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  1. When I took lithium I was taking it 3 times a day, 300mg in the morning, 300mg in the afternoon, and 600mg in the evening.
  2. As far as side effects were concerned my appetite was greatly reduced to the point where I had to be reminded to eat and when I did eat I ate little. As per combining with another antidepressant I did with Cipralex (Lexapro) which kicked my depression in the butt but made me manic.
  3. Do you find that when you have racing thoughts that you get sucked into your own mind and lost in your thoughts? Like, I can't focus on anything other than my own thoughts, I can't maintain a conversation or make decisions or anything. My thoughts are just consuming and totally taking over me. It's like I can't control them, they're just happening and there's nothing I can do about them. I can't control the content or the speed or anything and it's just getting to be too much I just want it to stop! I would do ANYTHING to make this stop.
  4. I'm sorry you had to go through that, as a few people have already said most meds carry an inherent risk of serious side effects and while they are unlikely they do happen to some people. I took Latuda and I had no side effects from it. Again I'm sorry you had to go through that, I hope it doesn't put you off getting medication to help you with your condition.
  5. Do you find your psychosis changes depending on your mood? When I'm down and depressed I find it's very persecutory, negative and just all around a horrible experience. The voices tell me people are out to get me, people want me dead, I need to hurt myself etc. and I get very paranoid. When I'm more in an up mood I find that the voices tell me nice things, like I'm good looking, people like me, I'm going to win contests, I'm special in some way. I don't get paranoid or anything like that when I'm like this. Does anybody else find this to be true in some way?
  6. As a general rule I think it's a bad idea for those of us with mental health issues, and since you're on this site you must have a mental health issue correct? Is it really worth the risk of making your mental health worse in the long run for a temporary high? Edit: Forgot some words.
  7. I think this was the first AD I tried, it was like taking a sugar pill it didn't do anything good or bad for me. I believe I was on just 20mg though, hard to remember though as this was like 7 years ago.
  8. My pdoc when I was IP told me to take my Saphris once at night, but when I filled my prescription at the pharmacy they told me I should be taking it twice a day. I'm going to just keep doing what the pdoc said until my next pdoc appointment but I was curious about when everyone else took their Saphris? I'm not sure I could take it twice a day, it kind of knocks me out when I take it at night so I can't imagine having to take it in the morning when I'm trying to wake up.
  9. I take 3 antipsychotics and if anything I've noticed my driving is better. I'm less distracted, less stressed out, less aggressive, all stuff that makes me a better driver.
  10. Mine are voices I don't recognize. Usually I just hear things like mumbling that I can't make out, or sometimes they're statements like "Put it back to how it was" or "They're all looking at you." Sometimes I just hear screaming and it gives me a horrid headache. Occasionally they'll ask questions but that doesn't happen often, and a lot of the time I'll hear a family member saying my name and think they're nearby talking about me when in reality they don't even live in the same town as me.
  11. I started getting symptoms at 8, first time going to the hospital at 17 and dx with psychosis, and finally dxed with sza at 23.
  12. I know someone was messing with them though, they're all moved around and there's little silver things in the bottles with the meds so I'm way to freaked out to take them. Maybe if I had new meds and I never let them out of my sight and I watched them prepare them I'd be willing to take them but I doubt any pharmacy would entertain that idea nor do I have the money or scripts to get new meds...
  13. My wife is threatening to take me to the hospital if I don't start taking my meds again anyways but I'm 100% positive they've been tampered with and are more than likely poison so I REALLY don't want to. So I might end up in there anyways at this rate.
  14. I'm going to try to get it out if I ever get left alone which I can't see happening any time soon. I really want it out so that this can be over. The screaming won't stop and it's giving me a splitting headache but I've been putting on my happy I'm fine face for my wife so she doesn't worry about me. I don't see my pdoc until Thursday...I wish it were sooner
  15. I don't know what to do. I can't think right anymore, all I'm hearing is screaming since I got home from work and apparently nobody else can hear it, I'm seeing floating words that my wife refuses to read because she says they're not there and they look like just gibberish to me. I figured out where the antenna for the transmitter is and I desperately want to dig it out but I would need to be alone to do that, I can feel it under my skin in my arm. I'm not worried about my wife anymore, I think she was brainwashed yesterday but she seems to have overpowered it and is back to normal which I'm super happy about. I just want this all to stop! I'd do anything, I know that if I can dig out the antenna the screaming will at least stop but then I need to figure out a way to get these people to stop following me and planning my death. I don't know how I'm going to do that, maybe after I remove the antenna if I skip town they won't be able to find me again? I don't know if I could do that though, my wife would never agree to it because she doesn't believe that this is all real. I want to tell my pdoc about this because she always listens to me and has good ideas, but not my psych nurse so I'm glad she's on vacation right now, she always says things like "You're just delusional" which makes me angry. I just want everything to shut up right now so I can think, it's taken me an hour just to type this! ARG
  16. My wife got home a little after two hours after I posted this thread but I don't really want to get into that. There are people planning on killing me, I'm a failed experiment and I need to be disposed of. The people who are after me are a group of scientists who experimented on me as a child which is why I can see and hear things other people can't ever since then, they installed a transmitter in my brain that allows them to communicate with me via audible thoughts and images. But now I've outlived my use and have become a threat to them because I know about them so they need to get rid of me. They've bugged my home so they can monitor me in the meantime.
  17. Thank you both for your quick replies. I guess I'm not based in reality right now if you're both right. My mind is trying to tell me that you're both in on it but I'm trying not to listen... I had a bunch of ramblings here but I think it'd be best if I didn't post those...
  18. I just need someone's objective opinion on this. I just got home from work and my wife's car was gone, I went inside and found that she was not home. I texted her asking her if she had an appointment that I had forgotten about and no response. I texted her again asking her another question and still no response. I'm really REALLY worried now that she's gone off and is now working for the people who've been following me around and planning to kill me. I'm not sure if that makes any sense in reality or not, I feel like if she's abandoned me and is working for them then what's the point in going on anymore? I've been betrayed by the one person I could trust and now I'm hopelessly lost and see no point in life anymore if that's the case. What do I do??
  19. Sounds like a bad idea to me, if you have a condition that would warrant you having been prescribed antipsychotics then smoking a bunch of weed is like playing with fire. It sounds like a good way to cause a relapse to me and I doubt you want that.
  20. This is from when our puppy was first born, I think he was just a week or two old at the time. He was just a little fluff ball! This is him when we were first able to take him home, I think he's just adorable in this picture.
  21. I agree with confused, I'd be worried about people if I lived in a bad neighbourhood regardless of my MI.
  22. I've found that Risperdal makes me overeat like crazy so you're not alone in that. The side effect never went away for me so I ended up having to switch meds. I don't think I ever yelled at nurses for food though.
  23. We have two dogs. Oldest is Joey, we're not sure how old he really is but we think he's about 6 or so. He was a rescue dog from a mean household. He's come a long way since we got him, he used to be terrified of absolutely everything. And youngest is Haydn, who's less than a year old still and is just a puppy.
  24. ^THIS makes everything worse, even if I am stable on meds. Same here, whenever I'm stressed or overtired my symptoms just compound and get worse and worse. Even if I do something as simple as having too much caffeine I find it can make symptoms worse for me. That's usually when I start to have auditory hallucinations with my visual ones.
  25. A few weeks ago I had an appointment with my pdoc where we lowered my Abilify dose to 10mg and upped my Latuda dose to 80mg. A week after the change my symptoms came back so I started taking my Abilify at 20mg again thinking it was due to going down on my Abilify that my symptoms came back, the problem is that even though I went back to the 20mg my symptoms haven't gone away again yet. I spoke to my psych nurse about my concerns, told her what some of my thoughts were and what she wants to do is; -Get me to quit my job and go on disability -Refer me to day program -Possibly get me on depot injections I'm not sure what I think about all this. I don't want to quit my job and I'm not sure my family could make it with me on disability...but I'm not doing well and she thinks a lot of it is stress related. I'm at a total loss as to what I should be doing.
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