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  1. Yes, definitely ~ My niece asked me over Thanksgiving many many years ago if she would catch what is wrong with me. I challenged her to define what is wrong with me and she said, you know your mental illness, will I get that too? She was 10 years old at that time. Her mom (my sister) began smothering her with kisses assuring her she would not. Then I got up to get seconds and when I came back, my area had been cleared off and my niece was sitting in my place and would not move. So, I took my plate and sat outside on the veranda. How embarrassing/humiliating was that, we even had very old family friends attending that meal too. No one stood up for me. I never went back. People can be no-it-alls and it is sickening about medication. Well, let them have their own opinion, as clearly they don't know what they are talking about. It's almost laughable. You know what you are doing as prescribed by your doctor, try not to let this one opinionated !@#$%^& make you feel bad. Just consider the source.
  2. I hear you jt ~ I have to have turkey with all the trimmings on Thanksgiving. I doubt now if I ordered the trimmings and turkey now, I would not get anything. The person that invited me last 4 years did not invite me this year and that hurt a bit too. I am left wondering why. Wishing you an enjoyable Thanksgiving and hoping your dinner will be what you expected it to be.
  3. Thank you Red and Juniper *smiles* I have no family nor anyone I would call a close friend to invite me to Thanksgiving. I wish I planned for this, usually the holiday catches up with me and I forget to do something special for myself. Big sigh !!
  4. It's the week before Thanksgiving and not one person has invited me to their home or to get together to celebrate Thanksgiving. I go thru this every year and suddenly Thanksgiving is 4 days away. I usually prepare my own special dinner to ward off feelings of isolation during this holiday, this year, I was too depressed to even think ahead. Now it's 4 days away, no one has invited me and I didn't buy any food to prepare. I have to have food delivered because I am disabled and cannot drive. It's too late to order thru my grocery delivery as I'm sure the store is out of most of the things I usually get to make. So, now depression is inking in big time and my thinking is that since no one invited me, I must not be regarded as a close enough friend to be considered to sit at their table for Thanksgiving and causing me to rethink who is on my friend list. I feel soo abandoned and very sad.
  5. I have no close friends anymore, mostly due to my disability and being unable to get out and about. However, I have one neighbor who has reached out to me and has provided transportation for me, which I regard as a very special person of interest now. She has a strange quirk. She calls most evenings to chat, but..... she will only talk 30 minutes. I got to the point where I watch the clock to get what I want to talk about in quickly. She will announce it's time to go and she suddenly hangs up. She will also talk over the top of me and cut me off in the middle of a conversation. It's very frustrating to be timed with conversations like this. She did explain that she has to use the bathroom frequently and that is one reason why she times the conversations, but when that happens to me, I just excuse myself for a minute or to, go my business and come right back. My former neighbor will, right in the middle of something I am talking about, will suddenly announce that so-and-so is calling her, she will call me right back and off she goes, never to call me back again. I don't get it. I am used to talking for longer times. Since I live a very isolated life, I feel the need to talk longer than 30 minutes or less.
  6. I worked my way up to 5mg of Zyprexa last 10 days, but still very irritable. I snap at everyone, so everyone is naturally leaving me alone. I don't like living this way. Left a message with my prescribing doctor about this irritability issue. Update, prescribing doc called and suggested I go up 1/4 of a tablet and get the irritability and mood swings under control before I start the Lamictal. So, took another 1/4 tablet which makes 1/2 of a 5 mg tablet I have taken so far this morning. Seizure doc prescribed Lamictal, but holding off starting that until I feel more stable on Zyprexa. Zyprexa used to calm my mind, not sure why it's not working so well this time around. I have been on all the other anti-psychotics and Zyprexa is the only one I can tolerate. Anti-depressants don't work for me, can't tolerate any of the SSRI's. In the middle of a card game last Monday, I got mad at one of the players, threw my cards down on the table and left. That is not like me, I never display anger towards anyone. Very upset over all this irritability and moodiness and now what happened at the card game, very ashamed of my behavior. I have since apologized to the person I offended, will attend the card game this evening and see how I do. Gulp !!
  7. My county recognized my cat as a pet therapy animal, so that my monthly and security deposit was waived. I filled out a Reasonable Accommodation Request and it was approved.
  8. Opposite action is one of my favorites - anything to redirect painful moments. Present Moment activities such as touch, observe, feel, hear, taste - to use all the senses to ground myself. I have taken several classes in DBT. I have all of M. Linehan's DVD's. Need to get it out again. Wishing we could start a thread here, like a mini course for those of us interested to follow and interact with.
  9. Opposite to Emotion Mind is either Wise Mind or Logic Mind, which on the spectrum do you want to be? Like your idea of reminder rings.
  10. Started on a new Bucket List yesterday, been awhile since I did something like this. Since taking Zyprexa I am feeling more like getting out of my recliner and going to do something special. So far: go to a specialty restaurant I have always wanted, day after Thanksgiving activity, something to do on Thanksgiving, visit a barn with horses, visit a furniture store and buy a new recliner, go back to church, attend a yoga class.
  11. Thank you Medi ~ I needed to hear this. I am on day two of a hypomanic state. Had 12 hour sleep last two days, but not correcting it yet. Have been slowly upping Zyprexa to 5 mg + adding in Trasadone and Klonopin. Still through out the daytime hours, I feel the mood shifting (take another 1/4 tablet of Zyprexa) which I can settle down for another 4 hours until the irritability and paranoia inks back in. Trying to get enough coverage so that I don't have to take Zyprexa 4X a day. Shopping, yeup, did some damage yesterday, oh my !!
  12. I have been getting 90 day refills until recently. Still looking into this. Planning ahead and all my PRN's will continue to fill monthly. Learning how to play the system with my HMO.
  13. Wonderful YOU !!! Soo glad to hear you were able to talk about some of the things you needed to bring up !! Hoping it helped.
  14. So, have been battling with my HMO about soo many things. I have several complaints in to Medicare too, but the thing with my HMO, they can refuse to send my medical records to CMS (Medicare) and Medicare will close my case, so unfair. Yesterday, I went over a 5 page letter of issues with my HMO. One issue I have with their prescriptions, is that if I do not call in to refill a prescription in 3 months, they will automatically cancel the prescription and I have to go back to my ordering physician to put in a new refill for me. I was trying to refill Medropred for my status migraine and found out the system automatically cancelled the prescription. This is a PRN medication and I only take it as needed, but my HMO will not hold open a medication for more than 3 months before they discontinue my script. I am outraged about this. Also, with labs, my HMO will cancel a standing order if I do not go within 30 days to have labwork done. Some months, I can barely get out of bed, let alone travel far to the lab. I want to get away from this HMO, but I get free prescriptions and free co-pays and I never go into the donut hole as I am covered 100%. The beauty of this HMO is that it's a cost plan thru Medicare and I can go outside the plan and see a specialist. However, Medicare is going to stop this Cost Plan in 2020 because Medicare is paying out too much money (80%). I want to start a secondary plan and drop this HMO but because of my cancer background, my monthly premium quoted to me was quite high. There are many other issues I am battling now, will see how my HMO answers all my questions.
  15. Here is a response from "Authorized Generics", sent away for some research for you, hope this helps : ""Thank you for your email. The September 2018 listing, and quarterly updates to the listing, refer only to Authorized Generic products that are marketed under the authority of an approved New Drug Application (NDA). Generic products are marketed under an Abbreviated New Drug Application (ANDA). The following webpage provides background information on the difference between an authorized generic and generic: https://www.fda.gov/Drugs/DevelopmentApprovalProcess/HowDrugsareDevelopedandApproved/ApprovalApplications/AbbreviatedNewDrugApplicationANDAGenerics/ucm126389.htm Authorized Generics Team ""
  16. Thank you mikl I have heard the same thing from other posts, that once one gets to the higher level, the side effects are more easily managed. I have never been able to get up into any theraputic range, but this time I am going to try. Will not make any appointments for two weeks and give myself a chance to adjust to Lamictal and plan to spend time at home. Appreciate your response
  17. That's great, I'm happy that you do not have liver disease, like I do, notloki Every medication I take has to be approved by my Hepatologist. I have Non-Alcoholic Fatty Liver Disease with Stage One Fibrosis along my portal vein. Now, I have to be very careful what meds I can take that are cleared thru my liver. I have been seeing a Hepatologist who approves all my medications and he did my liver biopsy. Many of my generation, those born in the 50's and 60's are now finding that there is an over-abundance of seniors requiring liver transplants and a severe shortage of available livers. Once liver disease starts and until you reach Stage 3 Cirrhosis, you can actually reverse some of the fatty liver disease, by controlling your diet. After Stage 3, you are put on the transplant list if your MELD score is high and medications are then dispensed. At this stage the disease is not reversible. For the past year I have been under the supervision of my Hepatologist and I also belong to the American Liver Foundation. You can find a great liver support group called "Inspire" where there is a wealth of information there, especially specific diets to begin early on to prevent the progression of this disease. Fatty Liver Disease is epidemic proportions now, even children get this. Alot of physicians prefer not to go to the expense of an ultrasound as there is no real cure for fatty liver disease and alot of physicians do not understand how to treat and prevent. I would rather know if I had this disease and take action now before it's too late. One other thing, my liver values have always remained normal despite the biopsy findings. Now, I am battling chronic hyperammonia which is in my blood and this is a side effect from liver disease. Once the ammonia gets to certain levels it can cross the blood brain barrier and cause encephalitis of the brain. This is nothing to fool around with, so I try to urge anyone who is interested in this discussion and try to educate what I went thru. Okay, we can agree to disagree. Read my posting below
  18. Thank you mikl I tried Lamictal in 2008 and gave it 60 days but the side effects pounded me, even at the lowest dose. My symptoms were: feeling overly stimulated, insomnia, vision issues. I remember the vision issues scared me. I was in the grocery store and suddenly I noticed that my vision changed, it was like a window blind was pulled down and I could only see half of my vision. It remained that way for hours and slowly my vision returned. That was when I went off of it. I was also on Pamelor at the same time and Pamelor is well known for competing with other medications. I am off Pamelor now, so will give it another try. I suspect the hallucinations I am seeing how may be seizure auras due to the increase in the Zyprexa, but that is a guess. I wish I could feel good everyday - no wait, the same every day, sigh, it's soo much fun to be me.
  19. I would push for the ultrasound, just to rule out "fatty liver disease". True, meds do raise liver enzymes, but try not to let your primary dismiss your request for an ultrasound, you need to know. I won't hound you until February, lol.
  20. Low iron can be a liver issue, have you had an ultrasound of your liver yet? Sorry to keep bugging you about this.
  21. I would think "Nocturnal Panic Attack" would be covered by a sleep/neurologist doctor. Are you due for a sleep study? There are medications for this that will help with your sleep. You can't go on this way with disruptive sleep as that induces mood issues. I would urge you to see a sleep doc and get a study done, let them watch your brain patterns while this goes on. Also, one other consideration is that your pulse oxygen may decrease as you begin to go to sleep which would be caught in a sleep study. I don't know if I asked you this or not, but do you have Sleep Apnea. I ask because how you describe your body's natural awakening just as you are going off to sleep sounds like what I went thru until I was put on my CPAP. My sudden arousal was due to my pulse oxygen suddenly dropping when I started the sleep pattern. One more thought is that Lamictal can be stimulating, what time of day do you take that? The mean-half life is 29 hours, so wondering about asking your prescribing doctor if you can take this drug every other day.
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