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    How are yas :)

    Suffer from social anxiety, erythrophobia, depression and in between all that i suffer from selective hearing, addiction issues, sleep problems, anger issues, hocd, alot of paranoia and the list could go on! I have a dysfunctional family and my family problems mixed with my MH problems do not make a good combination! Things have calmed down now that my mother is not here anymore, but, the abuse (mental more so than physical) i suffered and still suffer, still lays within me...

    In 2008 i became agoraphobic. After a LOT of work i have managed to re-build up my life to a satifactory level. I volunteer and am studying for a degree. The one thing i have to thank for all that is my dear friend Xanax. They may be my friend, but, they are also my enemy, as I fear those pills, coz, they are the one thing that put my life together, yet, they are the one thing that can make it fall to pieces...

    I have been in several type of therapies since i was 17, including addiction therapy. Im currently in a psychodynamic therapy. Im not in therapy to find a 'cure', coz the hope of being cured is non-existent. Im now in therapy to learn about my life, and how ive come to be the person i am today - god love my therapist!!!

    On the outside my life is full, but, on the inside i still feel empty. I believe there is no point crying over spilt milk, but, sometimes that was you last drop, the shop is closed, and even if it were to be open, dont matter, coz I aint got no money! Moral of the story: Shit happens and it's okay to cry sometimes!

    I like to think about things and see things in different perspectives, therefore am open to opinion and suggestion. I am intrested in music. Music is my life. It is a way of life for me.

    So, yeah.. if you wish to know more...you know what to do :P
  1. Good documentary.. Thanks for posting.. It makes it sound so easy at the end lol... My problem is the in-voluntary responces when the trigger hits. Its this i cannot gain control over. I can know in my mind that the situations are not to be feared, yet, the anxiety still hits, and brings these responces that i cannot get grips on. I know i need to deal with my mind to concour the responces, but, the responces are so over-whelming its as though i go into auto-pilot...
  2. Yet you did not make that perfectly clear in your original post. Clarity may be an ongoing problem for you. I suggest you take six steps back and give a great deal more thought to what you post before you actually post! You posted the above in another topic. You are now passed your trial and error allotment. Think about what and how you post, eh? If you state the disclaimers in your opening post rather than waiting for one of the other members to point out your errors you will be ahead of the game, eh? ...i dont undrstand why since i have come here, these have been the fair amount of responces ive gotten...
  3. Yeah, it sounds like you have alcoholism too.... maybe not to best person to be dishing out advice on how it's okay to let your hair down and have a drink. Well pointed out.......cheers! I never denied i had a problem..and have actully had treatment for my addiction problems... But i think you were wrong to single me out there to say that, as i was only giving advice to what i know from personal experiences... It is okay to let loose every now and again..for those who can control their drinking... The OP has a choice, a choice to re-gain control. But if control is lost then help is needed...
  4. Hey, thanks for the replies... Yeah, im very much out there in the big bad world! Its just, i take Xanax to do most things that i do. I just feel i cannot build up my life the way that i am; depending on Xanax for more and more situations.... ...but, in all honesty, i feel its my only way...
  5. Im very sorry to what this thread has come to be..i really am, and i am really genuinly sorry if i have offended people..that was NEVER my intention... I am NOT saying that meds are good nor bad. All i am saying, is, that in the past they didnt help me - that is my experience... I get that meds have helped ALOT of people and will continue to do so. I get that meds have actully saved many many lives. I get that people need their meds. I get all of that.......... I just hate my life, and that's the bottom point for my making of this thread - to see if i should try another route..... But cheers for your input anyway, yeah...
  6. OK, fair enough, some of yous think the changes are good...i think different... Grief has now become a mental disorder..if it is voted in... I dont see how yous cant see though that they can change the criteria to how it seems to 'them'. Really, are they the one to tell us what is right and wrong?? Looking back to the first DSM there was very little mental illnesses listed in it.......it has now grown into a HUGE book full of what is not right... There are problems in the world that people face.........................i just think it COMPLETELY WRONG to list things that are 'normal', but 'normal' to another group of people, as mental disorders................... Ive i video that may show yous different.....if your intrested PM me......its all a load of shite.....
  7. I need to stop doing @"/#$ and get things sorted out..................jaysus!
  8. Right, so, i guess ill continue with the questions... Have you ever been in hospital? If so, why...?
  9. ^ This is one of my things i have towards all meds anyway..including Xanax.. I DEFO know that Xanax is not acceptable long term..believe me i fear them very much so. The difference between Xanax and other meds is that i know it works, to lower my anxiety and calm me down.I never said that other psych meds were out, i just said that they never helped me before, and actully made me worse. With all that is said in here about meds, this may come accross wrong, but, em, the chemical imbalance theory has never been proven... And look, im not dis-ing meds, as this is what this thread has seem to come to make out i am..if anything i am the opposite; open to try But, what i asked here, was, should i try to see if i am suffering from something that has not yet been said to me...
  10. Was supposed to add also that its ok to drink and let loose. Heck, we all gotta let our hair down! But, just keep an eye on how much you are consuming and why you are consuming it. Drinking on your own can create a whole seperate problem for yourself also..it did for me anyway..and ill leave out the details...
  11. Hey, you dont want to become an alcoholic..trust me! Becoming an alcoholic means you are handing your life over to the bottle. I dont know how much you drink, what you drink or how you behave when drinking, but, drink can be the devil. My mother is an alcoholic and it has ruined my families life. I dont know what age you are, but, if you are young, then think of how you could be in the future. My mother never thought she would end up the way she is now, but, she is like that now and if she could have peered into the future, im guessing she would not have made those decisions she did.... I am a heavy binge drinker. I also drink to medicate my anxieties. I fear for my own self with my alcohol consumption. Difference is, i am aware to where i can be headed. I have seen first hand the pain and damage that alcohol can bring. Alcoholism is not just the drinkers problem. It involves those closest also. Those closest, they watch things deteriorate and try to help the drinker, only hurting themselves in the process. For me, in the end, i dont want to be anywhere near my mother and neither does anybody in my family. Not alone has drink turned her into an abusive person, she is very ill due to alcoholism. You have the choice... Id have to agree with mylo, drink is one of the Worst drugs out there. It is leathel. There are much much better drugs out there..not saying go out and swap you "habit", but,seriously, drink can be fatal...
  12. Confused, i really really have tried all the options out there - including CBT. I am not against meds, i just dont think anything will improve if i take them, but, i am becomeing desperate and i cant live my life on Xanax....or can i?! I do say to people that if my anxiety was just to be on the inside, then there would be no stopping me. However, due to erythrophobia, its much much different for me. I dont expect you nor anyone to understand. Erythrophobia, as far as im aware is not so heard of and for that reason, i feel so alone with it, without understanding. I live, to only be met by humiliation. Humiliation i would much rather avoid...but i am doing my best...its just fustrating that i cant do things i would like to do... I have come a loooong way with my anxiety. I went through a period of agroaphobia and have built up my life from there...and am bloody well proud at what i have achieved though the suffering, yet, im still suffering... CrankyMe, if i familiarise myself with the surroundings, exits etc. it would help alright. But it doesnt take away the fact my anxiety shows on the outside. The only way that i could avoid that humiliation is to take a Xanax....but, i am consuming too much of them already...and even at that, erythrophobia can still rear its ugly head! I'll force myself one day....i force myself everyday anyway... I just hate living like this... btw, sorry if i sound like im just dis-ing all yous are saying to me, i just really am trapped...
  13. Hey there, I have a feeling that your therapist may just be trying to make sure you dont consume yourself in your MH. I have personally found that you can begin to live in your head when you are constantly on forums. I know that i am SO consumed by my MH that it is almost a seperate problem of mine. I personally believe that forums are a great resource and they should be acknowledged more by people living with MH problems. The understanding and support you recieve from other members is a huge benifit to 'us'. I do think though, that if you spend hours on a forum like this then the 'real' world becomes second and that can create problems. Suppose that is more on an internet addiction problem... I duno what type of therapy you are in, but, i know if my therapist knew i was getting advice online from people, she would think that my opinion is being swayed and the aim of my therapy is to be able to think and act for myself... Conclusion: If it isnt creating more problems, then what is the problem?!
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