dragonfly23

Manic Thought it was over , apparently not. No rest for the wicked 😜

It’s been a hard day at work, but it’s almost over when I get home I will paint my hard work in the yard paid off. It looks stunning 😀😀😀✋

I feel overwhelmed . Work sucks. People need to leave me alone. How am I suppose to catch up if people keep yapping at me.

Horny as hell.

A cool summer morning A great break from the heat I slept well the feeling of contentment

Excited. Going to the Ren Faire. Gotta get my steam punk stuff out!

Oliver cats sunshine

I think my mania is winding down. The crying has started. Seriously. fuck this. but who knows I could wake with a second wind

Hopelessly sad. I am so tired of the merry go round. So tired of my brain betraying me over and over. I really am such a fool. I don’t get to be happy. Only manic. Manic feels like amazing happy. But it’s not. It’s false. It’s fake. It’s over.

I slept. Finally ................maybe finally this episode is winding down.

I am exhausted. Physically. But my mind won’t let me rest. Won’t let me sleep. maybe tonight I will sleep. I can’t move I am so tired.

Hypo? I think not. But one other disagrees. I think he is just a lazy ass. Lots to do and it got done as well as a ton of other stuff. 😀😀😀

I feel pretty good. For the moment. I will take it. My moods have been labile lately. Learned that word (labile) from an old Tdoc. Pretty slick word. Word.

Manic....sometimes just hypo. Sometimes normal , sometimes depressed. I guess mixed. I see my pdoc a week from Wednesday. He knows I am not stable atm. When I went in last I was horribly dissociated. Hoping some med adjustments help. I have a prn. I really hate talking it. I think it makes things worse,