taramisue

I feel good again. Hoping yesterday was a fluke. I had a great evening with my son. I think I am gonna like it being just him and me. <3

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Fucked.

I was doing good for a few days. Surprisingly good. Then it all came to a halt last night. I freaked out and couldn't function. I didn't go to work today and my anxiety is through the roof because idk if I will get in trouble or fired. Fuck!

Surprisingly good.

Trying to keep it all together.

fry

last

I feel like I will never feel like an adult. I grew up very sheltered so I thought when you became an adult you just had money and everything would be good. Then growing up I thought once you became older that you wouldn't struggle. Like adults had it all figured out. I am 35. I still feel like a kid a lot of the time. I look around at other adults and think I will never have it together like they do. I wonder what people think when they look at me...if they think I have it all together. I've been told by someone close to me that even though they know I am a mess inside on the outside it looks like I have my shit together. I guess because I have a career and my own home with my son.

Rancid

I'm not sure if this is what you mean...but I have a hard time on my lunch hour at work almost everyday. I leave for lunch and nothing sounds good to eat. (I have a hard time eating when I am depressed.) I don't know where to go. Sometimes I will just park my car in a parking lot and cry or nap. I start questioning what "normal" people do on their lunch and I feel like I don't know how to live properly if that makes sense. Welcome to CB!

Actually feeling pretty good. My mood is going up and I have motivation and some energy. I even caught myself singing. I hope this lasts. A big change from last week when I couldn't stop crying.

I hadn't thought about that either. I wouldn't want my child outside smelling weed.

Excited. Motivated.

Thank you, Asho. I am doing this in therapy. I write down 3 mini-goals for the week. The weekends are a lot harder for me, especially the weekends when I don't have my son.