so ive been hospitalized a total of 2 times in the last 4 years (once was during my initial diagnosis). initially, i was given the diagnosis of 'psychosis nos' but the second time i was hospitalized, my hospital papers said 'schizophrenia' but no one discussed it with me. there's a lot out there on schizophrenia, but how do i know if i have it or not? im interested because i believe it will help me understand my condition better and deal with it better. ive been off my meds for a month, and im starting to realize that i -do- have some of the symptoms that are normally attributed to schizophrenia. for example, during the last few days, i have found myself terribly lost in my thoughts and totally consumed by past failures and i read that this is a symptom of schizophrenia (it was just on one site, but nonetheless). also, i do kind of rehearse conversations sort of out loud (meaning i move my mouth but dont say anything). thats also a very typical symptom of schizophrenia from what ive read. and of course, i do have some of the more obviously psychosis related symptoms such as delusions and hallucinations. but, only when im off meds... in fact, all of this is without the meds. very little happens when im on them.
i also have another question... does anyone else experience loss of appetite prior to an episode. ive only had like 3 but i think this has been a common thread in all of them
so, any thoughts, especially on the part about what its like when youre schizophrenic?