Lately I've been so tired of fighting off this anxiety and depression. I cut back on my medication (lexipro) because I didn't feel like myself. I was so manic and hyper all the time. But now I feel like I'm back at square one. I just want to not have to fight anymore. I'm so tired, all I want to do is sleep but I can't seem to without having disturbing dreams. I've lost motivation, I feel this terrible dread in my chest. I'm sick of the thoughts racing through my head. I feel like there's always a buzzing in my head. I just feel so out of it. People will talk to me, but I'm not really there. I'm not sure where I've been going. Does that make sense? I don't feel present, I feel like I'm somewhere far away. Like seeing the world through water. I just want quiet.