I love my gf she is amazing. But I lied and talked to my ex behind her back to feel comfort. I am codependent and was scared we would break up. Shocker my gf found out and is leaving me. I don't love my ex I want my girlfriend. She is so mad and is leaving me. I would do anything to get her back. I haven't eaten in two days. I can't sleep. I feel hopeless and depressed. When I drive I want to crash I want so just get hit. I want it to be over. When I cross the parking lot inside I scream hit me. I am so embarked and ashamed of my actions. I am a fool and I lost out on a amazing woman. Help me I am in so much pain ??