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  1. I'm not religious but very very spiritual(was?). I pray to all kinds of God's... And this spirituality had kept me alive and strong for major part of my life. But a few months ago a point came when everything broke, nothing made sense and I have fallen to a point where I don't think I can ever pick my self up... I curse god for all my problems, I don't have a problem with air and water, but God! I have lost faith.... To sum it up, I think faith is a very dangerous thing, it can get you out from some serious pits and make you a brave and courageous person. But when it fails, there's nothing as pathetic and hopeless as it.
  2. hey dan, i dont feel any different... ive been on wellbutrin for a month and havent had my anhedonia subside. my pdoc said to try it for 6 weeks and then if it doesnt work, we can go up to 300 mg. 2 more weeks to go. im also going down on the abilify, 1 mg a month. right now im at 7mg so 7 more months of this. thanks for asking. also im glad to hear that things are working out for you. how are things going on now? are you still facing anhedonia?
  3. I don't know what was going on in my mind when I typed all that in this forum... Feel so embarrassed... And ashamed @olga The reply that you gave, made me realize how pessimistic I have become... I also realized that the desire to live is something that is suppressed in some corner very deep inside me. I also realized money hasn't stopped me from seeking help although the society I love in is definitely screwed up... I don't have anything else to type... Thank you for your concern...
  4. If you are sure that you don't want to move to the next level with him, don't give him any hope. Don't tell him that you need time. It's dangerous. It's better not to be friends with him at all.
  5. Hi, English is not my native/first language so please bare with any mistakes i make. I'am in my early 20's and came across this web-site a few months back, while i was searching for different ways to commit suicide. I always wanted the slowest and the most painful possible way to die. I haven't been diagnosed with any disorders. I never went for any diagnosis till now. I have had a very troubled life so far, never had any real friends. I have a Bachelors degree in Psychology I feel like i fit in some of those disorders, i feel like the doctors would make up some type of some disorder to make sure i will fit into something. I would like to get diagnosed to help me understand myself, but don't have the courage to go to a doctor and talk to a complete stranger(it's also quite expensive). I feel like dying. I hate god or whoever is responsible for this creation. I hate my fate and can't get to terms with it. I'am not in the mindset to accept any medication, i like my mind the way it is and don't want to change it, i believe the problem is with the outside world. May be that is my problem.
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