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Derrick

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  1. I'm not dealing with my mental illness very well. I've been having thoughts of hurting myself again and keep hearing a negative voice in my head when high amounts of stress. To anxious to sleep. Somedays I never get out of bed. It feels like an argument is going on inside my head. Is this a type of schizophrenia bipolar? I feel crazy somedays like can't control my mind. Have racing thoughts and my mood changes dramatically. One moment I'll be almost happy Nd out of nowhere depressed and sad. As for the schizophrenia part. I feel like someone's out to get me especially in public and I hear a voice telling me negative things. I find myself talking to a picture of a person from TV or something thinking they can hear me and not realizing it's fake. I feel suicidal at times.
  2. I'm not dealing with my mental illness very well. I've been having thoughts of hurting myself again and keep hearing a negative voice in my head when high amounts of stress. To anxious to sleep. Somedays I never get out of bed. It feels like an argument is going on inside my head. Is this a type of schizophrenia bipolar? I feel crazy somedays like can't control my mind. Have racing thoughts and my mood changes dramatically. One moment I'll be almost happy Nd out of nowhere depressed and sad. As for the schizophrenia part. I feel like someone's out to get me especially in public and I hear a voice telling me negative things. I find myself talking to a picture of a person from TV or something thinking they can hear me and not realizing it's fake. I feel suicidal at times.
  3. I feel like I'm in danger to myself. I won't get out of bed all day and refuse to cause I want to sleep off the pain. I've been cutting myself and feel like I should call my doctor or go to the ER but I'm afraid of what might happen. I hate spending the night in a mental hospital. I want to end my life but don't know how.
  4. Hey guys. I don't know how to tell my parents or friends how I feel lately. I'm feeling really suicidal. I feel worthless, hopeless, sad, all the time so I need to sleep it off the whole day. I sleep for hours sometimes till 4 or 6 in the afternoon. I stopped my meds because there's a voice in my head telling me it's toxic and if I take it something bad will happen. Fine, I lied I never took the new meds my doctor gave me called abilify. I'm afraid to start it. He started me off on 5mg and I'm still afraid to take it. I feel like I'm going to lose my mind and go physcotic lately. All I can do is sleep all day and it's so hard to focus on my career or stuff I like to do. There's this voice telling me I'm worthless, that I'm a failure and won't succeed. It tells me to give up. I know it's not my thoughts cause it sounds like someone else's voice talking to me in my head. It's hard to explain.
  5. Hey guys. I don't know how to tell my parents or friends how I feel lately. I'm feeling really suicidal. I feel worthless, hopeless, sad, all the time so I need to sleep it off the whole day. I sleep for hours sometimes till 4 or 6 in the afternoon. I stopped my meds because there's a voice in my head telling me it's toxic and if I take it something bad will happen. Fine, I lied I never took the new meds my doctor gave me called abilify. I'm afraid to start it. He started me off on 5mg and I'm still afraid to take it. I feel like I'm going to lose my mind and go physcotic lately. All I can do is sleep all day and it's so hard to focus on my career or stuff I like to do. There's this voice telling me I'm worthless, that I'm a failure and won't succeed. It tells me to give up. I know it's not my thoughts cause it sounds like someone else's voice talking to me in my head. It's hard to explain.
  6. I'm trying to find a happy place in my life but seem very depressed all the time. The voices never go away and I feel suicidal. Life is painful to live somedays. I get these delusions that someone's out to get me when I'm in public. I don't feel safe. I don't have many friends to hangout with and feel worthless at times. I'm embarrassed to tell some of my friends about what I'm going through. I feel very alone :,/. I feel i tend to loose friendships and ruin my relationships.
  7. I was recently diagnosed with a type schizophrenia. My symptoms started last summer before I turned 20. I've always had an anxiety disorder my whole life and was paranoid about almost everything. My symptoms started with depression and then I would get these these voices in my head telling me to do things, it makes it hard to focus, hold a conversation, ect. I would get suicidal thoughts and the. Urge to hurt myself. It makes my life very difficult to live somedays. The voice is usually always there telling me negative things like "you're a failure, you're worthless, you should give up, you should hurt yourself". I'm a musician and like to express my emotions when I perform or write. Music really helps me when the voice is really bugging me. My doctor put me on Ability and the voice is telling me it's toxic and if I take it something bad will happen to me or someone close to me. I have depression as well and the voice tells me I should hurt myself. It's very difficult to focus talking to one person cause it feels like talking to multiple people at once. I can't concentrate or think straight in social situations. Somedays intend to isolate myself instead of hanging out with friends.
  8. It makes my life very difficult to live somedays. The voice is usually always there telling me negative things like "you're a failure, you're worthless". I'm a musician and like to express my emotions when I perform or write. Music really helps me when the voice is really bugging me. My doctor put me on Ability and the voice is telling me it's toxic and if I take it something bad will happen to me or someone close to me. I have depression as well and the voice tells me I should hurt myself. It's very difficult to focus talking to one person cause it feels like talking to multiple people at once. I can't concentrate or think straight in social situations. Somedays i I tend to isolate myself instead of hanging out with friends.
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