plant.


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  18. Has anyone heard of using ice cubes for panic associated with delaying or fighting off compulsions associated with OCD or any other kind of panic?

    My therapist suggested trying it to help lessen panic to delay compulsions. 

    I thought it might be kind of iffy.  I tried it though, and it did break my rising anxiety, but it caused a different kind of anxiety because I was so disgusted.  I had to wash my hands to get rid of the feeling of water worming out of my hand, and it might have been counterproductive.  Maybe cold packs are better?

  19. I decided to schedule with a new therapy clinic because the phone system at my old place was hard to get through.  It happened to have some therapists that were doing in-session appointments.  I was pretty grateful for it because I do not know if the phone sessions were helping as much.  I also do not have very much insight into my mood so it is helpful if they can notice if I am disheveled and smell weird or if I cannot stop moving and have bizarre clothes on.  She specified in person only to the receptionist after my first session so I do not know if that means I am super batshit.  

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