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Puddles2009

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  1. Yeh well took em ages to get meds that actually worked took em 5 years of looking
  2. Hey guys so i rang the pdoc today about my meds and he has agreed to take me off pristiq 100mg as i have not had any suicidal attempts in the last 6 months now and as i am also on abilify an anti depressent / anti psychotic. But they told me i should be fine to just come off 100mg straight away as i have only been on it for about 6 months. What are some of the side effects coming off it to look out for and has anyone else done it before. how long does it take to be weened off?
  3. Oh they know my full story alright..... One of the biggest things he said is people dont get put in a mental ward involuntarily unless there is something wrong with them and he said i have been in 5 times involuntarily now i should accept it Maybe i'm just stubborn but i honestly do not see a difference between been on meds or been off them
  4. Hey guys so normally during the day i am nice and bubbly and wide awake and happy me but come 5pm/6pm i tend to go a little bit flat. By flat i mean emotionally numb and not talkative and i kinda shy away a little bit. Do you know what might be the cause and how i could fix it? Has anyone else felt this way. It's not a big deal, generally as soon as i take my next dose of meds at 5/6pm i feel fine I take Morning : pristiq 100mg/ epilim 500mg/ artane 2mg (7am-9am) night : epilim 500mg/ valium 5mg/ abilify 20mg (5pm-9pm)
  5. I was never DX with rapid cycling although the doc said that he thinks the reason they said BPD over BP1 initially is because of my highs and lows over hours to weeks to months cycling.
  6. Hey guys so yes i used up my 10 free therapist visits but i still even after 5 years cannot accept my MI, i've still had poor compliance wth meds and treatment . My main cause is i blame a lot of people around me who have treated me like utter shit and used and abused me over the years that has caused me to violently lash out against society as a whole and now i live in a violent crime filled town it's just normal behaviour to me I don't know if i am really Bipolar 1 or if i was simply mis diagnosed I've been involuntry patient 5 times now they all say Bipolar 1 with psychosis but i've had multiple mis diagnosis over the years from borderline to skitzo affective to bp2 to bp1 wich makes me wonder if i really am the sane one here I dont know where to start any more i feel so lost. I just dont know who to trust and what i should do from here. Don't get me wrong from reading the above ever since been on meds i am now married and in a brand new part time well paid job and life is going good with lots of new friends for fishing. How did you guys find out and how do you cope
  7. That sucks i wasn't after pro help, just someone to talk to about my problems. It seems i have my meds sorted but now i cant complete the other half so i'm stuck in my situation for a very long time
  8. Hey guys so i can no longer afford a private therapist and there are no longer any free ones where i live. I know therapy is an important step to recovery so i was wondering if you guys could help me out here on the boards instead I'm not looking for proffesional help it would just be nice having someone to speak to that can understand me and give some feedback. I know your curious why there is no therapist here, well the paid one is $150 a visit un affordable for me and the free ones lost their jobs because of the way they treated people with false accusations and threatening behaviour Well i'll list my problems 1: i cant come to grips with having a mental illness i refuse to believe anything is wrong with me 2: I have no coping skills and have learnt none either 3: I havn't done any decent therapy courses i got nothing out of DBT and CBT and Anger management 4: I dont even know where to start.... Is there anyone out here who can help. I'm feeling so lost About the furthest i got out of my 10 free visits was learning (Will it matter in 5 years time) and Thoughts feelings and actions but apart from that i just have no coping skills so the meds keep me stable but i still am relying on them
  9. Where do you get this stuff? "the dangers of long term use"? Did you not read any of the stuff that was written in response to your original question? YOU NEED YOUR MEDS. Be stable for a year. A solid year. You were gone from here for a month. When you left, you were highly symptomatic. So, you've been stable for a month? Maybe five weeks? And that is assuming that you magically became stable the moment you were no longer here on CB, which I find highly unlikely. When i was banned from here i was within 1 week involuntary hospital patient i was then a voluntary patient 2 weeks later for a med change and they released me stable total time 1 week involuntary 3 days voluntary If the hospital has released me i would say i am stable yes The doctors didn't want me on valium long term anyway they wanted me off it when i left hospital but the gp kept me on it pdoc said no gp said yes I see my doc friday anyway they will probably keep me on everything but the valium i reckon Being released from the hospital does not mean you're stable. It means that you are no longer in crisis. It means that you are no longer a danger to yourself or others. It does not mean you're stable. If they waited for that, people would be spending a heck of a lot more time in hospital. I'm glad i didn't spend that long, apparently the hospital said i was confirmed BP1 i'm just glad i am getting the help i needed. It's a shame about the therapist part though i really wish i had one thought who could help i guess i'l be relying here a bit
  10. Nah we hardly have a mental health system here let alone support groups, this group is as good as it gets when it comes to support for me as in therapy
  11. Where do you get this stuff? "the dangers of long term use"? Did you not read any of the stuff that was written in response to your original question? YOU NEED YOUR MEDS. Be stable for a year. A solid year. You were gone from here for a month. When you left, you were highly symptomatic. So, you've been stable for a month? Maybe five weeks? And that is assuming that you magically became stable the moment you were no longer here on CB, which I find highly unlikely. When i was banned from here i was within 1 week involuntary hospital patient i was then a voluntary patient 2 weeks later for a med change and they released me stable total time 1 week involuntary 3 days voluntary If the hospital has released me i would say i am stable yes The doctors didn't want me on valium long term anyway they wanted me off it when i left hospital but the gp kept me on it pdoc said no gp said yes I see my doc friday anyway they will probably keep me on everything but the valium i reckon
  12. I'll see what my psych says in a few more months he is the one managing my case his known me for a while now and everything that went on here also. I guess if it works right then why come off it like you guys are saying The biggest problem i am having right now is trying to learn coping skills via therapy i've used up all my free sessions with a private therapist and i really got nothing out of it so now i'm back to seeing the guy who accused my parents of raping me and accused me of using my career just to perve on women... not to mention me been a bully because of me been bullied in school GAH. Maybe i need the harsh therapist who knows? maybe been on meds having some guy accuse me and treat me like shit might work The biggest problem is although meds work for me i continually argue the DX because i believe i am mentally fine
  13. Ok thanks all well i see my doctor friday i will ask her about coming off it now only as i feel it's done it's job and for the dangers of long term use
  14. Do you ever think there will be a time in my life when i am either off meds or just on 1 or 2 meds? i'd like to start cutting back on some of them i have been stable now for a few months Maybe. But definitely not now, and probably not for a long time- years, probably. I agree with everything miab said. Heed her advice! Well that sucks cos i was going to cut back valium, artane and pristiq as of 1 weeks time and just stay on my mood stabiliser and anti psychotic that's if the doc lets me. only because of the following abilify is also an anti depressent so pristiq can go valium is not needed is abilify helps me sleep artane can go as side effects are fading
  15. Do you ever think there will be a time in my life when i am either off meds or just on 1 or 2 meds? i'd like to start cutting back on some of them i have been stable now for a few months
  16. Oh make no mistake i got no plans on coming off my meds, they work and my life is going better as a result so why come off em right? i just cant come to grips with it
  17. When i'm off meds i am a little sexual deviate! but on meds i have entirely lost my sex drive
  18. Definatly lack of sleep and high stress will trigger a violent episode for me or a depressing one
  19. Hey guys is it ok to be on valium long term? I've been on 5mg a night for the last 3 months now due to insane sleeping troubles. So far it's helping keep me sleep in order and allowed me to hold down a steady job but what are the side effects long term of been on such a benzo??
  20. It is a well known side effect, that is why most people take it in the morning but lucky for me it knocks me to sleep so i take it at night
  21. I drink a little bit on meds and my doctor said outright no he said it's dangerous and it has triggered many previous episodes. now if i am going to drink i limit myelf to only a few but the effects are felt days afterwards in my moods
  22. Hey guys well finally after countless meds and about 4 involuntry hospital trips they found the right combo of meds to get me stabilised. I have now managed to secure myself a part time job as well as get married and stay in a stable marriage. I now no longer ride the ups and downs that i did before in the past. There are very few side effects if anything at all and the ones i do get are so minor that it's not even worth mentioning because any regular person could deal with it. Well i still have a few issues of course as anyone would... 1st Therapy does nothing for me, i get nothing out of it after 10 sessions i get more out of talking to my wife and family than a therapist. 2nd my way of thinking hasn't changed and i cant seem to change, i still believe i have been mis diagnosed and there is nothing wrong with me and it is the majority of people around me who make me lash out the way i do against society. 3rd I still sometimes get sad feeling like i have lived my life happily and i want to die an early age other times i feel invincible like nothing can kill me. Hopefully i can discuss more here, i am now reffered to the local free psychiatry who is managing my case (they are no help) i no longer see a therapist either. I'm still on meds for now but who knows just how long really
  23. If someone is threatening you physically, call the police. It is their job to protect you. But I don't see why you need to go into black-out rages (such as the ones you have described in the past) in order to "defend" yourself. In fact, it seems to me that the people around you are the ones who need protection. Well that's what people get for pushing me over the edge now dont they
  24. Because as a society we have decided that committing acts of physical harm against other people or their property is unacceptable, and we have put laws in place to punish people who commit these acts. Nothing gives you the right to harm other people, regardless of how much you think they deserve it or that you're justified in doing it. Nothing. And wanting to go off your meds so that you can regain your anger and violent tendencies is a really, really dumb idea. But, hey, do what you want. It's clear you're going to regardless of what anyone says. Enjoy prison. Prisons a lot nicer than a psych ward and i'm not a train wreck, it's called standing up for myself. like i said it never was any illness...it's just other people treating me like shit and expecting me to change my ways for them
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