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Well. I'm doing it multiple times a day. And getting brave enough to do it even while I know I'm being watched by suspicious employees. And relying on it for food even when I have other viable options, just because it's less effort sometimes. ...And more fun. Still not caught yet. -
i have no idea, and i think it's sort of arbitrary? from what i've read there are a number of people who meet schizophrenia criteria based on hallucinations + disorganisation, with no delusions, and they usually are aware they hallucinate as well (while those with delusions often aren't) not a terrible lot of them, but they exist so i'm not sure it's actually a meaningful distinction? i mean, if you can still diagnose from it either way...
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mental image: me, carrying dagger, stabbing people in throat when their guard drops
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sounds like the meds are more the problem than the illness? if your meds are causing such severe side effects you may not be able to survive on them you may want to look into switching meds but i don't know your exact situation or anything, just my impression
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I already read your post. I'm sorry if I gave you the impression your input was not wanted, or that your experience is not relatable to mine. It's true that I don't typically experience consummatory anhedonia to nearly the same degree as I do anticipatory anhedonia, but it's not as if I've never lost interest in things I should or used to enjoy, either.
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yeah, it's annoying because i'm usually wrong, and i know i'm usually wrong if i can start doing something a lot of times it'll turn out good and i'll be able to keep going and doing it, and similar things, for a good while but once i stop it's not long before the thoughts of "it probably won't be worth it, just don't bother" come back and weigh me down am i supposed to just force myself to keep doing things anyway? god, it usually takes me at least an hour after waking up just to get out of bed, sometimes two or three... how am i supposed to force myself to do more complex
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i have trouble trying new things unless someone i know (and preferably am close to) recommends them even things closely related to stuff i've had positive experiences with in the past i can try imagining trying The Thing and i just end up imagining that it'll be boring, or won't work out, or whatever so i generally end up not even bothering and then in the rare event i do bother and i turn out to be right, i get even more discouraged and it gets even harder the upshot of this is... well, i usually just end up doing nothing. a lot of nothing. repeating some routines and
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Homicidal or Harm OCD?
Lexie replied to chero's topic in Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder - Click Here Repeatedly
Odd as it may sound, I think it's possible to have both homicidal desires and harm OCD. OCD isn't terribly rational, and if you perceive something as bad or a threat for basically any reason, even just some of the time, it can potentially fuel OCD. I say this because, uh... personal experience. With both. Overlapping. edit: To clarify, this was because the reason behind my harm OCD wasn't "harming people is bad," but more specific to the form of harm and what it implied about me as a person. Basically, there were reasons I should not take certain harmful actions or think certain -
my head is just the same words over and over right now
"i love you"
and it's making me cry again
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Not a doctor and (probably) don't have PTSD, but, from what I've read: Go with someone you trust and have an anxiety PRN, and maybe go to similar buildings when possible in the days leading up to that (preferably with someone you trust, and maybe even taking an anxiety PRN beforehand) as exposure therapy. Trying not to avoid the trigger and keeping yourself feeling as safe as possible while still being actively triggered is the best way to teach your brain the trigger isn't a real danger. But, it's probably going to be difficult on you, and depending on how strong of a trigger i
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i had a dream and all i remember is "i'm sorry for being so demanding, can i at least talk to you again? i'm lonely and it hurts"
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i know i have sadistic tendencies, but that was never formalised/finalised as a distinct psychiatric condition narcissism is a distinct condition, though, and... well, look at my signature i literally view myself that way and i'm pretty sure i'm not manic, i just literally think i'm above 99.999% of humanity and my word should be taken as divine decree i don't know... obviously i'm not going to tell any therapist or psychiatrist anything about this, it's not like i want "help" with it, so idk
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SSRI Withdrawal?
Lexie replied to lifequake's topic in Antidepressants - If You're Crappy and You Know It
I think it depends on your dose and how long you take it, as well as your individual chemistry. I've taken a couple SSRIs for a few months and then quit cold turkey with no problems. On the other hand, when I stopped gabapentin after taking it for just a week, it took almost two months to really become relatively stable again. And most people don't get withdrawals from that. -
For the gender field, having "trans male" and "trans female" as separate options from "male" and "female" is transphobic. Adding "cis male" and "cis female" would still be transphobic. Any trans person who is willingly identifying themselves in that field is transphobic (surprise, internalised prejudice exists). Trans is not a gender and does not describe or modify a gender. It is a medical condition. Medical conditions don't belong in the gender field. All these things holding true, those two options should be removed altogether. My $0.02.
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i wanted to just kill myself i wanted to just kill myself and get it over with i honestly don't know if it would have stuck i sort of suspect there was some sort of gaming of the system, some bending of the rules of the many worlds interpretation, to ensure my survival after previous attempts if it was willfully done by some conscious intelligence, it was probably my own, sitting back there, refusing to really die that's what people are trying to tell me when they say clearly i don't really want to die my methods were fine, the only thing that kept me alive was so
