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The Right Honourable Jimmy

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  1. I'd like to say treatment but it depends on the diagnosis. I was misdiagnosed with a personality disorder when I turned 18 on my first appointment with my new psychiatrist. He saw me for 10 minutes and made his decision. He took me off my meds. I became unwell, got a second opinion and ended up in hospital and then they realised there is no way I have a personality disorder. However because I was given a wrong PD diagnosis back then, it took 3 months till they found me a bed because they thought hospital wouldn't do me any good. I was severely depressed and I didn't stand up for myself. When I finally ended up in hospital they changed my diagnosis back and they apologised because they said there was no way I had PD. It wasn't on though because that doc took me off my meds... and I wasted a year out of my life being manic and then depressed. Sometimes the diagnosis matters because the diagnosis is what decides your treatment sometimes.
  2. We don't vote for prime ministers...we vote for MPs and parties. Parliamentary sovereignty all the way YAIIII. She was voted by Maidenhaid and her party won so she has every right to be prime minister since her party which was the winning party voted for her. We're not 'mericans My MP in my constituency which I voted for, voted for her. If I trust him to give him a vote, I trust his decision for voting May as a Conservative leader.
  3. As a Tory I'm still confused about this. I'm quite annoyed because my local MP is an excellent man and I have great respect for him. He has done so much for my constituency and he has an 100% response rate. I've met him, great man. This general election could put his seat at risk and if he loses, the lib Dems will take over which would be a catastrophe for my constituency. If we have another coalition I think the chances for a good deal with the EU will go out of the window.
  4. The only that kind of worries me is that I've calculated how many units I drink a week and it's around 70 or 80 if I go out clubbing. If I go over 100 I'd be physically an alcoholic and I don't want that but yet it's hard to stop. Nothing negative has happen to me directly from alcohol other than falling down ect or losing stuff (small shit basically) which is the reason why I kind of keep drinking. I've only been kicked out once from a club and I went quietly. I know it's bad but I haven't felt the badness so my subconscious is like 'why should I stop?'
  5. That hits so close to home. The only difference with me is ...malbec lol But in all seriousness stopping drinking as a UK student would be social suicide for me. I'd like to drink much more moderately and less but that is extremely hard. If I'm at the clubs with my friends...it's shots, if I'm at home I'll drink the bottle. The only times I haven't finished a bottle of wine is when I've fallen asleep.
  6. Not really but I always feel uncomfortable talking about anything negative when I'm stable with my psychiatrist because I don't want them to think I'm being needy or unwell when I'm okay
  7. Well, I wouldn't say I'm manic, people would realise, maybe hypo.... but again I doubt it. I'm happy and content but I'm taking my mood stabilizer. I don't know....
  8. As I've mentioned before I have a 'small' alcohol problem....probably due to my obsession with high life (I like to tell myself that). The only times that I don't drink is when I can't afford that expensive bottle. So, I'm a student and one of my hugest problems is concentrating when I do essays. I enjoy the essays I do but I can't concentrate at all since everything is done electronically nowadays. What I've found is that when I do essays and drink red wine (my drink of choice, don't know if it holds any relevance) my concentration is on point. My last essay that I did for university I got an A- and I was drinking most of the time while I was writing it so in a way I don't write rubbish when I drink. I'm honestly baffled why I can concentrate like a pro when I drink. I used to consume caffeine when I used to do work in the past and that in itself did the opposite, it didn't made me concentrate but made me procrastinate even more. I want to limit my alcohol intake. I drink too much during the week but I yet haven't seen a short term negative effect. Yes, I know long term it's bad but I'm not the type that thinks long term. I spent £4K on expensive equipment for my course the past 4 days since I got my maintenance money so long term negativity doesn't help me get on the straight and narrow.
  9. I was prescribed Vit C because I was always wearing long sleeves because I have a massive scar on my arm. Now it could be because of Bipolar because it is on bloody repeat and it tastes like oil but it could be just because I don't receive a lot sunlight and all....England and all.
  10. Out of the goodness of my heart I instruct all of you c*nts to recover. One Love

    1. RepentantSpatula


      I'm healed. Er, I wish I was healed.

    2. The Right Honourable Jimmy

      The Right Honourable Jimmy

      too much pain in this forum...

    3. RepentantSpatula
  11. I think there are so many people upset...something has to be done....even if I hated the chatroom because it was overpopulated
  12. I sort of have a crush with this girl I really like and we haven't been in a date but she came to my house party and it was like a date. I think we both like each other but when it comes to the point of talking about mental illness...I wouldn't lie about it but I don't see the point that I should shout it out loud or wear it like a badge of honour in further dates. Bipolar has nothing to do with my personality or who I am. A lot of people will blame 'stigma' because I wouldn't talk about it like how I would answer 'what my favourite band is?' but would someone that has been through cancer or a serious physical condition shout it out loud like it was nothing, no. I've met people in the past who use it as a relationship tactic or as something to brag about and it makes me very cautious about how and when I talk about my MI problems or ex-problems with non-MI individuals because I do not like people who do that(brag or use it as a tactic) and I wouldn't dream of being like them.
  13. I've been symptom free for just about over a year now since I've been back on mood-stabilisers. There is only one exception though, I had a hypo in the summer and spent lots and lots of money, partied hard and went to a festival in Scotland but I managed it. Being hypo at a music festival is perfect, that is till you start being risky with other stuff ect. So yes, I've been symptom free, on paper...but on practicality also. None of this really effected me greatly really and also I haven't had any symptoms since the summer or at least I think I haven't. So, briefly, YES
  14. It doesn't work properly on anti-psychotics. I've done it a couple times before I was on meds and then I tried it on meds and it didn't work. I've been taking less of my anti-psychotics for quite a while now because it was interfering with my creative process and I was on a mad night out, 2-3 months ago and I dropped some and it did work, but that was because I had reduced my AP dose so it only acted as a sleeping pill when I needed one. The anti-psychotic effects were not there hence it worked. All I'll say is don't try it when you're manic because the delusions will come out and they'll come out strong. It doesn't fuck you up though if you're completely stable. I've always been in favour of legalisation of psychedelics but that's because I'm very spiritual, I beilive that it connects me with other realities and realms not visible through the limited human consciousness. I'm not promoting it though.
  15. My normal meds, the quietipine can knock me out. I mostly take it for sleep lately. I never take it in the morning now because I don't want to go back to sleep. Alchohol knocks me out to as well when I do indulge. If I need to make sure I need to wake up though, I stay up all night or don't take anything. Before anyone says anything..yeah I'm not the healthiest individual but I'm stable.
  16. Having to pay for an involuntary admission sounds not only ridiculous but draconian also. If they are going to charge people who are refusing the same treatment they are paying for then prisoners should have to pay a massive bill when they're released from prison. Just pointin' out the faults of a system that is taking advantage of the frail. At least over here in the UK, our care maybe inadequate but it's free hence no one takes advantage of us.
  17. I go to a bipolar support group every month and a big thing I hear is embrace your happy moments. If your manic moments are not too destructive to your overall mental health state, embrace them. Accepting yourself is the biggest thing you can do to your self-worth. If you're on medication, stability will come but you'll have to wait. All I have to recommend is patience.
  18. I never force myself to sleep. I used to and when I did I always felt that the insomnia was bad. I feel like like sometimes if you just don't force yourself to sleep and just accept it, it helps. That's what I've been doing...I mean my sleeping pattern is shit during holidays but I just don't try to sleep. I let myself go to sleep naturally. I haven't been following a set bed routine for the past 2 years and I must say that even if I've experienced insomnia I haven't been annoyed or complained once. So in practicality...no insomnia I only recommend this if you're not manic...if you are and aware then try and talk to your doc if your manic self lets you
  19. The fact that there are no beds when there are people who actually need them is disgraceful. The fact that someone has to go away 100+ miles away from their family to receive treatment is appalling. The NHS hospitals are in crisis and there is no funding being allocated for them. There are a lot of people suffering from acute mental health issues in Britain where a clinician would beilive inpatient care is most appropriate. The number is high obviously. Britain is has one of the best economies and it can not guarantee a bed for those who are acutely ill near their families and loved ones. More than 5,400 mental health patients had to travel out of area for a psychiatric bed last year, research by Community Care and BBC News has found. Inpatient care has been defunded. Mental health funding overall has fall by 8% and there are less than 6,000 psychiatric nurses since last Parliament. Mental health services are a nightmare here in the UK, just sayin ....I bet most Brits here would agree
  20. I like to give credit where it's due so I'm glad Theresa May is willing to reform mental health within the NHS however I have some problems with some of her choices and I feel her willingness to reform mental health services across Britain appear slightly inadequate if you look at them closely. I am politically moderate and sometimes I agree and disagree with both the Tories and the opposition. The beauty with British politics is that it lacks the divide of American politics however sometimes you see through the UK political publicity bollocks and I beilive this is a bona fide case. Theresa May's complete emphasis is on community care(because it costs less) but a large majority of adults with serious mental health issues sometimes need inpatient care. Mental health as everyone knows here isn't just feelin' down, it also involves losing complete touch with reality and usually that requires hospitalisation. In Britain, vulnerable people are being sent away 100 miles from their families against their will, because of lack of beds. I've been through that and it isn't nice. Psych and non-pych hospitals are in a humanitarian crisis in the UK according to the Red Cross. It's OUTRAGEOUS. Their complete financial focus on community care completely ignores the fact that sometimes people....however good the community care is, even if the crisis team show up at your house everyday, people would still need to be sectioned for their safety because their acute mental health state. You can not always treat people in the community. You may ask, why is the Government focusing so much on community care, because it's much much cheaper to do so. PS. Just to clarify, community care should be funded as much as inpatient care. I am not trying to dismiss the importance of community care.
  21. I made a short silent film about bereavement and grief for my first coursework project for university a while back with some of my uni class mates. We've had quite a lot of setbacks(especially with casting and pre-production) and we were on an extreme tight schedule hence some of the cinematography fuck ups. We came up with the story together but I hated the ending because it was depressing as fuck but I was outvoted. I also wrote the screenplay for it. This is my edit.
  22. I tend to be under the illusion that I'm literally immortal when manic. (that's when I get psychotic) I used to cross the street without looking left or right. I used to sing all the time and run around like an idiot. Once I cooked 10 plates of pasta in the middle of the night and woke up everyone and told them food is ready. I've spend lots of money, got payday loans, took lots of party drugs. I spend £500 within 24 hours when I was at a festival. and the most embarrassing thing was flirting with nurses when I was inpatient. plus lots of silly things that wouldn't sound too original around here
  23. Northampton on 35mm Black and White Film Took these pics with my Olympus Trip 35, which was made in 1968 The Racecource One of me uni mates... A fokin cat m8
  24. I went to a local young adult alcohol counselling service and I have to wait 3 months on a waiting list. It was the best choice I think because there is no way I could tell my doctors, they would take my pills (the depokote is important because that is the only pill I regularly take anymore to control my moods) away and my preliminary driving licence which I can't have that. That's the NHS for you. MH services would embarrass me to everyone (social services ect which they control my housing). Confidential charities seem the best option. I suppose I have three months till I sober up...if I sober up. Those G and T seems too tempting. - says my unsober drank self that can't count how many he had right now. 3 months and then 'help' and then no fun parties with house music with booze and coke. Somehow my current self hates that thought but maybe it's for the best. Although I wonder why everyone with alcohol 'problems' has to stop completely. I have too much shit going on, why do I have to stop having fun, I know that bitch cunt of a god of mine is not on my side and everything will go against me. That's why I do all this shit anyway because I have the worst luck in the world, that is a fact and that is not my subconscious 'self-defeating' self talking. It is absolutely true., trust me.
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