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  1. I must correct myself, and say that this does not in fact sound like binge drinking. What I am hearing from you is, in my opinion, more along the lines of disordered thinking, with a hefty dose of denial. Sorry to be blunt. We can certainly listen, offer our experiences and make suggestions, but at the end of the day you have to reach the point of personally recognising that there is seriously risky behaviour going on here, and it's not heading anywhere good. Some might call it reaching your own rock bottom, but I hope it doesn't go as far as that. PS - there is no need to apologise. Perhaps the fact that all this is coming out means that you are realising and acknowledging that this is something that needs to be worked on sooner rather than later.
  2. @Fluent In Silence I'm wondering if you're labouring under the belief that because you're (presumably) not running around hiding bottles in the toilet cistern and the back of cupboards - things that you might equate with the stereotypical behaviour of an alcoholic - that you don't have a problem. I went through several drug rehab programmes for my own substance abuse issues, and in every case some of the alcohol abusers in there with me were binge drinkers. It's just as dangerous - in some ways more so, because it comes with the delusion that you have control because you're "only" drinking yourself into oblivion 2-3 days a week, or whatever. Your liver is still taking a hammering, and it is still a really shitty coping mechanism with a bad long term prognosis. Just something to think about. I might be more coherent if it weren't 5 o'clock in the morning, but I wanted to put this out there before I forgot.
  3. Not a particularly helpful start to your CB membership - (1) this thread is 7 years old, and (2) while you were probably intending to be funny, it's actually a little mean spirited. We knew what this poster was trying to say at the time.
  4. Straight and simple here - it's a criminal offence not to wear a mask in public. But we are way behind with vaccinations - now that they've finished with frontline workers, they're currently only busy with people in the general public over 50 yrs old. I'm in my forties and do not expect to become eligible until August (optimistic) or September (realistic). Basically, I don't foresee the mask mandate changing for a while yet to come, which I'm 100% happy with.
  5. We have the answer, we just need the question! A warm welcome to you. Feel free to contact me or another moderator if you need help with anything. Mia
  6. Hi Mixxyjixxy Here at CrazyBoards our goal is to approach self harm within a recovery context. This means that we aim to encourage one another in the process of finding alternative coping methods. We do not judge when someone has slipped or is having trouble quitting, but equally we do not encourage or tolerate sharing details of self harm methods for others to try. I am sorry that you are in a bad place right now. You say the "news broke" that you were hurting yourself. Do you have access to a counsellor at your school, or is your mother helping you to seek professional guidance? There are several helpful topics pinned at the top of the self injury forum, including our guidelines for posting here. I encourage you to read through them. Mia (moderator)
  7. You have dealt with this topic extremely poorly from the start, and you're stomping right into the realm of being a bigger asshole than the moderators, which is a no-no. Even if you have been around here on and off since 2012, you should have picked up by now that on CB we do not advocate competing on who is more "ill" than whom, or pass judgement on the basis of diagnoses and the type and amount of medication we are or are not taking. I would encourage you to pack up and go back to one of your other forums. Mia (one of the asshole moderators)
  8. Never gonna tell a lie and desert you. Total earworm! In the spirit of Mr Astley, I will not lie and pretend that I know what the tech issue is. I will however be going to bed now with his voice in my head, so thanks for that.
  9. I would read it too, but agree that you should stay within the boundaries of whatever feels right or most comfortable to you. I am so sorry you're going through this whole shitty thing.
  10. It's really hard to tell. Back when things were "normal" (pre-March 2020) I would typically get to the office at 07h30, have a 30 min lunch break and leave at 16h00. I work for a university and depending on where we are in the annual academic calendar, I could be head down, skipping lunch and slogging through til after 16h00. In easier periods it would probably add up to about 6.5 to 7 hours out of 8 - that's a random guess though, as I am trying to factor in conversations with colleagues and that kind of thing. My country has been in lockdown since March last year, and as it is possible for me to work entirely from home, that's where I've been since. My working hours here have radically changed, and not for the better. Since my workspace is now my kitchen table, and I no longer have to worry about rush hour traffic, my days start at 7am. I sit down and deal with emails, have a shower and get dressed at 8am, then continue through to 12 when I usually pop out for groceries or a quick break. My days end whenever... there is this expectation that because people know I am at home, they can contact me whenever they like, which delays things I'm trying to prioritise and my working day can easily drag on to after 6pm. It is also now very rare for me not to spend at least one day a weekend working. So out of an "8 hour" day I am spending 10+ hours at the computer (that includes online meetings). My pdoc keeps telling me that I'm heading for a breakdown, but I don't know what else to do. I feel beholden to the fact that I am lucky enough to have a job which is safe, in a period in which many have lost theirs.
  11. Totally understand, and I'm so sorry you're going through this. In the past with similar situations people have told me that I'm making the kindest and most loving decision, which is absolutely true, but it doesn't make it any less hard to take on board. My thoughts are with you. I'm glad that you had the blessing of such a wonderful dog in your life, and he has been equally blessed to have you as his human.
  12. I think it's worth noting that some of the alcoholics who were in chemical dependency rehab with me (I was there for the abuse of other substances) were binge drinkers. It's a thing. The fact that you stop for periods before going on an all-out binge for days does not mean that you don't have a problem, or are not causing yourself damage.
  13. Welcome back sonic - and congratulations on your lovely baby boy!
  14. I spent 10 straight hours today churning out a report that wasn't scheduled to be done this week, but the powers-that-be decided very late yesterday that it was suddenly urgent. I got it done, but I still feel slightly hysterical and nauseous. Wishing you the best on finishing your assignment!
  15. I've been having fortnightly telephone appointments with my pdoc since this country went into lockdown in March. I suspect we will continue this way until the end of the year. I think she would do video conferencing if I asked, but I am majorly anti that - I have found working from home with endless online meetings via Microsoft Teams has just killed any desire I have to pursue psychiatric appointments via that route. I don't mind the phonecalls and we get a solid 30 minutes in per session. I just have to take copious notes because my recall of phone conversations can be a bit dodgy at times. Another plus is that her office is in the city centre, which is a stressful 20 (from my place of work) to 40 (from my home) minute drive that I always have to calm down from after I arrive there. I'm not missing that one bit.
  16. Thank you, that's important to note, because too many people make that assumption and try to apply it to all cases.
  17. I've been on it in one form or another since 2002 or 2003. My highest dose was 1000mg of the instant release, which isn't very common but not unheard of. For about 8 years I've been taking 600mg of the extended release. It works for me (BP1 with psychotic features), but only as part of a broader cocktail. "Pleasant" is an odd word; it makes it sound as though you think it would appeal to you on a recreational level.
  18. It's a tough situation to find yourself. I "get" this more than I'm probably letting on, as I have been nursing a PhD for more years than I care to admit, whilst working in a fulltime post at the same university. In my present state of mind, trying to maintain some degree of sanity takes first place. I've not considered, nor has my pdoc suggested, add-on medication to tackle any cognition issues - we're basically just working on trying to keep the pieces together so that I can at least function at a level more or less resembling a responsible adult human being. I wish you well. And please be careful.
  19. There appears to be a lot of information on the web with regard to donepezil side effects, from common through to rare. I found this particular one listed under rare side effects for the drug: mood or mental changes, including abnormal crying, aggression, agitation, delusions, irritability, nervousness, or restlessness (source: https://www.drugs.com/sfx/donepezil-side-effects.html) Your first post asked if it were possible that the med may cause psychotic features or affect your mood, and then in your second you said your doctor told you that you will develop psychosis. I'm just having trouble understanding the cost benefit analysis here. Improved cognition but increased likelihood for a psychotic break seems like a worrying state of affairs to me.
  20. I don't have a direct answer to your question, but if you don't mind my asking, why were you put on an Alzheimer's med in the first place?
  21. It's just that you need to be clear in how you say things here. I've been on seroquel in one form or another since 2003. It's a staple in my drug cocktail and I've not gained on it. That may or may not be the experience of others, just as the fact that it didn't work well for you may or may not apply to other people. You can't generalise what happened to you into damning the drug outright for everyone. The people who posted before you were explicit in saying that it wasn't weight neutral for them, but your first response simply said not to take it at all.
  22. I'm sorry, clinic - I know you have had high hopes for amisulpride. Without meaning to sound like a broken record, what does your doctor say? Presumably you've had blood tests if you know what your prolactin level is.
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