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  1. John Nash, dramatised in the movie A Beautiful Mind rejected medication, and overcame his schizophrenia through willpower, and little tricks. The one aspect of me that I can count on to be better than 99.9% of people is my brain; this intelligence made me get past any obstacle that ever presented itself to my life (was last pick in elementary school, and then went on to become 40+ time gold medalist in track and field in high school; was last in my class in math in the first grade (8% on midterm exam) and then went on to win first place in a national mathematics competition, just to name a few examples) and BP isn't going to be the first obstacle I can't defeat. Taking medication completely dulled my mind, which then meant I was just a normal person with no advantages over the average person. I can't stand being average, not when I was on the top in all aspects of my life. Even though I couldn't feel depressed on medication, in my mind I knew I had lost my best asset - taking medication is depressive. My life, it has to keep going up.
  2. 1 week update: everything is fine, no hypomanic episodes nor depressive episodes. I took a 50 MG about 3 days ago, and I think the balance is even better now. As Ace said, I use a lot of coping skills to manage my symptoms; when I took the meds, I was able to feel peaceful for the first time in years, so now I know which feeling to shoot for without meds (I had forgotten what "normal" was). So whenever I deviate from this peaceful state, I know something's off, and therefore use tricks to get back into the "normal" zone such as recognizing psychotic thoughts, external triggers, and then actively dismissing them. The more often I do this, the better I become at it, and so the more "cured" I am ; practice makes perfect.
  3. I just asked my professor. The progesterone in the contraceptive pill helps the endometrium retain its thickness. When you miss a contraceptive pill, your progesterone levels drop, and therefore cause the endometrium to shed, and thus bleed. It's perfectly normal, and you have nothing to worry about, just a normal withdrawal symptom. Just make sure you're taking the contraceptive pills regularly if you're having sexual intercourse, as missing one might not protect you from pregnancy. You can ask your local pharmacy to make dispills for you (usually at no charge), so you don't need to think about which pills to take every day (your pills will be separated into tiny boxes labeled with the date and time to take them). WebRep currentVote noRating noWeight
  4. That brown stuff might be withdrawal bleeding, it's a side effect of missing your pill. You could try other contraceptive methods that don't require a daily pill, such as the Nuvaring.
  5. So I'm a pretty athletic guy with a ripped body, and I like wearing black wifebeaters with aviator sunglasses during the summer. I also wear a Christian silver necklace cross. Apparently that makes me look like a douchebag, which is quite the opposite of me. I don't worry about it too much, as I will probably still continue to wear these clothes, but I'm curious to know your perceptions. In reality, I'm a medical student, who follows Christian principles (respect, good manners, etc.), very well spoken, who's pretty open minded about anything (will tall about anything with anyone). So my question is: do you look past someone's appearance or do you judge them on it? Do you assume that someone who's muscled and wears that style is a thug or do you think he might be a good guy who just likes to wear functional, comfortable clothes? (Wifebeaters are the best during the summer, and aviators provide the best protection from the sun since I bike/run/row a lot outside.) Personally, I know better to judge people who wear "douchebag" clothes nowadays, as almost a third of the men in my class look like "douchebags", though we're highly educated and good people, and also since personally I fit the anti-stereotype bill.
  6. Ah interesting, I only watched the movie, so there wasn't much character development of Daisy. She was pretty much passive and reacting to the events of her life. In the movie, Gatsby seems very manic.
  7. How allergy works is that there is at first an allergen that your body gets exposed to, and this provokes a synthesis of IgEs (E immunoglobulins) which attach themselves to mast cells. A further exposure to the allergen will cause a release of histamines, leukotrienes, prostaglandins, tromboxanes which cause the sneezing and itchiness. A few hours later, in 50% of the patients, monocytes, eosinophils, macrophages, and basophils migrate to the location of exposure (usually your nose), and cause a hypersensilisation to non-allergenic factors (cold or hot air, high humidity, smoke, strong odours, dust, etc.) In your case there seems to be no sneezing, so it's a hypersensitivity allergic reaction. [edited out information on specific dosing information and exactly what prescriptions the OP should ask their doctor for. We do not give out medical advice here as this is a peer support site. No one here is allowed to give knowledge out as a medical professional. theprinciple, I STRONGLY suggest you read your private messages.]
  8. I watched The Great Gatsby a while ago, and I can't help but relate to him. Is it me or is he undiagnosed bipolar? He's got delusions of grandeur, obsessive thoughts/behaviours, reckless driving, great irritability, one moment he's extremely confident, the next he has social anxiety.
  9. Normal for me is being able to live in the present, fully concentrated on my current situation, and enjoying every moment of it, and my emotional state also being peaceful. I know I'm deviating off normal when I get obsessive thoughts about the future or the past; it's normal to think about the future and past once in a while to make clear well thought decisions. When I dwell on obsessive thought for more than 5-10 minutes, I start telling myself to clear my mind and move on. It's harder done than said, but it helped me stay "normal". Also, forget about "time". Have an approximate schedule, but don't rush on time. I'd rather be healthy mentally by feeling safe and at peace than trying to "save" 1 or 2 minutes by driving aggressively, or rushing to get things done (doing things when relaxed will ensure a better outcome, and less worry about the future - you'll also have less opportunities to obsess about the past if you don't make stupid mistakes of rushing/inattention ). If you're really willing to live and feel "normally", you have to learn to think with a proper mental attitude (taking the right meds will help you if you have low emotional and mental control, but without a proper attitude, you still wont be "normal"). It requires both (and if one day your attitude develops very well, you might be able to talk to your pdoc and get off meds completely or lower doses). So to develop a winning attitude, I recommend listening to "Dale Carnegie - How to stop worrying and start living". It's available in audio book format on YouTube (about 9 and a half hours long - I listen to it while exercising or when driving, or before I sleep). It really made me be able to relax beyond what meds can do.
  10. Okay, well my parents and two of my close friends know I'm off meds. I'm going to tell my pdoc this when I see her. I got treated because of a very stressful first year of med school that completely broke my life apart, triggered rapid cycling BP. I also read an article written by a psychologist who said mild bipolar disorder can be cured through normal brain development if you're still in your late teens to early twenties. http://m.psychologytoday.com/blog/bipolar-you/201206/can-bipolar-disorder-be-cured-0
  11. Hmmm, so what did you get hospitalized for Titania? My father was able to stop smoking first try, cold Turkey. My mother was able to lose weight in her early twenties to become one of the most beautiful women (model material). So my family has quite a lot of willpower; same with me, when I want something I make sure I succeed (I've stopped all bad habits the day I stopped taking seroquel), I don't even touch my laptop anymore. So far it's just studying, exercising, going out with friends, taking my little brother to the park, having very good conversations with my parents, having a good time at work, reading books; I think my life is even more balanced than "normal" people right now. I just stopped worrying about time, take everything relax, and make sure I do everything in the present moment to my best potential. My parents are wealthy so my past impulse buys that caused over 20K in debt are also paid off. I'm in medical school, so life is perfect (as in the relaxed environment + no stress perfect; not the manic perfect). I'm very honest with my situation and self nowadays, to keep a grip on reality, and I'm constantly checking up my emotions (to make sure I'm always feeling peaceful and relaxed; and if something is causing a problem, I solve it right away). Keeping this mindset, grounding myself to reality, and keeping stress out, I think I can continue this normal phase for a very long time, maybe indefinitely.
  12. Alright thanks for the advices. The pdoc says I'm BP 2, so I'm gonna take this chance to get off meds (I'm sure Winston Churchill never took meds and still governed a country), the worse that could happen isn't so bad that I would have to be hospitalized.
  13. Sorry for the double post, I'm on my phone and don't know how to edit from it. Perhaps this could lead to further research on actually finding a cure for BP, ADHD, MDD, etc. Working with drugs to force homeostasis to cause endocytosis or exocytosis of receptors (depending on whether you have too many or too little). I'll also keep updates on my condition, maybe I'm not cured and this is only a temporary stable period; but for all your sakes and mine, I hope this could work, and that maybe in a few years they wont just try to achieve stability with drugs, but use drugs as a tool to help you achieve it without.
  14. I know BP is "incurable" according to textbooks, but then again this isn't the first time my body has defied the general understanding of medicine. My mood had been fluctuating wildly for the past year and I was put on Seroquel (150 MG, slowly tapering up; the pdoc wants me on 300). I took it for about 2 weeks and a half, and then stopped completely cold Turkey. I wasn't able to fall asleep until 4 AM, and basically woke up a little more than 3 hours later. Now it's been 3 days, and last night I was able to fall asleep at 11 pm, and I woke up at 6:30. My mood has been very stable during these days too. At first the Seroquel worked wonders, keeping me stable and a bit high, but only until 4 days ago, when I suddenly hit a low (extreme apathy for no reason). So I thought that must mean my body had adapted itself to the Seroquel (my chemical balance re-established) probably through endocytosis of Serotonin receptors (natural body mechanism trying to reestablish homeostasis). And much to my positive surprise, I was able to keep a very balanced mood for these past days; concentration also increased from discontinuing Seroquel (I had worse concentration before starting it, so my concentration is maybe a 10-100 fold greater than when I was starting the treatment). Also, I don't think this is a manic phase, my sex drive had also sharply decreased from the past (I still get turned on, but I can control it, and don't feel the urge to act on it - not even repressing the sexual urges; the just dissappear naturally when I tell myself it's not the time). I've been talking normal amounts, not many delusional thoughts (except if you count this one, and the rebound psychosis the few hours right after discontinuing the drug), no impulsiveness neither now. I'm not depressed neither, I look forward to going to work today, and getting a good workout before that. So yeah I just think that I got the right balance of serotonin receptors after a little help from Seroquel and my own body's homeostasis; I had to take this chance, if I didn't, it might've been the point of no return, when I would've been completely dependent on drugs for the rest of my life (number of serotonin receptors balance knocked to the complete opposite).
  15. Hi, I've recently been diagnosed with bipolar disorder (don't know which type yet), and the psychiatrist prescribed me some Seroquel XR. She told me to slowly increase the dose: Week 1: 50 mg DIE HS x 7 days Week 2: 100 mg DIE HS x 7 days Week 3: 150 mg DIE HS x 7 days Week 4 and until they find an appropriate dose: 200 mg DIE HS *DIE = once daily **HS = at bedtime I just started 150 mg last night, and I suddenly lost about 3 lbs., and I woke up this morning experiencing a down phase. I was 161 lbs. before starting Seroquel, and now I'm at 156-157 lbs. My cheeks have also hollowed. Kind of like this: It makes me look sick under certain lighting, and I feel like I lost a lot of muscle mass (looking in the mirror). The psychiatrist told me it might make me gain weight, but I'm experiencing the opposite (cut appetite too; usually I have a huge appetite after working out, but now I always feel disgusted by food), and even after 2 weeks of this, I'm still sleeping 12 hours a night. So, my question is, have any of you experienced weight loss on this? Also, how are you managing with the drowsiness (excessive sleeping)? What would increasing the dose do to my body?
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