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About larkspur

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    I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired

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    correcting people, current events, dogs, avoiding responsibilities, medical cannabis

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  1. I thought of you today.
    Still have your number in my phone.
    I miss you.  Very much.

  2. On this date three years ago was the last time I heard your voice. I’m so sorry for not doing more and trying more to make sure you were okay. I miss your brilliant mind, all of our talks. I love you always Kate 

  3. I love you always 

  4. Another year without you here has passed (although I am a few months late in writing this). I hope you've found peace and happiness, wherever you are. ❤️ You are deeply missed.

  5. You are never forgotten <3 

  6. I love you so much, I miss you like crazy. Truly, madly, deeply always.

    1. Seahorse


      How are you now?

  7. damnit i miss you :( 

    zoey tried to take your title! i can't handle it right now :(

  8. 7 months doesn't seem real. I miss you so much, Ash can spell your name I found that out by surprise but she misses you. I love you, I'm sorry I'm messing everything up lately.

  9. You will always have my heart, I miss you more than I can describe. I'd give anything to see you and Jordyn again.  This time last year you and I were aching to be together, I was so sick but I had your shirt that smelled like you and that truly kept me going. I have never loved anyone the way I love you. I'm so sorry babe, I let you down and broke your heart and I'll spend the rest of my life hating myself  for pushing what we had away. The 6th would've been our first anniversary together, happy anniversary my love. 

  10. hi lark.

    it's so weird: i'm leaving this note as if you were going to read it and respond.

    i don't know what the afterlife holds but i hope it's either serene and peaceful or thrillingly exhilarating. you know better than i do.

    i miss you lark. much love, shari

  11. I miss you. I'm sorry. <3 

  12. Hi babe. I miss you so much. I don't know what to do I keep trying to think of what you would say right now to help me but I'm coming up short. I just find myself looking at all of our pictures. I love you and I'm so sorry, I'd give anything to hold you or talk to you one more time. I love you with all my heart and soul. 

  13. I'm allergic to hydrocodone (Vicodin/Norco/Lortab), and I'm not allowed to take my precious meloxicam when I'm on lithium therapy, so when I was in pain management I was put on muscle relaxants, like baclofen, first. It didn't do anything (neither did Soma, Flexeril, Zanaflex, etc.) Next my doctor tried fentanyl patches. He actually offered me the choice of Butrans, but it gets a bad wrap and my brothers are heroin addicts, so I felt weird about it. After putting on the first patch before bed, I woke up the next morning convinced that fentanyl was made of magic. I felt SO MUCH BETTER overnight. Then, after a couple weeks, the pain would flare up if I did too much bending/twisting/lifting/walking/standing/etc. so I took Percocet as well on bad days. For pain management, it was a lovely combination. BUT, the side effects are horrible. I had my license suspended because I fell asleep at the wheel and sideswiped an SUV. Falling asleep at an inappropriate time happened a lot. I would call them "surprise naps," and I would fall asleep sitting straight up or standing. Then I tried to go off the fentanyl with my doctor's blessing, but I was still only taking the lowest dose (25mcg/hour I think) and you can't cut them so I had no choice but to just quit wearing them. Enter opiate withdrawal. Feeling shaky and sick for a few days is one thing, but I was mentally and emotionally so fucked up from withdrawal that I had a huge meltdown (in CB chat...embarrassing) and got into a fight with my wife and threatened suicide and had access to a substance that was very toxic in overdose and had the bottle in my hand, so it was really a close call. At the urging of many other members here, I called my dad and asked him to drive me to the psych hospital. Still ended up with a 72 hour hold because I went batshit in the exam room at the ER. My pain threshold was so low that the blood pressure cuff made me scream in agony, it hurt to be alive, and pretty soon I was just sobbing and screaming at thr poor resident about how I should've done it and it was so stupid to come to the hospital. Once I was back in the ward and they were able to give me one of my prescribed Percocet, I was in much better shape. I used the Percocet PRN (5/325s x 60 would last me two, almost 3 months), and had no withdrawal whatsoever when I was done with that course of treatment. Also: the majority of my pain is related to muscle tension, so what ended up working for me when I had to quit NSAIDs was Valium. And injections/acupuncture are great if you have back pain in your muscles.
  14. what up larkspur

    1. larkspur


      Haahahahaa I had no idea this was a thing. Profiles are so complex now.

    2. Alien Navel Cord

      Alien Navel Cord

      I know. I admit I am not fully sure how it works. It looks like a twitter or something. I feel old.

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