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  1. Its been a few years since i have last posted on this wall :) , Its been along few years trying to work out whats wrong with me but i have finally found justice in my confusions , After speaking to 6 phycs , one who is a specialist in schezophrenia and one who delt with bi polar alot . Basically due to my grand father and father dying , i went threw a few years of ruminating thoughts and alot of self doubt , I am not bipolar and i am not crazy , From what they tell me i just have a very odd way of looking at things and dealing with the issues that surround me , I am still on 50 mgs of serouequl XR as a sleeping aid because mainly because i go days without seeping , Its been along road from where i was to were i am now i can confidently walk down the street again and smile, im working 34 hours a week again and life is dam good :) ill pop back here every now and then so i can remind myself how far ive come , t

  2. 600 seroqeul 4 mg risperidone and I am in the the process of geting cbt but its along process were iam
  3. I obbseive about everything in my life just when I think I have conquers one thing it attaches its self to another which pushes me in to deeper depression coupled in with schizophrenia I often question waking up but its the cards I've been delt if only I could ocd something useful. Maybe I can
  4. It wont stop the intusive habbitul nature of my mind it wont stop meditation dont work and they've got me on risperidone when I clearly dont have a pyhscotic mind the doctor wont change my meds it wont stop I want to be happy like I use to be I am really about to give up on life why me I was always the nicest person so open minded but these violent sexual thoughts are killing me slowly but they are why are we cursed with ocd s seriously why did our all mighty curse me with this. Mind frying crap i just want to be able to be there for my kids and wife like I use to be Sorry I needed to vent
  5. Take the meds the fear goes away I look at it like this 30 minutes of pleasure vs 23/1/2 hours of pain taken away note this is my personal experience plus my doc subscribed me vigara to fix it lol
  6. Can drinking and meds stop or slow down the progress of risperdal? Just curious I know it can work your liver pre hard please no rage genuine enquiry cheers be nice to learn peoples thoughts on the matter
  7. maybe if i could rapid rid my brain of all this crsp

  8. maybe if i could rapid rid my brain of all this crsp

  9. Just another empty soul bound to drag on

  10. Well Hello My name is jayike you can all call me jyk (I hope this is the right forum ) So about 10 months ago I was diagnosed with schizophrenia and put on to a dose of zyprexa olazipine . since the days rolled on I got swaped to risperidone which isn't doing diddley squat my doctor wont change it the voices in my head tend to laugh at my attempts to rid unwanted thoughts about being gay(which iam not) evil thoughts about stabbing my mothers partner , and basically telling me the complete opposite of what I really believe in deep down , well I cant really relate to deep down because the 6
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