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  1. PASSED! I'm a candidate now! :)

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    2. ananke

      ananke

      congratulations!

    3. echolocation

      echolocation

      congrats aura!!

    4. Wonderful.Cheese

      Wonderful.Cheese

      Super huge congrats to you! Yay!

  2. Proposal hearing tomorrow morning. Wish me luck!

  3. I turned in the final draft of my dissertation proposal! Defense is on Sept. 21 and then I'm officially ABD!

    1. Wonderful.Cheese

      Wonderful.Cheese

      Woo hoo! Way to go! I’m super proud of you!

    2. jarn

      jarn

      That's so exciting!  Good luck next week!

  4. I feel lonely.

    1. Wonderful.Cheese

      Wonderful.Cheese

      Hi aura. I’m sorry to hear this. :( Loneliness is a tough feeling to have. Be gentle with yourself. Any friend or family member or anyone you could text or call or email? Or is your wife available to talk? Just some ideas. I care. ❤️ 

    2. Wonderful.Cheese

      Wonderful.Cheese

      How’s it going today aura?

  5. I usually rely on tdoc to tell me what my mood is, up or down. Do you have someone like that in your life?
  6. I just got dx'ed with "other specified trauma and stressor related disorder" mainly because my flashbacks aren't always about the trauma, but often are rather about anxiety I experienced due to the trauma. In Egypt I was super stressed and I developed a fear of leaving my apartment. This hasn't gone away. I keep having flashbacks of how afraid I was in Egypt. Now I never feel safe. I can't go far from my apartment. Even at home I stress. I'm afraid of men and won't meet one by himself. It's like Egypt set off a trauma reaction that has turned into a wildfire of memories and fears. But all this fear, I now realize, relates to previous trauma. It's like the trauma was suppressed all these years and now hit me all of a sudden. Does this even make sense? I feel doubly traumatized by my how my trauma symptoms manifested.
  7. @Wonderful.Cheese It makes me so sad to read this. You are WORTH being part of this world. You are a kind and loving person. I've gotten to know you over the years and I can tell for sure you a good person who doesn't have to suffer like this. Much support from me. if you ever need to talk, PM me.
  8. Reducing clozapine to 400mg. Yay! I'm doing well. :)

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    2. echolocation

      echolocation

      great to hear!

    3. jarn

      jarn

      That's great aura!

    4. Wonderful.Cheese

      Wonderful.Cheese

      Yippee! So happy to hear this! ❤️ 

  9. To have PTSD do I need to have had a major traumatic event, or could it be more like a chain of moderately traumatic events? I think I'm minimizing how traumatic my past has really been. I also posted this on my blog for more specific info.
  10. Ultra busy week = more hallucinations. Taking tomorrow off.

    1. jarn

      jarn

      Oh damn.  I hope a day off helps.

    2. saintalto

      saintalto

      Good move. :)

  11. Visual. I have color-grapheme synaesthesia so all words and numbers have colors for me.
  12. I think I'm crashing from the hypomania. I woke up today at noon then went back for nap at 2pm. I have no energy or motivation. 

    1. Bad Haiku

      Bad Haiku

      That sucks Aura.  Please take care of yourself.  Eat, Drink, Sleep, and Wake.

  13. Coloring books? An easy book you've been planning on reading? Or just watch the TV if that's available.
  14. I rely on tdoc to tell me if I've been manic or hypomanic. But most of the times I've been manic I've also been hospitalized due to psychosis and risky behaviors.
  15. Ultra cute kitten nap time!
  16. Clonazepam for when the anxiety gets too bad, but nothing really has worked for me.
  17. Does anyone else here struggle with disorganized thought and speech? I have a lot of trouble staying on topic and remembering what the topic of the discussion is.
  18. I've been on clozapine for a year and a half and I'm still drooling. There is some kind of medication you can take but it gave me tachycardia. I just accept it. Better off with than without.
  19. Wired to the internet kitty!
  20. The entity is watching me. It wants me to hurt myself. Just called the resident on call and waiting on a call back.
  21. Oral exam tomorrow. Wish me luck!

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    2. aura

      aura

      I PASSED!!!

    3. jarn

      jarn

      Congratulations!  

       

    4. echolocation

      echolocation

      well done! :D 

  22. There is really not a lot out there about schizoaffective that doesn't overlap with schizophrenia or a mood disorder. I wonder why? It's supposed to be a rarely diagnosed illness, but you wouldn't know that by looking around on CB. My diagnosis went from bipolar to SZA also about two years ago. It led to being put on clozapine, which has literally saved my life. I hope the new dx leads to better treatment for you too.
  23. Invega made me lactate and cause painful tenderness in my breasts. I barely lasted two weeks on it. I hope you have more success!
  24. Writing my qualifying exams while the voices chatter away is super distracting!

    1. Wonderful.Cheese

      Wonderful.Cheese

      I understand this, my friend. I understand it very well. I hope they quiet down for you and you can get your writing done. Keep up the amazing work!

    2. Gearhead

      Gearhead

      Fingers crossed for you!

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