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  1. Age 15-19(ish) major depression, General anxiety and PTSD 19-23 major depression, schizotypal PD 23 (prior to 1st hospitalization) bipolar, General anxiety 23-current (31) Schizoaffective disorder bipolar type 28- possible paranoid schizophrenia diagnosis (didn't sick)
  2. My happy moment was working out a way to buy a couch from an old friend at a price we could manage and my cousin more than willingly offered to pick it up and bring it here for me/help hubby take this nasty falling apart loveseat out (we had to tie rope around the bits to hold it together and screw in a bunch of nails) Hubby and I had been trying to figure out how to get something newer for us and the kids to seat on for a while now and then this opportunity came!
  3. I was on 300mg for many years, we had talked of upping it but I ended up going off of it when I was trying to get pregnant. I'm actually hoping to restart it after my Pdoc appointment today. I never had any noticeable side effects on it and it did pretty good for my depression, which is why I took it for so long. I tend to get crappy side effects from antidepressants. It usually takes me about 2 weeks to notice any change to my mood on it at all and about a month for full effect. Hope it works for you. Edit: xl is what I take
  4. I'd like to file a complaint against the mother nature and local forecasters; please finalize your agreements prior to ending your daily meetings (all channels saying clear skies currently and it's raining outside)
  5. My stepson age 10 (ss10) has been dealing with mental illness almost his whole life. I've been in his life since he was 5. When the kids are here (2 days a week and extra time agreed upon by their bio parents) my husband and I co parent, meaning we work together to parent the children. When it comes to my husband I almost always have a say when it comes to the kids but that's where it ends because I'm not a legal guardian/parent. This gets beyond frustrating for both me and my husband. (I can't contact the school, drs, therapist and what not and except for one time I'm not able to go to meetings/appointments) We just found out today what ss10 's diagnoses are and neither of us agree with them. Although I can see how they came up with them they just don't make any sense if you take into account what his symptoms are. I'm not a professional by any means but through research to better educate myself over the last two decades, helping others find information, personal experience and the small amount of schooling I completed for social work I think I have a fairly good grasp on things, at least enough to know when things just don't add up. It's not that I'm just focused on what his diagnoses are it's that the treatment he is receiving is being geared towards them for the most part and it's not freaking working for him! It doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out that shit isn't working when the kid has to be hospitalized, switched to a special school and having a constant stream of episodes that the current treatment plan isn't working.... Ss10's mom is supposed to keep his father up to date on All medical things going on as stated in the court order but that rarely if ever happens so we are left in the dark most of the time, so we don't have a clue how long ss10 has had these diagnoses but guessing from his medications it's been quite a while (we now understand why ss10 has taken some of the types of medication he was given) From what we see/know we are pretty sure ss10 is bipolar with psychotic episodes and anxiety (same as his father, whom was diagnosed around the same age) Ss10's actual diagnoses are; pervasive developmental disorder-NOS (autism spectrum), unspecified hyperkinetic syndrome of childhood (ADHD) oppositional defiant disorder (ODD) and anxiety. The two major things that we witness that I don't really see covered under those is his mood going from extremely low to extremely high and any of the psychotic symptoms (seeing things, hearing things, paranoia, textile hallucinations) at one point they had him on an anti psychotic and it got rid of almost all the psychotic symptoms, no clue why they decided to take him off of it! Now he is on lithium (but they don't think he it's bipolar?) And something for the ADHD.. We just want him to get the right kind of treatment,, medication, therapy and support in general that he so desperately needs... I'm at a loss on how to help him. Sorry this was so long... I'm just so frustrated and unfortunately all this stress is effecting my symptoms (stress of not knowing what to do or how to better parent him when with us) Anyone have any advice or even gone through something similar?
  6. It really is hard living on ssdi but it is possible to do. Have you tried to find ways to cut back on what your spending each month? It might not free up a lot of money but it all adds up. Like already said there are programs for housing and homeownership There are free government cell phone programs for low income individuals, the one I used was assurance wireless. It gave me 200 mins a month and unlimited texting. You could add minutes for low cost or do unlimited everything including internet for 30 a month. Personally I decided to buy a phone outright and pay 25 a month for unlimited everything with metro pc but I don't know if you have that provider around you. It takes a lot of planning and you don't always get what you really like to eat all the time but I manage to provide 2-3 meals a day for 2 adults for a month and approximately 9 meals a month for 3 kids all for around 250 total. Find free things to do in your area, during the warmer weather around here there are lots of free music events for example. Not always bands I really like but it gets us out of the house. Also keep an eye out for good deals. There are a couple of used book stores near me that I can get books for under $2 and I've found 2 places that sell like new DVDs for $2. A free alternative to both of these is utilizing a library but every now and then I enjoy shopping for something I want and not just need. Flea markets can also have some awesome deals. I get free magazine subscriptions and random free stuff from slickdeals.net it's a forum. I only go to the freebie section there. It takes a little searching but sometimes you find some good stuff. I'm not sure how it is in other places but I find free stuff people are giving away in local Facebook groups and craigslist(sp?) now and then. Just today I got two free beanbag chairs for the kids. Before we get paid each month I budget every penny we get. It does take some work but after a month or two it becomes easier because you can transfer the stuff that's always the same and go from there. If you would be interested and think it might help you it would take me a little while but I could send you an example our monthly budget, not sure if it would help though being that it is a different amount and covers more people (about 1700 I think). It does suck not just having money to do whatever you want (within reason) but with some work it can work. I try my hardest to be thankful for what I do have and try not to focus on what I don't have, doesn't always work but I try... therapy over the years has really helped with that. Edit: I also managed some how to make it work on $919 a month for a few years before my husband got on sddi
  7. I think in the long run it's helpful when someone NICELY suggests to me that whatever it is at the time isn't something most people believe to be true. I mean if no-one points anything out I can't get meds adjusted if needed and it can spiral out of control. At the same time it causes a lot of stress on both me and the person pointing it out (usually my husband) because when I'm in the midst of it I think I'm right and anyone who disagrees is obviously part of the problem. I usually don't even know I've been delusional though because I don't talk about most things with people except useless stuff or something pertaining to the current situation... I find out when I find stuff I've written during an episode later on.
  8. Zedge -free wallpapers (both still and live), ringtones, notification sounds, games and something else that's still in the beta stage. Its really user friendly. It's been around for years and I've never had a problem with it.
  9. Im sorry your having such a tough time. I've only found 1 antidepressant that works for me and doesn't give me bad did effects, Wellbutrine XL. I've tried a whole lot of different ones (over a course of 17 years) the only reason I stopped taking it was we were trying to get pregnant. Is your insurance company not covering the Abilify at all? I ask because I think if your Dr can prove you tried x amount of other medications for the same condition and they are not working the insurance company will then cover said medication (at least in my experience) In one of your replies you mentioned if someone is suicidal they are told to go to the hospital... just wanted to let you know I've never been hospitalized for it unless I'm to the point I can't say for sure I wouldn't act on it, I've had long periods of time when I was suicidal but not to that point and my Tdoc and Pdoc always knew about it. I'm not saying someone shouldn't get help if their suicidal in any form I just don't want you to think if you talk to someone about it you will automatically get put in a hospital, unless they think you are a danger to yourself.
  10. I just recently got a new phone; alcatel onetouch Evolve 2. It's OS is android 4.4 kit Kat. The last new smartphone I got was over 7 years ago so I'm completely lost with the advancements made. Yesterday I was looking up pics for ending stigma about mental health on Google. This morning when I looked at my phone there was a pop up on the lock screen from Google (not sure which app) of a local mental health facility including transportation time to the facility with current traffic. WTF? I'm guessing it's something to do with Google "watching" my activity within it's products but I don't feel comfortable with it doing something like this... What do I need to do so it's not watching my every move? I always prompt out of anything that wants to track anything I do or get my location unless I'm manually putting in a location (to get local weather or whatnot) Help?
  11. I guess I really do have an all or nothing mindset going on (I have that problem with a lot of things) I'm going to try my hardest to stop looking at counts, at least for now. If my plan comes to a point of having to do that I'll cross that bridge when it's time. I can't keep doing this. I didn't completely stop with the new plan we put in place but I did take a break on writing everything down for a few days to step away from the situation and clear my head. I just tried to focus on eating the types of food I'm supposed to without obsessing over it. I think I'm ok to start writing things down again now.
  12. I've always wanted a child. I have 3 amazing step children right now. My husband and I tried for a while to get pregnant but none of the pregnancies made it past the first trimester. Both my husband and I have MI, as does one of the kids. We decided to put off trying for at least a year now. I don't know if it's because I'm sick but I've been debating if I even want to have a child now (birth child, not my step children) it's hard taking care of myself, my husband and the kids when they are here now. I feel pressured into deciding because I'm 31 and my husband is older than me and at this point in time we would have to take fertility meds to attempt to get pregnant (I'm not ovulating) and it could take up to a year before getting pregnant if the current treatment works..if not longer. If I was younger I wouldn't feel so rushed...I don't want to regret never having children but at the same time I don't want to make a less favourable situation possible worse either.
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