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  1. Rachel, thank you for responding! Benadryl generally doesn't really do anything to me one way or another, although I suppose I could try a slightly higher dose? Ah.... the alcohol thing... well, crap. Yeah I know I shouldn't drink while on this med (or the Wellbutrin) but I have a hard time not doing so. Alcohol has been my go-to for pulling me out of anxiety or panic and has worked in every single case with the exception of the friday before last. My doctor does know about this, and while he's not happy about it he says it's not a huge deal because I normally just have a shot. This said, I did drink a lot more than I normally do the weekend before because of my birthday... I never even put this together until now but it's an interesting observation... I don't drink any caffeine at all, so I'm good there. The exercise thing does generally help me, and I think I'm in a better place to follow that advice now. Friday, there was just no way. I will try to force myself to take that advice when the next attack hits. I did end up talking to my doctor yesterday and he prescribed propanonol (sp?) for me, which I've never been on before. Crossing my fingers that it will help. Thank you again!
  2. First, I apologize for the length of this novel. I am in so much emotional pain, I just want to be really detailed so nothing will be missed. I will do ANYTHING to stop feeling this way. I'm not even sure where to start, except that I've been on generic Seroquel now for 8 or 9 years. I'm on 100 mgs for extreme social axiety that no other med could touch. Seroquel used to be a god-send for me, without it I would have never have been able to have gone to college or really even talked to people. The problem... and it took me years to figure this out... is that Seroquel mostly gets rid of social anxiety and replaces it with generalized anxiety and occasional panic attacks. For the last 5 years or so I've had these horrific panic attacks that will come out of nowhere and last for hours. I'm not 100% sure that it is the Seroquel, but I do know that two other drugs in the same antipsychotic class have messed me up really bad (akathesia from hell, literal nonstop panic attacks, etc.) and it makes me wonder if I've been getting a low-level constant panic from this drug. Let me also say that I've been on like 30 different meds in my lifetime and most of them do weird crap to me. I'll get massive side-effects from half of the lowest dose, or they will work completely opposite to how they're supposed to, etc. My psychiatrists are always stumped when it comes to me, and I've been getting more and more med-phobic the more I try stuff out because of this. So. With talking to my current psychiatrist, we decided to have me come off of the Seroquel to see if this bad anxiety/panic goes away. We are doing it SUPER slow, lowering 10 mgs a month. Why are we going so slow? The last time I tried to come off Seroquel, I did it in one month and ended up inpatient for 2 weeks, out of my mind with panic. The friday before last, I dropped down 10 mgs so I'm now on 90 mgs. The first couple of days were completely fine.... then, as bad timing had it, I went onto my placebo week for my birth control and LOST IT. I'm on Seasonale birth control for intense PMDD. Normally, when I get off the active pills and go onto placebo, I get wildy suicidal (I'm used to it) but this time I went into the panic attack to end all panic attacks. In hindsite, I really should have payed more attention to the calendar and not have gone down on the Seroquel when I did. Well... I got right back on my active pills for my birth control right away, skipping half the placebo week and within a couple of days things were better. However, I'm still in this horrible panic place. Here's the timeline: 4/8 - went down from 100 to 90 mgs on Seroquel 4/11 - started placebo week of birth control 4/15 - had a panic attack that lasted for 13 straight hours (I know that's supposedly impossible but that's what happened) 4/16 - went back on active pills for birth control - still tons of panic 4/17 - still tons of panic 4/18 - still tons of panic 4/19 (today) - still tons of panic When I say really bad panic, I mean that I am having at least 1 panic attack an hour. My husband has stayed home from work since last friday to take care of me because I can't even brush my teeth without collapsing on the ground in tears feeling like I can't do it. I am not exaggerating, it really is that pathetic. Does this sound like a Seroquel withdrawal thing? Even though I only lowered the dose 10 mgs? Anyone ever heard of such a thing? Any help or information would be welcome. I'll answer any questions. I just can't keep going on like this, I honestly am really really upset that panic attacks can't kill you because at least then my brain wouldn't be on fire.
  3. My doctor is having me switch from Prozac to Cymbalta. He didn't give me any instructions other than to just replace one with the other. However, I'm a little worried if this is the right way to make the transition. I guess I assumed that I needed to wean off one before I got on the other. If I had really thought about it when I was in his office, I would have asked for clarification, but my memory and ability to reason has gone out the window since being on meds. Argh. Anyway, I left a message for him to call me back but in the meantime I was hoping for some opinions of people on the forums. Has anyone else ever switched from one to the other in this same fashion? Thanks. -Shay
  4. I'm almost certain that there is a correlation between my eating habits and anxiety. I can usually stop a panic attack in it's tracks if I get something to eat. I know it's not the same for everyone, but it's a big thing for me. I also think that I am hypoglycemic which probably contributes to the problem. That combined with the fact that I have disordered eating doesn't help. I'm not sure that it's a coincidence or not that I am close to my lowest weight ever (way below BMI) and I am the most anxious I've ever been... As far as forcing yourself to eat regular meals, that's a hard one. Especially if you aren't even hungry. Perhaps it would be easier if you had several smaller meals throughout the day instead of 3 bigger ones.
  5. I was actually wondering if that's what it was. I've never experienced it for this long before, only short periods of time. I will visit that website recommended by momo77, and talk to my p-doc on wednesday. I really, really hope it starts to go away Thank you!
  6. I don't understand this, and it's really beginning to freak me out...I hope someone may be able to shed some light on what's going on with me. I have been completely off of Klonopin for about a week and a half. Before that, I had taken about a month to taper myself down from my prescribed dosage of 1-2 mgs daily. This was actually even slower than my doctor was telling me I could get off of it. I did get some withdrawal side effects (nervousness, shaking, etc.) that has, for the most part gone away (except for the shaking now and again). But the weird thing is, I have pretty much felt like I've been stoned for the entire week and a half. I hope I'm allowed to say that. Anyway, I feel "outside of my head" and have a very strange sedated thinking/feeling that doesn't go away, even when I am feeling nervous. I know that sounds weird, but it's impossible to describe other than to say that it feels almost exactly like being on Indica strains of cannibus. ...except it won't go away. Why might this be happening? Has anyone else ever experienced it? It seems like the exact opposite should be happening.
  7. I was on it for about a week, and it gave me akathesia, so I had to stop. But everyone experiences different drugs differently, and if there's a horrible side effect for a drug, it seems like I always get it. I say give it a try, you can always go off it if it doesn't work for you (under doctor's orders, of course).
  8. My therapist and I have been working on this exact problem for longer than I'd like to admit. While most of me wants to recover, there's this small part in my brain that is terrified of it, and that holds me back from trying as hard as I could be. For me (I can't speak for everyone), I'm scared of the responsibilities that would be expected of me, and I don't think that I could "hold up" to other people's expectations. I've also depended a lot upon others and had my family help me alot (to the point of enabling me), and it's hard for me to imagine all of that being gone. I feel like up until now I've been on crutches, and once they're gone, I'll fall. Er, If that makes any sense...
  9. I've read in various places that sometimes stopping a drug that you were on and then restarting it might cause it to act "differently" the next time around. Is there any truth to this? I've stopped taking Seroquel twice, for various (stupid) reasons. This is my third time on it and I feel that it is working a little differently. Actually, in some ways it is good. I used to have crazy angry rage on this med (one of the reasons I stopped taking it). This time around, I do not. This may or may not have to do with the fact that my doctor has me on a few other meds as well. In particular, he put me on Prozac to see if that might fight off the anger symptom. I have no idea if that is what's happening or not, or if it's just because I've stopped and restarted the Seroquel and it's working differently now. It also doesn't seem to be working quite as well for my anxiety this time around (the reason I've been on it before). It is working, just...not as strongly as before. This may have to do with the fact that I had a complete anxious breakdown after going off of it the last time, which landed me in the psych ward. I almost feel like I blew a fuse in my brain or something. I feel like I'm permanently doomed to be anxious at least a good percentage of the time I'm thinking of asking my doctor to up my dosage, but I just wanted to hear your guys opinions about stopping and restarting a drug several times over. Is it normal for meds to not work as well/work better/work differently?
  10. My 2 cents: The only time I ever went inpatient was because of this unending panic and fear of the world that had all but encompassed me. I guess mine is slightly different in that, because I was so afraid all the time, I was googling resources about the best way to kill yourself/ I downloaded a suicide book online, etc. At the time I wanted to die, not because of depression (although that came later), but because I was just so scared of everything. So I guess what I'm saying is, if you feel your anxiety growing to this point, you definitely want to go. I would even dare to say that if you think you could get to that point, you might want to think about going as well. You mentioned that you are also afraid of being "locked inside". If that's the case, I echo Bueler's advice to maybe stay with a friend instead, unless your panic gets worse and it would be safer for you to be inpatient. Since these panic episodes have been occurring more than once, maybe you should also think about talking to your doctor about changing meds or dosages of meds? It sucks to be panicky all the time.
  11. I'm the exact same way. I've never taken the "test" for hypoglycemia, but I'm fairly certain I have it. Others in my extended family are hypoglycemic. I am diagnosed mood disorder NOS (for now), but I do wonder how much my blood sugar levels are affecting me mood-wise, especially since I have an eating disorder as well, which doesn't help. Argh.
  12. I honestly feel that the solar flares have been affecting me. I've felt really strange, very out of it and sort of "stoned" for lack of a better word. I've been reading up that solar flares can have that affect on some people, and I think that I tend to react to events such as these moreso than others. Whether or not it's related, I'm also one of those people who, when I get really upset, have caused computers, cell phones, and other electronics to shut down. It all leads me to believe that I am very sensitive to electromagnetic and "other" fields of energy. Or maybe I just read into things too much, lol. I don't know.
  13. Ok, so when I go to sign in, it cannot find me at all and tells me to enter a different name or password. Nothing works, including my email address. It tells me it can't find me. The weird thing is, if I click to create a new account and type in my username, it tells me that it is available. Strange, since I've never closed my account or anything. The only way I've figured out how to "hack in" to the site is to do a google search for one of my old topics, and as soon as I click on the link, I'm automatically logged in here. Does that make any sense? Any way of fixing this?
  14. I get this when I'm sitting down and I put my head down and close my eyes. I feel very dizzy too, like I'm on a merry go round. As another underweight person, I never even thought about it being related to blood sugar/underweighted-ness/etc.
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