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  1. San, what is the point of your post, made four months after this thread died, other to antagonize a person who left this place because of the shitty way mods like you treated her? And FWIW, you clearly have not been to a busy pharmacy on the west coast of the US. First of all, they can easily make 6 figures. Second of all, they're often so busy that they can't do much more than counting pills. And I've had a number of med interactions, and not one single pharmacy EVER, EVER, EVER caught it here, not even with the computer programs that are supposed to do it for them. But for my pdoc, no med interaction would ever have been caught, save for the times when I DIRECTLY asked the pharmacist about it (when I was concerned about combining an old med with my current regimen). And most of your post is completely irrelevant to what Melissa wrote anyway. Her point was that it's not particularly difficult to get two Benzos filled, and you get your knickers in a twist. Did Melissa imply that pharmacy is an easy job that is like nurses 'changing beds and flirting with doctors?' No, she most certainly did not. So why did you write that?
  2. I'm sorry, but i just can't subscribe to this stuff. I think it's all bullshit, quite frankly, and if you experience any relief, it's due to the placebo effect. That's not necessarily a bad thing. If it works for you, that's great. You've found a (hopefully) cheap solution. But if you're a skeptic, don't be surprised if it doesn't do jack shit for you. When I was younger, I tried a couple alternative therapies in desperation, and they never worked. In fact, one of them made things much worse. I'm sorry, but Chakras? Really? This is form of religion that has no basis in reality. REAL scientists from 50 years ago didn't even understand the biological processes of the human body very well, and now you're going to turn to advice from people who lived centuries, or even thousands of years ago? They didn't know diddly-squat. You might as well pray for relief.
  3. I have serious issues with different skin care products. I'm a fan of clear aloe Vera gel, dove sensitive skin soap, and (but only when really necessary) Cetaphil cream. Nothing else touches my face, save for water, if I can help it. I have weird-out issues with stuff so bad that I can't eat hot pizza with my hands. The thought of getting the grease from the pizza on my hands, my mouth, and my face is just too much. I can't deal. Fork and knife are required. If I eat ribs or corn on the cob, I immediately have to wash my face afterwards, even if only the tiniest speck of fat got on me.
  4. I started having cystic acne around age 26. That means really deep, big bumps that are way below the surface of your skin. I have no idea why it started out of the blue then, but I was on antibiotics for a very long time after that. I started with tetracycline, then graduated to minocycline. And then it was Keflex. And I forget the fucking name of the one after that. And it just all failed. And so I went on accutane. I had to stop it month early, because my hair was falling out in big clumps, but that treatment has proven to be pretty effective. Once in a while, I get a big red area, but it clears up very quickly. Considering all the meds I'm on, it's nice not to have yet another one, so I am thankful for accutane, even if it did fuck up my hair. It has worked better than the Antibiotics, IMO, though. But I hope I never have to go on it again. It was really, really rough.
  5. OMG! I absolutely understand this. I had a year of remission, but I still had this problem. There was simply no motivation. I have yet to find a solution, and things are worse now since I'm depressed again. I often just don't care. I have purchased tons of concert tickets, and not gone to any of them. I rarely leave home. My driver's license ismabout to expire, and I'm not sure I really give a fuck. Everything seems like such a hassle, like some task that only Hercules could complete. So I let it all slide, and then deal with the fallout as best I can. I need to go to the optometrist today, but I have no motivation to do it. I think it's highly unlikely to happen at this point. Lack of motivation can cripple you. And if you have other issues on top of it (e.g., agoraphobia and/or anxiety), it can make doing things almost impossible.
  6. OMG! I was out with my grandparents in their sailboat one time, and there was this big bump that hit us from underneath. And then we saw this big white thing, but not enough to know. I was convinced it was a shark and got into the center of the sailboat. My grandfather thought it was a sea lion, but nobody really knows. It was only a year or two after I saw Jaws at the drive-in theater, which absolutely terrified me. My parents thought I would have fallen asleep after the pink panther and woody woodpecker cartoons, but I was up for the whole thing. I had nightmares for years. Anyway, I still have a terrible fear of certain sea creatures, including sharks, barracudas, and moray eels. And I used to even be afraid of sharks in our swimming pool, as ridiculous as that sounds. I guess I was traumatized by Jaws.
  7. True. I've had three, plus a really mangled broken wrist that was reset. TPBM takes a probiotic and/or prebiotic.
  8. Oh man, that really sucks. I hope the antibiotic you got works quickly. I recently went without Antibiotics for a sinus and ear infection, and it took a long time to get over, which was very painful. In the past, a course of z-pak (zithromax) would often end the suffering in just 3 days or so. Is there a topical med you can apply that would give you some relief?
  9. The thing with depression, is that it can go on for a really long time. As I've aged, all of my episodes have gotten much longer. Not treating them and just waiting for them to end is not an option. But depression is the thing that has proven most difficult to treat for me. It doesn't help that many of the meds used to combat it take a long time to work. And the side effects can be nasty. And you might find meds that work really well, but cause side effects that are problematic. So maybe you go off of them, it turns into a big mess, but they don't work the second time around. Or maybe a med just craps out on you after being on it for a prolonged period. It's frustrating, to say the least. If you end up going through a really prolonged period of depression, it can really beat you down in ways that Re hard to come back from.
  10. It's my little toe. I turn my foot inward as much as possible, but it's still painful in shoes, even if just walking a few blocks. I am just wearing socks at home now, and that's much better. I have issues leaving home, so I don't leave unless I absolutely have to. I think that's helped the healing process a lot.
  11. For me, hypo makes me enjoy things a little too much, especially things like cleaning, or spending endless hours making spreadsheets about the income tax system for the past 100 years. Or researching certain issues in biochemistry. Or making absurd plans to remodel my basement into an indoor swimming pool with hydroponic gardens. When I feel TOO good, I know I'm screwed.
  12. That's a good question. During a mixed episode, I might be only briefly manic, but it keeps on recurring, along with mixed and depressive stuff. My longest hypomanias have lasted about 3 months, while my longest manic periods have maxed out at about a month. The depression side of the equation is a whole other ball of wax, unfortunately. A year or more is totally possible. I think it's fair to say that the manic side of the equation responds better to meds for most people. And that makes the whole deal seem really unfair, as your highs get quashed, but your lows persist. So you feel gypped (because you end up with few highs and a lot of lows). And then there's the psychosis aspect, if you have that. It's been a real stinking pile of shit for me the past few years. I don't always have hypo before mania. But when that state ends, I either become mixed or crash. And the mixed involves crashes that are even worse than the normal type, as hard as that is to process. The really godawful part of the crash (no matter which type) tends to last about two weeks for me, possibly up to a month. After that, the depression moderates somewhat. But it can go on for an unbelievably long time. It's also possible to have spurts of hypo—or even mania—during the middle of a long depression. But because my manic meds work very well, it's unknown whether the mania would have persisted without medical intervention. As a result of these issues, it is tempting to not take the meds for mania. I've even tried to induce it during depressed times, in fact. If they could put euphoric mania in a pill, it would make all street drugs obsolete. And as a result, it can be difficult to take your meds when you land there. But the destruction that mania can wreak on your life doesn't have many bounds. But when you have felt like complete shit for so long, it's hard not to welcome it. Repeated exposure to destructive forces does tend to help put things into perspective, however.
  13. False. I retired 13 years ago this month. I sometimes think it was a mistake, but I honestly don't know how I could possibly keep a job noawadays, as my MI has gotten so much worse. It was bad enough in the past, as my life would blow up all the time, but I can barely even leave home nowadays. How do you work when you can't go to work? The idea of having to leave home five days a week is beyond terrifying to me. TPBM has petted a dolphin.
  14. Mostly 70s the next 10 days, but we have a few hot days (85-90).
  15. Who ever thought of the bright idea to sit on top of a horse, and how did that first ride turn out? I just had alligator the first time the other night (Cajun). It was delicious!
  16. 10 mg Zyprexa PRN quashes mania, mixed, and psychosis for me in short order. I respond remarkably well to this medication, however, and not everyone is going to have the same luck. From what I have read on these boards, Zyprexa often does seem to have a leg up on its competition in turns of efficacy, but it also comes with bevy of side effects that many people find unacceptable. So if you are one of the lucky people who respond extremely well to it and can take it PRN, it's an amazing med. People here are always asking others about which meds are best for this or that, but you really don't know until you try them. And even then, you might not know, because you may not have reached a sufficient dosage or taken it long enough. I'm not saying that the personal experiences of others can't be helpful, because I have benefited (e.g., a higher dose of Abilify thanks to JT07, after my pdoc was ready to axe it). But many of these meds have vastly different outcomes for different people. For instance, when I first took Ritalin, I could barely stay awake, and I usually ended up napping for 2-3 hours shortly after taking it. I mentioned it to my pharmacist, and she said, "OMG, you're like one in ten thousand!" But the thing is, we are probably basically like that; it simply depends upon the med. Many people complain about depakote causing weight gain. It's doing nothing to me. And yet lithium, which is more-or-less considered weight-neutral made me gain quite a lot. Some people take a med and find it very activating. Others find it sedating. And sometimes it changes, such that the first time you take it, it's one way, and then next time it's another way. There are plenty of people here who take Abilify without having their hair fall out, and yet that's what happened to me. I often feel like the whole game is like darts: you hope something sticks, and sometimes you get a bullseye. I'm on 7 medications now (2 PRN) and it seems ridiculous sometimes. But going without has produced disastrous results. The last time, I only managed 8 days before the bomb exploded. So yeah, I'm dependent. You just keep tweaking your cocktail until you get a better result. That's about all you can do.
  17. I get my new bed tomorrow. Otherwise, everything is meh. I broke my toe again. It was just getting better, too.
  18. Castration results in reduced sexual desire. It's not just in your head, but is very much controlled by hormones. This occurs whether the person is a pedophile or not. The pedophilia aspect has no known cure, but castration still has a substantial effect. You may not be able to turn a pedophile into a non-pedophile via castation, but you can make them less likely to act on those urges.
  19. I was never fluent in a second language, but I had a good command of one. I have not read Dostoyevsky yet, but it's on my list. My problem with fiction is that I can't put the book down, so it screws up my sleep. I don't like cheeseburgers. I'm a banh mi fan. But there are plenty of cheeses I like. I have eaten bison, and I like rhubarb pie a lot. I'm not that fond of strawberry-rhubarb pie, however. I guess I'm a purist. I've never tried line dancing, nor will I, and I hate card games. If you even speak the word 'bridge,' my eyes will glaze over, and my mind will go to another place. I used to love games of all types as a kid, but they bore me to death now. TPBM knows how to debone a chicken.
  20. Zyprexa is my wonder drug. I am fortunate to respond to it extraordinarily well. YMMV.
  21. It's different than your internal voice inside your head, I think, because you don't have the control to direct it. If it tells you that you are a worthless piece of shit, for instance, it can be rather difficult to shut it up. You may recognize that it is just bullshit in your head, but when things get reiterated over and over and over again, it can be difficult to avoid the trap. On a certain level, you start to believe it, even if your rational self tells you otherwise.
  22. You are not alone. I haven't been able to crack the motivation barrier, either. Even when my mood is good, and I'm not suffering from any kind of psychosis, I always seem to be stuck to some degree.
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