I guess I feel pretty good. Very hyper, over animated. But I am trying to get some structure back. Sometimes that helps. Eating was not good. Need to work on it. Somehow I forget.
Hopelessly sad. I am so tired of the merry go round. So tired of my brain betraying me over and over. I really am such a fool. I don’t get to be happy. Only manic. Manic feels like amazing happy. But it’s not. It’s false. It’s fake. It’s over.