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  1. I listened to that crazy pharmacist and i decided just to stop cold. Well that pharmacist I learned is in recovery and is part of the 12 step program which makes no sense to me. I think it was extremely stupid of her to give me advice not knowing my medical history. I went on a medication holiday and I can tell you it has been the closest to suicidal I have ever been. I stayed in bed for three days and cried my eyes out and all I could think about were my dead friends and my brain was racing and I felt like honestly giving up. I texted my doctor at midnight and today went to pick up a new prescription much better I feel like a human again I do not feel high I do not feel low I I feel like me. I changed things up a bit. I decided that 90 mg was too much and we're now going to have a maximum of 75 mg. Instead of dealing in only 30 mg XR caps i'm going to get 1 30 mg capsule every day and I can choose to take between 1-3 15 mg XR Caps to add so instead of jumping in huge increments I know I can adjust myself and titrate a bit. 30 mg is the minimum that will work that's why she gave me 30 days worth. 90 capsules of the 15 mg XR will allow me based on my day to go in smaller increments but like I said to a maximum of 75 as opposed to 90. I need to change pharmacies because not only is a pharmacist a lunatic but also I noticed when I picked up my bottle of 15 mg tablets they expired in June! This is a controlled substance they should be much more careful obviously three months is not going to be a big difference for amphetamine salts but still come on?
  2. Thanks guys yes I was just worried because of a new pharmacist who was like this is a crazy dose and you are going to end up with a heart attack. I went to the hospital when I had bronchitis and I was on my adderall at the time and my blood pressure was 127 over 84 but I was nervous. After I spoke to the doctor dropped and they gave me this thing where they put stickers on me I think it's called an ECG and it was completely normal so I guess that's good. I want to take the proper amount and no more it's just that some days it's the right amount and some days it isn't. I played around with the stomach acid bullshit and it's always a variable thing. Like today it was strong. But the other day for example I took my 60 mg in the morning and I went back to bed to lay down and I woke up five hours later. And yes I have been tested for sleep apnea which I do not have. Thanks guys. It sounds dumb but stimulants always scared me because when you do too much you know you kind of get panicky whereas with opioids which are more dangerous and kill more people I was never scared. You feel good so you want to feel better and you get more relaxed and unfortunately you get so relaxed you stop breathing and die. I was on 12 oxy 80s and smoking 4 fentanyl 100ug patches a day and 8 mg of Xanax, 2 of clonazepam and 90 temazepam daily. Mixing that amount of downers is lethal yet I was never scared. Obviously I should have been because I overdosed four times but stimulants, always scared me because when you do to much you start freaking out. With opiates you're still sedated you don't believe or even care that you can die
  3. Hello, Could someone please honestly tell me because I can't trust myself because I'm a recovering drug addict. (Id like to put a disclaimer right here that I don't follow 12-step dogma so please don't start preaching that even though it does work for many) anyways, new diagnosis I'm a 33-year-old male finally told that I have a little bit of aspbergers disorder which is now technically on the autism spectrum and ADHD to go together with my OCD, and GAD oh I can't forget about the clinical depression either. I was a severe opioid and benzo addict taking crazy amounts I am now medicated but I'm worried about the amount of stimulants. I have never abused stimulants other than MDMA really and I don't know much about them. I was just put on Adderall XR seven months ago now I'm a 6 foot tall 240 pound male. It was amazing to see the effects that it had. I can finally look people in the eyes and my brain was finally slow. It was like for years they tried to numb with the stupid benzo's but my brain would still race. However, the dosing scares me because I don't know anyone else that takes this. I take 60 mg in the morning and another 30 mg capsule at 1400. They don't last 12 hours and I work about 10 hours a day so I find the 90 mg keeps me good for the majority actually really good for thee whole day and I still sleep for 6 to 8 hours But I didn't quit shooting up heroin to die from a heart attack..so can any of you give me some input please. Ps. By the way I also take 60 mg of Paxil and 4 mg of Xanax which sounds high but is pretty good considering before the Adderall I was taking eight and this was prescribed by my addiction Doctor. I honestly was not abusing that. I needed that to function soon as I went on the Adderall I stopped having the stupid panic attacks and have managed to cut my dose in half. I also take an opioid called Suboxone which is used to treat addiction. So yes technically I'm on amphetamine, benzodiazepine and opioid and an SSRI but, I'm the happiest I've ever been and I'm actually functioning and holding down a job and stuff for the first time in my life. I could really use some helpful opinions
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