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  1. My pdoc has tried a few anti-psychotics on me but I have not officially been diagnosed with psychosis. At least not on paper. Since I had the last hallucination a few days ago they are happening alot more. Mostly little things. I'm sure I sound paranoid but I would really like for them to do a scan of my brain before they just assume it is mental health related. My pdoc recently added a high dose of equetro to my meds. I already take depakote er. He wants me off. Of the depakote. He is weaning me off. Depakote has always worked well for me. Equetro and depakote can interact with one another so I am wandering if that could be causing this. I told him I don't like the equetro he won't listen to me.
  2. I am 37 years old. I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression when I was 18 than bipolar at 21. For years I have thought I heard my phone ring when it hasn't my name said when it wasn't etc. All of which they said was anxiety not psychosis. With in the last few months I have begun to have visual hallucinations. Most I had decided were related to being severely anxious. Little things like seeing things out of the corner of my eyes. Being very jumpy. I recently had two undeniable visual hallucinations. Very scary. Is it normal at my age to start having these now? Is it psychosis? Schizophrenia?
  3. Yes. I told my dr everything. Including, that I am willing to try whatever meds she prescribes because I have a son and I have to be able to function. My dr. Diagnosed me. I've had little stuff in the past but she thought it was just really bad anxiety. She is going to try an antipsychotic. I also take depakote it has helped for about 10 years but it doesn't seem to be helping as much now. Yes. I told my dr everything. Including, that I am willing to try whatever meds she prescribes because I have a son and I have to be able to function. My dr. Diagnosed me. I've had little stuff in the past but she thought it was just really bad anxiety. She is going to try an antipsychotic. I also take depakote it has helped for about 10 years but it doesn't seem to be helping as much now.
  4. I was just diagnosed with early psychosis. I have scary creepy thoughts and images pop in my head and I recently have been seeing shadows blurred images out of corner of my eyes. I also saw a person I know in front of my house. Went outside she was no where than she showed up 5mins later. I also hear my name being said when it's not or my phone ring but no other auditory stuff. I was scared to tell my dr. About this because I have a 3 year old. Do I need to worry she will try to take him away?
  5. I believe you have to give him some access legally, as you both acknowledge he is the father. If you want more control over when, how often, and other conditions, including that he must be sober, you probably have to go to court. If you aren't going to live together, you have laid out conditions, and this is the first time he has stood your son up, is it fair to say he has a halfway relationship, or is it more accurate to say you have primary physical custody? Unfortunately, this is not the first time he has stop my son up. The first four months of his life his dad saw him maybe 4 times. He was daily drinking and wasted. He knows he cannot see him if he is drinking at the time of the visit but it doesn't keep him from drinking. It's his choice how often he sees his son. Olga- I agree strong consistent male role models are very important. Luckily, he has three wonderful grandpas. I absolutely need to go to al-anon. Thank you for the great advice.
  6. I have been with my Son's father on and off for 10 years. It was a very abusive relationship. He was in and out of rehab. I came and left always returning because when he is sober he is such a wonderful person. I know how cliché that sounds but its true. He also has undiagnosed mental issues. I had finally decided that I had to leave for good. when I became pregnant. We were both shocked as we weren't trying and I was told my chances were very slim due to PCOS. I stuck around during my pregnancy hoping it would help him get sober, but it didn't. he continued to be very abusive through out my pregnancy. He quit drinking just in time for my labor. He started back a week after my Son came home. I moved in with my dad. He has been in and out of rehab 3 times since my son was born 19 mos.ago. I have made it very clear that our son will not live with him and that he will only see him when he is sober. The hardest part is now my son knows he is daddy. He is a very good dad when he is with our son. and I don't doubt the love he has for him. last weekend he left rehab and went on a bender. we had plans to go to chuck-e-cheese and sledding. obviously, it didn't happen. My son said daddy multiple times over the weekend. it was heartbreaking. I wander if I am doing the right thing by allowing him to have this half way relationship with our son or if it will only cause more pain.
  7. I hate to say it, but if he is married I would run in the other direction. It will only lead to pain for you and his family if they find out. If he cheats on his wife he will cheat on you. You shouldn't want to share your man with someone else.
  8. Can Abilify or Ativan cause headaches? I have Bipolar 1 and GAD. Or can it be relate to the mental illness in general?
  9. I wanted to breastfeed but to many meds. I think I am more stressed than before I had my son, but it is better than it was right after I had him. He makes me laugh alot and I love him so much. Sometimes I think its because I got a mirena but than I remember complaining about it before that. My intrusive thoughts have become alot worse and more frequent also.
  10. Yes. I tend to forget I am sick too. Lol. Hopefully, your appt will be successful. I can't imagine what it is like to go through a divorce. Stay strong. It sounds like you made the right decision leaving. Focus on you. Again, good luck.
  11. Hello. I am new here. I am also, new to blogging. I am bipolar type 2 with GAD and psychosis. I also have intrusive thoughts. I have a 19 month old son. Before having him I was mainly depressive with occasional psychosis and mania. I barely ever had intrusive thoughts. Now I am manic more often and my depressions are so much worse. I have horrible nightmares and intrusive thoughts. I often have psychosis, seeing and hearing things that are not real. My grandfather was schizophrenic, so I often get concerned that I am like him, but my pdoc doesn't think so. I have always taken antidepressants, antianxiety, mood stabilizers, and recently I was put on an anti-psychotic. I wont lie that word freaks me out. My mania comes with a lot of agitation. I have never had a temper before and when I become agitated I don't know how to deal with it and than I feel tremendous guilt. Is it possible my illness has progressed and this is permanent or could this all still be due to hormones??
  12. Have you been diagnosed as bipolar? I wouldn't recommend getting off your meds without your Dr.'s permission. I have a 19 month old son. I went through post partum. It was horrible. My episodes of depression and mania have became much worse since I had him. It is scary. The best thing you can do is ask for help. I hope you can get healthy and be with your family again. because no matter how scared and overwhelmed you feel now your family is everything. My son forces me to get up in the morning even when I am depressed. I may not always like it but many times we are our own worst enemies. you may want to talk to your dr. about new meds or therapy. good luck.
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