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  1. He sounds really unstable. You seem to have your life together well and I would keep it that way. Just like you said it was only two month. Just be happy you didn't get too deep into it with someone who was not ready for your wonderfulness.
  2. That's how I felt for the past month, but suddenly yesterday I felt depressed again. I had some feelings about my mom's death and my breakup. Is it normal to feel sad like this? Does it mean that that's what stability feels like? I guess that doesn't make sense. Stable people feel a little sad and a little happy, right? Do you feel ecstatic every once in a while? I have been feeling really happy once a day and then pretty happy all Saturdays. Is this the way normal people feel? Can I be this way forever?
  3. Sometimes I love being bipoar and sometimes I hate it. These feelings usually coincide with mania and depression. In the end, though, I know it has made me strong, and that I am grateful for it. I have the drive to change the world because I know what pain feels like. I want to make the world better because i have seen bad times. Bipolar gives me the power to feel happiness in a way that others don't. I think I have found a way to keep a little of that happiness and also be stable. Hopefully. Taking meds and being stable is nice. I am 25 and studying to become a superivisor in my company that works with children with autism. I find it incredibly fulfilling and i truly love what I do. Find your happiness.
  4. A year ago I began dating after being with an abusive person for two years. After a couple months I began to feel like everyone i dated was a man I wanted to be with long term. Unfortunately, I ran into a guy who was still rebounding and wanted to fall in love, too. it was heaven for about a month. we talked all the time and he told me he loved me. he told me i was the one. I began to make plans to marry him and have his children. I thought about quitting my job to follow him when he left for graduate school. After a few months I stopped being able to sleep. My mental health spiraled out of control and I ended up breaking up with him after it became clear to me that he wanted to end things because of his family and starting his thesis. It has been very difficult lately to forget about it. I did not get depressed after we broke up and began investing all my energy and time and love into myself. This was one of the best choices I ever made. Thank you for posting about this, because I have been feeling worried that it was true love and that I lost it. Retelling what happened makes it so clear to me that I was manic. Sadly, the people who loved me and my doctors didn't recognize it as mania because love often looks like mania. I miss the manic oxytocin love filled experience, because it is hard to remember the anxiety and sadness that I felt whenever he would ignore me or make me feel insecure. I am a young 25 year old that doesn't know too much about what true love is, but I know that mania can trick you. I'm pretty sure that love is a healthy feeling, not an obsessive one. It should make you feel good. You should trust that person and love qualities of theirs, not the drunk feeling you have from the oxytocin high you are on. Be careful, I think that we people with bipolar are more sensitive to oxytocin. I am still recovering from hypomania and parts of it are hard, but I am grateful to be rid of the man I thought I loved because he was, well, a total loser.
  5. I just switched to Latuda after 12 years of being on every med used for bipolar under the sun. I love it. I feel much happier, but not manic, and it took away my depression and anxiety. I love that I have lost 20 lbs since I stopped taking the other meds and I am more active than ever. I don't like to eat at night when I take it, but I drink a big glass of milk with my meds and my doctor has said this is ok. Latuda is like a godsend.
  6. I was taking seroquel and experienced muscle stiffness, pain, weakness, and burning in my lower back. My doctors tell me that it can't be the seroquel, but cogentin helped and two weeks of being off the seroquel has helped a lot. I am almost back to normal so I think it was the seroquel, but after two weeks I am still having trouble standing or sitting without back support for longer than thirty minutes. Does anyone think that this pain/weakness could be from the seroquel? Has anyone had this? Also, a few weeks before the pain started I doubled my exercise routine. Switching to swimming instead of running did nothing to help me. I don't want to stop exercising because it keeps me from being depressed. Help?
  7. I was taking seroquel and experienced muscle stiffness, pain, weakness, and burning in my lower back. My doctors tell me that it can't be the seroquel, but cogentin helped and two weeks of being off the seroquel has helped a lot. I am almost back to normal so I think it was the seroquel, but after two weeks I am still having trouble standing or sitting without back support for longer than thirty minutes. Does anyone think that this pain/weakness could be from the seroquel? Has anyone had this? Also, a few weeks before the pain started I doubled my exercise routine. Switching to swimming instead of running did nothing to help me. I don't want to stop exercising because it keeps me from being depressed. Help?
  8. I have recently been going through a lot of medication changes spurred by oxytocin induced insomnia. I feel like I have finally come off of the hypomanic ride I've been on for the past year and half since I had to stop taking Lithium. I am afraid because I don't know what kind of happiness I will have now. I don't know if the happiness I felt for the past year has been true happiness of getting over my mom's death and getting rid of an abusive relationship, or if I was just hypomanic. I am afraid of returning to the kind of life I had when I did not experience hypomania, the time when I was on Lithium. First of all, I was not stable then and I am afraid of going back to that. I am also afraid of a world where I don't feel happy. I feel like I was dead before I experienced mania. Will life just be dull and normal? Any advice from someone who has gotten rid of mania and likes it? Will I still be able to enjoy music? Will I still be able to dance? Will I still be able to feel connected to the earth, the universe, and others?
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