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  1. How can you say it's depression when I never felt like this until I got meds? Theres other people out there who've had the same thing happen to them there all over the internet. I didn't even feel this way until I got anti-psychotics. I'm not on meds.
  2. They work with paranoia and stuff, but the side effects are terrible: - Inability to experience pleasure, joy, happiness, sadness, or any type of emotions. - No motivation, willpower, or desire to do anything. - Zero sex drive. - No appetite and never feel truly hungry anymore. Can go for days without food and when I do eat it tastes like plastic - Extreme boredom. Nothing I do can change this. - Can't read anything longer then a couple of sentences. Can't understand TV show or movies. - Memory problems. Both short term and long term - Music sounds flat. Don't enjoy it. - Difficulty finding things to say in a conversation. Can't hold a conversation, and can't say what I want to say. I've tried like 6 different anti-psychotics for 2 months one after another and they all made me feel this way. There was not difference. It was pure torture, and I would have rather slept during that time then actually lived. I still feel the same way now even though I've been off meds for 3 months, and last time I was off off for 6 months before I was hospitalized again.
  3. But just because it didn't work for me doesn't mean it wont work for you guys. There are plenty of people out there who use Seroquel for example successfully, but for me it was torture. Ya it's pretty bad. I've been off of it for a couple of months since I was last hospitalized. I got off of of the first time a couple of years ago but I kept getting re hospitalizing. How about you?
  4. Why would a meds list make a difference? I've tried like 7 different and they've all affected me the same way.
  5. Hello spokety here. I'm a sufferer of neuroleptic (anti-psychotic) induced "anhedonia." I don't enjoy anything anymore, I don't feel pleasure. I don't feel happiness, sadness, excitement, anger, or any other emotions. I've lost my libido (sex drive) completely. I'm not able to understand movies I watch, or read books anymore. Food doesn't taste nearly as good anymore. I have no energy or desire to do anything, I have lost all my physical strength and stamina, I can't laugh, can't cry, can't sing or dance anymore, and I can't enjoy music. I'm sick of living but I'm too afraid to commit suicide. I'm not depressed, it's not the illness and if you're thinking about commenting that please don't waste your time. And yes I've tried more then one anti-psychotic, and it has nothing to do with that. I'm looking for other people who have been damaged by the medication and are in a desperate state for recovery, if you have please respond.
  6. Hey bro, i have the same problem due to anti-psychotics. It's torture looking at pictures of beautiful women all day and not being able to be aroused in any form. I'm curious do you have any other side effects because I have many. It's made me suicidal as well. Actually I'm surprised I haven't committed suicide already since I've been going through this for 4 years.
  7. Hey Narshe81, I hope you are doing better, I am not. I've been suffering for 4 years. I don't want to live anymore either but I am too afraid to kill myself also. I really feel like we need to come together and protest this violation of human rights that allows doctors to force medication against your will. We need to all move to one place, whether it's America or Russia or wherever and really start a protest. We need to educate people about what's going on. The problem is most people will say "oh your just depressed" or whatever but we have no other option. Sitting at home all day is not going to change anything. We need to stick together. We need to have our own forum or website where we can communicate with each other so we can find out if anyone recovered. It seems that most people stopped posting on forums so it's hard for me to get in contact and I'm really concerned. They may have committed suicide for all I know. Anyways please respond if you see this. Peace.
  8. I have tried a lot but I'm convinced my body has a chemical reaction to anti-psychotics that puts me in a state of torture. I don't think any anti-psychotic will change this feeling. I've been off meds for a while now and I still feel the same which proves that I've been damaged somehow by the medicine.
  9. Hello there, my name is Spokety. I"m having trouble dealing with my paranoia. I've been hospitalized way too many times in the past couple of years, especially recently. My symptoms are hard to treat because I'll have 0 paranoia and delusions for months and then all of a sudden I'll believe all these things and next thing I know I'm in a hospital. I've ran down the street naked a couple of times as a "protest" for what I believed was a government that was purposely trying to torture me using anti-psychotics. Another time I tried to go to jail by assaulting a woman in a grocery store. It happens so fast it's so hard for me to control myself and it seems pointless to see a therapist because I'm not paranoid at this moment so I don't know what to talk about. Therapists say that they don't think I can be treated without anti-psychotic medication but I've had some of my worst paranoid thoughts when I was taking medication orally or by injection so clearly that's not a solution. Plus I have side effects of medications that make life a living hell and I'd rather die then live like that. The only medication that doesn't seem to be as damaging is anti-anxiety meds, but I don't know if those will even help with paranoia or delusions. I don't hear voices or have hallucinations which is good, but the other things I have are very bad.
  10. I know he said at one point it wasn't helping to post so he would stop posting but I'm just curious because I doubt he recovered or else he would have posted something saying he recovered.
  11. Does anyone know what happened to Narshe81? Did he commit suicide? I'm really curious to find out.
  12. It's not depression, I should have added that in the description. I've had depression before and I know what that feels like more importantly. This side effect happened overnight, it was a drastic change from medication numbness to a permanent feeling of numbness that did not change at all throughout the day.
  13. Hello there I am a victim of a horrible side effect of Saphris, called anhedonia. It pretty much strips you of every emotions and every pleasure you can feel. It's living torture. I took the medicine for a year and half even after I got this side effect, which was obviously the worst decision I could have make. I got off of it finally and I'm waiting desperately to get my emotions back. I've been of of it for 2 months or so. I've found very few people who have this side effect one persons name is Narshe81 but he stopped posting online so I don't know what happened to him. It's not the illness, it's not depressoin, and it's not something that can be fixed by excercising or anything like that. So please don't bother to respond if that's what your going to say. Anyone who has this side effect knows what I'm talking about. It makes life not worth living anymore because you feel like you are a corpse. I would not want to live for the rest of my life if I had to be like this. I'm completely desperate and I'm just begging I can recover. Narshe81 said he was off it for a year and still no luck which is a horrible thing for me to hear. This is very important, please respond if you have gone through this or if you read someone else going through this.
  14. Sounds like you are experiencing a lot of emotions: anger, sadness, and fear. Sure those are all negative emotions, but I actually miss those feelings as hard as it may seem for you to believe. I have lost all emotions due to illness or my anti pscyhotics, my doctor has diagnosed me with negative symptoms of schizophrenia, which are notoriously impossible to treat. I feel nothing happiness, sadness, excitement, anger, I feel absolutely nothing, I don't enjoy anything, I don't gain pleasure from anything. I am completely numb and emotionless. I am a zombie, a robot, I feel like I'm dead. I'd rather be unconscious all day the live like this. I honestly want someone to shoot me in the head and put me out of my misery.
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