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Oh god, I have been having weird dreams. I am always myself, but a lot of times my husband is there too, and 50% of the time he is some horrible personality that is NOTHING like him in real life. Let me tell you, these dreams seem so real I feel that we are in a different dimension. But I've concluded that even if that is the case, my husband is a different guy in those dimensions, but in THIS reality, he is nice and I can trust him. I've also had out of body experiences and other strange dreams in which I am myself, but a real passive, watered-down version of myself. I hate those. Keep in mind I am not on meds so I have no idea if what I'm saying is anything close to helpful.

I have a question about this topic. I have "heard" my husband's thoughts out loud. I feel that I am psychic and I can sense people's thoughts and emotions. But only twice I heard it out loud. I feel my husband is hiding something from me (infidelity type thoughts) but he says it's not true. He really goes to great lengths to convince me otherwise but I don't believe him. Is this a normal thing or is it a symptom? BTW the thoughts I heard were just something mundane, not anything bad. The infidelity is just a feeling I get.

Can't sleep, still up worried. My symptoms are worse at night. Paranoia and seeing "ghosts" in the room. I am completely convinced my husband has had it with me and is plotting to leave me when the time is right. Still, he says stuff like he will never leave, he is very serious about our marriage and he loves me. He even tells me he prefers me a little crazy because at least I'm not boring. He told me the other day that we are soul mates and eternal companions. I don't know why I can't believe it in my heart, the things he says. Two years ago I was a mess and he stuck with me through it all. I don't know why he'd leave now, when things are good. I don't deserve him. I keep seeing my dead relatives in my dreams and they talk to me about weird stuff. I also often dream that my husband and I are talking, and he is pissed at me and saying terrible things that make me wake up crying. I feel crazy. I took some over the counter lithium. Not sure if it helped.

Wow, thank you, guys. I feel better today.

Sorry I couldn't read the whole thing, but I skimmed it and the first thing I would say is to ditch your Mom. Sorry but she is probably the cause of your psychic ailment to begin with. She sounds like a toxic person to you. I know this is easier said than done and I understand because I have a similar love-hate relationship with mine, but mine is a little more supportive (marginally). Other than that, the previous posters covered it. Maybe just cut back on the stressful situations. Good luck.

I don't have SAD but I do find that laying in the sun helps me a LOT. I used to avoid the sun like the plague but I find I do need it to feel good.

I take 5000 mg supplemement and maybe it helps, not sure. What I do find helps, is laying in the sun which is another way to get Vit. D.

I am currently having an episode of something, not sure what, but I am without a pdoc and the next one won't see me for another 2 months. Unmedicated. Which is dumb, I know. I think I am coming off normal to people, but inside I am extremely anxious and paranoid. I am convinced my husband is DONE with me although he tries to convince me otherwise. I have enough sanity left to realize that nothing has changed in our relationship. It's just my feeling. I've been hearing people "say" things about me, malicious things, but I can't tell you what they said. You know that horrible anxious feeling you get when you are ill, well I have that. But what I want to ask in this thread is this. I've been having some bad dreams. That my husband is having an affair and leaving me, etc. Every freaking night (when I am able to sleep, that is.) But I feel like they are premonitions. I really feel like God is sending me messages. Y'all, I know about psychosis and I know this is a symptom. BUT I BELIEVE IT. Last night I had a particularly bad one where I was I was talking to my husband in the bed next to me and he was saying lots of cruel things to me, that he would never say. Stuff like he didn't love me and he would have left me but it was too late, etc. I FEEL that we were in another dimension and he was actually saying these things. I told him that this morning and he laughed it off, saying "Real me is better than dream me. I'm never going to leave you. We are eternal companions".... etc. Funny thing is, our marriage has been really awesome lately (despite my anxiety) and he thinks it is so good that I am just afraid it's too good to be true. He does not believe I have bipolar. He thinks I am just really anxious and silly... I could write more but I shouldn't make it too long. Just tell me the horrible dreams are not real. Please.

I was symptom-free and without meds for almost a year. Then last month I had a stress trigger and I went into an episode.

Hello, I used to be a regular here for a while. I have a little problem that I am not sure what to do about and I remembered this board so I came to ask. Backstory: Diagnosed bipolar type 2 and have been off meds for a year, doing OK. I have been in a bit of denial about having a mental illness. Even so, I went through training to become a NAMI group facilitator and that just started this month. We've had two meetings. Herein lies the problem, and it is IRONIC. The NAMI group is stressing me out and has apparently triggered a psychotic episode. For the last few weeks I've been deteriorating, but holding it together. I feel strongly my husband is being unfaithful, although I know he's not, I FEEL it, and I believe I am psychic, and I see things flying around in the room and I think it's dead people, I see dead people in my dreams, I have horrific dreams which I believe to be precognitive, and I feel my family is saying horrible things about me behind my back, (though they are acting normally), etc. I am nauseous and shaking and I can't eat, I lost 5 pounds in three days. I haven't slept and stay up all night crying. SO obviously I need to be on meds, but I really really don't want to go back on meds. I feel they are poisonous, and made me gain 70 pounds which I have almost lost now, finally. My family thinks I am just highly anxious, but they think it is in my best interest to quit the NAMI group. If I quit I will be leaving them without another trained facilitator but it is a MUCH bigger job than I signed up for. It involves many things I was not prepared for. Really what they are asking me to do is a full time paid job for nothing, which I don't mind except I am not mentally healthy right now and I need to step away. 1. I don't have a pdoc right now cause I ditched mine, because she prescribed me those horrible Abilify. I was a dead person on Abilify. 2. My whole family thinks I will be fine if I step away from the NAMI group, and lessen my anxiety. 3. I refuse to go back on meds 4. NAMI will be pissed at me if I leave but I feel I have no choice; it's not because I am lazy, but because it's making me psychotic, behold the irony. Please help