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  1. So, here's the thing. I have been trying to decide if I'm gay or bisexual. My romantic orientation is strictly homosexual while my sexual orientation is homosexual leaning male. Thoughts?
  2. No. It is not quite that invasive. I will quote a medical website with a brief description.
  3. That's interesting. Someone I know is a schizophrenic and is on two of those medications. He's had no such problems. In fact, he does quite well on his current regimen. He's about as high functioning as one can be. Interestingly enough, I have no history of schizophrenia, but Paxil causes medication induced psychosis in me in the form of homicidal ideations. I don't have that problem with other SSRIs, just Paxil as far as I know.
  4. I have talked to both my primary physician and an orthopedic surgeon. I have decided it's time to have tennis elbow release. Has anyone here ever had the surgery? I am wondering if anyone can give me any idea what to expect. Obviously, I asked my doctors about it, but there are some things you can find out from others' first hand experience.
  5. With fireworks, it's actually my vision that seems most affected by them unless a bunch of firecrackers go off close to me. By the way, thanks for the input, everyone. I asked my therapist about hypervigilance, and she says if a person is triggered several times a day, it is a problem. I am triggered several times a day, especially on days when I am particularly anxious.
  6. I'm off to yet another appointment today. It's time to see my endocrinologist. 

  7. I am wondering if anyone else experiences these symptoms as part of their anxiety disorder(s). They are related obviously and have to do with stimuli. 1. I get flustered and fearful when someone touches me when I am unaware. I occasionally even lash out, because it scares me. 2. When I am otherwise occupied, hearing something like a telephone or someone sneezing can freak me out. Not too long ago, I actually spilled a glass of strawberry milk on myself. I was in the kitchen, and my niece was in the hallway behind me. She sneezed, and I freaked, spilling the milk everywhere. It can be rather inconvenient.
  8. I've only been on the higher dose since Friday. The lower dose had little effect. I don't seem to have any problem with driving or walking around. It just seems like I have a more carefree attitude about certain things, so I have a looser tongue. It could be considered clouded judgment, which is a sign of intoxication. Perhaps I just need some time to adjust to the higher dose and should try to speak less in the mean time.
  9. Hey guys. My doctor just put me back on Xanax last month. He started me at .25 mg BID, and it was not quite sufficient. Thus, he bumped it up to .5, which is what it was when I took it before. One thing I notice now, though, is that I'm even more mouthy, which is not really a good thing. I'm not nervous about someone's reactions, because the Xanax is simply making me feel like everything is just peachy, kind of like the color of the pill. Other than that, I feel like it's working well. Obviously, I am responsible for what I say and do, and it would be wrong for me to suggest that the medication is solely to blame. When I am not in a state of high anxiety, I am actually quite laid back and tend to say what's on my mind. Still, I'm sure I'm not the only person out there who's ran into problems like this, where their mental problems have actually inhibited other negative attributes. I suppose when it comes down to it, some of us have multiple layers of craziness.
  10. It sure is. This guy is also crazy. While he's still alive and capable of reproducing, he is in danger of losing such capabilities. http://darwinawards.com/stupid/stupid2014-01.html I love Jack in the Box, but I would think waiting six more days for an Ultimate Cheeseburger (what I would have ordered) would have been a better idea. Of course, ass hats are ass hats.
  11. Stupidity amuses me, and nothing is more stupid than people removing themselves and others from the genepool, either through death or rendering themselves unable to reproduce. Here are 3 prime examples. I figure this is a good place to have a laugh. After all, even though we're all a bit off in our own way, at least we're way better off than these fools. You can find these 3 and many other cases in which humans have managed to win this most dubious of awards here. http://www.darwinawards.com/ Feelfree to post your favorites! First is an example of a dumbass rendering himself unable to reproduce: http://www.darwinawards.com/darwin/darwin2014-05.html Now, how about a jackass who offed himself by being an idiot? http://www.darwinawards.com/darwin/darwin2013-04.html Normally, there are not nominations for offing other people, but exceptions can be made for some idiots. http://www.darwinawards.com/darwin/darwin2014-08.html
  12. Interestingly enough, I don't take Topamax for BPD, but it does seem to help my moods somewhat. Honestly, I find the most helpful medication overall is Xanax to be honest, and that's because anxiety and panic attacks are co-occurring along with BPD and depression for me. I only found out recently about having BPD, so I suppose it's all on an individual basis. SSRIs are said to be the most effective overall, but again, that's not always the case, because everyone is different.
  13. Thanks! I have lost some weight, a little over 60 pounds. I have a lot more to lose. Because of my back problems and knee problems, I have to limit what kind of exercises I do though. Some exercises can actually cause further injury.
  14. Hi guys, this is my second time posting in this particular board. For a long time, I have had issues with major depression and anxiety with panic attacks, but it always seemed like there was something more. I have always been intense mood swings, and I often found myself asking therapists I've had in the past if I was bipolar or something, because I knew there had to be another piece of the puzzle, another explanation for my intense mood swings and erratic behavior. Anyway, the more I had learned about BPD, the more I wondered if I needed to talked to a mental health professional to see if I met the criteria. Two days ago, I did just that. I had an appointment with a psychiatric nurse practitioner, and she asked me a series of questions. Unfortunately, I meet the criteria. On the plus side, I happen to be high functioning, so my BPD is not quite too severe. In addition, I am already somewhat familiar with mindfulness and meditation, which are are key components of DBT. However, my new therapist is not actually trained in DBT as she was licensed before DBT was developed. Still, I think she will be able to help me deal with the disorder. Last night, I downloaded an e-book from Amazon called The Borderline Personality Disorder Survival Guide: Everything You Need to Know About Living with BPD by Dr. Alexander L. Chapman and Dr. Kim L. Gratz.. I haven't finished reading it yet, but it is a great book so far, and now I don't feel so hopeless about living with BPD. Still, it is overwhelming. The reality is, depression and anxiety disorders along with my physical health issues are hard enough to deal with. Knowing that I also have BPD, my life even more complicated than I realized.
  15. I don't know about anyone else, but I really like Macklemore and Ryan Lewis's new single featuring Mary Lambert called Same Love. The song has a strong message in support of the LGBT community, and I really like this song. It also talks about homophobia. Mary Lambert also happens to be a lesbian.
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