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  1. I took Saphris when they were doing research on it way back when and again a couple of years ago. I didn't have any side effects except the terrible taste in your mouth for an hour and a sore that developed under my tongue. It also didn't help me but that's different for everyone.
  2. It's been a long time but I'm back here at the forums. I'm at a very low point in my schizoaffective disorder, just struggling with deep depression. I've been writing in my blog but I think it would do me some good to communicate directly with people who know how it goes. Sooo you might see me in chat or in the forums and feel free to say hello.
  3. It's been a long time since I've been back on the forums but here I am. I've been taking nortriptyline for over a month now and I'm at 200 mg. They originally put me on a low dose for headaches but my pdoc didn't think it would work well with the effexor I was taking and bumped up the dose and eased me off the effexor. I feel like I'm losing my mind in that I forget things pretty much instantly like leaving my purse in the cart at the store and not realizing it until I drove home. Or like where I put whatever I just had in my hands. My thoughts are all haywire and I'm not usually like this. I usually have an almost photographic memory and yesterday I actually turned to go down a one-way the wrong way in a small town I've lived in for years. I FORGOT TO TELL MY PDOC AT MY APPOINTMENT THAT I FORGET EVERYTHING! I called before the weekend but now I have to wait to hear back and my appointment isn't for a few weeks. Anyone else out there struggling like this? How are you coping? I should also include that I am unbelievably depressed so this just brings me down lower. I'm actually getting a little scared that I may have to go IP for the first time in over a year.
  4. Got out of IP last night

    1. netsavy006


      Welcome back. Hope IP was helpful and best wishes in future treatment.

    2. koa


      I was wondering where you'd been. Glad to hear from you.

    3. humanoid


      Welcome back, good to hear from you. I hope IP helped.

  5. False. The person below me hates Facebook.
  6. Hmm, I did a search but it didn't come up with anything. Guess I should have looked myself.
  7. I know some people's usernames mean something personal and they won't want to share, but sitting in chat I started wondering how people came up with their username and what they mean. Of course if you don't want to share that's cool too. I'll start. My username is different parts of my name in shorthand.
  8. In chat the other day Dr. Faustus brought up the idea of CB Olympics. People had some great ideas on "events" and I was wondering, if there were CB Olympics, what would be your best "event"? Here are some ideas: Who can stay in bed the longest Who can go the longest without a shower Who goes to the pharmacy the most times in a week Be creative! And...go!
  9. When it comes to my pdoc and medications we are treating each symptom as they come, for psychosis, depression, and insomnia. I guess you could say the Seroquel is treating mania as well, as I haven't had any since I started it. My therapist, however, treats me for all parts of my illness, such as coping with symptoms, dealing with how my MI influences relationships, and so much more. I also consider the coping skills I use at home as part of my treatment.
  10. I have had ECT and I understand how scary it can be. All I can think to tell you is to think about how much it helped when you had them done before. You can do this.
  11. I was IP once and when I told a couple of guys why I was there one of them said, "But you look so...normal". No one seems to believe me when I tell them I'm crazy. The only people who believe me are my family and friends that have been there when I've lost it. Hell, even now I'm really depressed and my dad doesn't think it's that bad. I think like everyone else I do my best to hide it. I also agree that people have their ideas of what people with MI look and act like that are just not realistic.
  12. I was depressed as a child. I can't remember when it started because I remember always feeling different. That could have been because my parents were abusive and my dad was at that time an undiagnosed schizophrenic. When I was in middle school my mother told me I wasn't sick, I was depressed. I had some mania in high school but got severely depressed my junior year. My pre-calc (or was it trig?) teacher gave me a B for turning in exactly one and half chapters of work because she "knew I was going through something". It was when I was 16 that I overdosed for the first time. They sent me to MHI (mental health institute) for a couple of months. My mom left me not long after that and I wallowed in my depression until mania hit me at 19. I turned my life upside down and starting at age 20 I overdosed more times than I can count. Somewhere in there I started having psychotic symptoms. Anyways one of the times I was hospitalized for ODing they gave me my Dx, schizoaffective - bipolar type. It prolly would have gone better had they actually treated me for schizoaffective when I started having symptoms instead of telling me I just wanted attention. ETA: Sorry didn't mean to write a book.
  13. I like to learn from other people's mistakes. All people, not just people with MI. But some of the things I've learned from people with MI are invaluable, like how sharing your own experience can help other people, and to never stop fighting for yourself. I think that's why I love group therapy so much. Now if only I could find one...
  14. That would be true. The person below me loves the rain.
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