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  1. Basically it means you have psychotic symptoms outside of a manic or depressive episode along with manic and/or depressive episodes
  2. I Could Be Dreaming by Belle and Sebastian
  3. Ability made me manic and gave me severe insomnia. I stopped at about a week.
  4. Cheese I don't know what to say about the calls. They should be returning them. Sometimes the nurses at the treatment place here are overwhelmed and it takes 2 days. Can you email your pdoc directly? That's what I do when I have a problem and dr. usually gets back in the same day. In terms of getting accepted by a private tdoc, I just wanted you to know that I see a private tdoc and he had no hesitation when I told him my DX. You just need to shop around and ask the therapist if they have experience with helping people with DXs similar to yours.
  5. Maybe if PRNs don't work, get a sleep study.
  6. Yes. Winters are always the worst and when historically I've been hospitalized.
  7. Entitlements is a propaganda term used by the rich and their allies in politics to confuse the public. Polls show that people overwhelmingly support taking care of the poor and disabled but when the term welfare is put in the poll, you see a drop in empathy. If you have a mental illness and struggle then your receiving benefits is just a drop in the bucket compared to what the taxpayer pays for corporate welfare. In this country, we have rigid free market capitalism for the common man and nanny state socialism for corporations. You should not feel guilty about getting public assistance if you need it.
  8. I think the depakote seems to be working. My mood has improved, less suicidal thoughts and more energy.
  9. I was in the hospital and it was working but had various side effects and pdoc put me on latuda instead
  10. Abilify made me shop compulsively and I know it even has a warning of compulsive gambling (which is kind of the same thing). Ablify and rexulti are suppose to be chemically related but my experience with both was different. Abilify gave me a lot of energy and worked worked right away whereas rexulti was more like taking an antidepressant and took awhile to work and worked on mood rather than psychosis. I'm thinking of going off of it. Invega is really good for psychosis. I wish I could still take it.
  11. I think the US should be partioned by those who believe in science and those who don't and we'll see who wins.
  12. It's my birthday but I have been having suicidal ideation all day. I feel like a failure and blame my MI for ruining my life and keeping me from getting ahead in life. There is the ER but there is no fucking way I'm going there with the cornovirus. Also there could be an outbreak in the mental hospital and as we've seen the state could give a shit about people dying en masse in nursing homes. Also the ER never really helps. For the first several hours they accuse me of being on drugs until my urine test shows I'm clean. They never fucking apologize. Then I have to wait like 6 hours to wait for being taken to the hospital. I either get sent to the major shitly hospital or the okay one. At this point, I've taken practically every med so I don't know. Clozapine helps with the psychosis but I still have a horrible mood.
  13. Going out to the store has a contradictory effect on me. On the one hand, I'm completely paranoid about getting the coronavirus but on the other hand, it feels so good to be out of the house cooped up all day.
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