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Have you thought about biking? I still haven't gotten around to driving because of the OCD so I just take the bus (I live on the bus route), walk or take uber.

Good point, Gear. Yesterday she went to the hospital for high blood pressure and told me there needs to be peace between us which means I need to tell her more. I'm sticking to my guns and I'm going to continue to emotionally distance myself. I'm sorry Montague. My mom fits more with narcissistic personality disorder. Histrionic sounds tough to deal with. Yes, she's very good at making the situation all about herself.

Thanks Chicken! Missed you too. I tend to disappear for short periods of time.

Sorry to hear that. Must have been scary.

It really helped my depression.

So ever since the end of last year when I was confronted with the reality that it was emotional abuse and may even overt and covert sexual abuse (eww) from my mother I've been trying to distance myself. I already live 1800+ miles away from her but she calls me every day. So I'm colder on the phone calls to get her to hang up quicker or I tell her the truth when she asks me questions. I don't really tell her anything that's going on in my life. If she asks me what I did at work, I tell her I did work and that's it. If I tell her I went out to dinner and she asks how it was I say it was good and

Prazosin has really helped my nightmares and the quality of my sleep. I'm on 10mg now.

Great to hear about the bridal shower, aura! Yes, I think it's progress. I started the Latuda again in early February. I only stayed at 20mg for a week then moved to 40mg the next week and I've been on that dose since. So it's been about 1.5 months or so with that dose. So it might be that that is helping. I don't think I'm depressed any longer but the thoughts continued after the depression subsided (I still struggle with motivation and interest though but those guys just stick around regardless). Now they've seemed to be subsiding. I think it's happened in the last week or so. They're

So the chances of me being spied on don't feel like 100% true. They're more like 50% sure. Me not being spied on is now an actual possibility. Like if I do something and someone sees it's because they happened to be in line of sight of my window (and my window is open) instead of someone purposely looking in there.

I like to think about it like this. SZ and a mood disorder had a baby. The baby (SZA) has inherited both of its parents' qualities. Sometimes it acts like both of its parents, sometimes one or the other. Sometimes kids are more like 1 parent even though it inherits qualities of both. So kid might be more psychotic because it's like its dad.

I go through periods of this. It's like what I want to say suddenly hides behind a brick wall and I can't get to it.

mhm distraction is also key for me. Sometimes I start doing them but stop

Not exactly a problematic thing but just wondering right now. I've always had these strong urges to do something random like dump a glass of water on my head or just pour the whole carton of milk on the floor. Sometimes with hot coffee or water I need to resist the urge to pour it on myself. Idk they're just random urges. Just want to see if others relate.

Idk I actually prefer the dark. It calms my senses since there aren't too many things for me to see. When the person/being was in my closet I appreciated that even if they moved I probably wouldn't see them. I think if I had seen them, I would've freaked more.

Looking at the prescribing information for your AAPs the chances of them are very low. But it's hard to say what the rate is for TD itself since it's usually lumped in to EPS or dyskenetic events. For EPS the percentage was obviously higher (avg 5%) because it included everything under the EPS umbrella including TD. When looking at dyskenetic events it was about 1% but that includes more than just TD. So even with both AAPs, it's still a really small percentage (1% or less is a rough guess). Nobody get at me if my math is wrong.