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  1. I've been inpatient or outpatient for depression/suicidal thoughts for the last five weeks, but finally found the med cocktail to turn it around. I learned this important lesson: It's more important to do what you need to take care of yourself, than to worry about what anyone thinks.
  2. I've been in the hospital for the last three weeks for major depressive disorder, suicidal thoughts, and anxiety. In there, they left me on 450 mg of Wellbutrin, upped my Prozac to 40mg, gave me 10-20 mg of Valium a day, and a 10mg Ambien at night. Those are the same meds I've been on for years, just higher doses of some. I got out of the hospital Friday, and went back to the dr yesterday. I'm no better. In fact, I'm mentally and physically exhausted, very depressed. This was my second hospitalization (the other one in 2000) and after the first one I left the hospital 200% better, so I was so disappointed, hopeless, and ready to give it all up. Then yesterday the doctor put me on Provigil 100mg a day (started today), and wrote a Rx for Lamictril 100mg (which he told me to hold.) I took the Provigil this morning and I'm so sleepy. I got more done in the house today, but when I sit down I feel like nodding off. So, for you wise people out there, what is the Provigil suppose to do, why is he waiting on the Lamictril, and what does it do? Buried way under people who are down in the dumps, Kathy
  3. My name is Kathy. I'm 52 years old. I have depression and social anxiety, according to the psych. I see a therapist twice a month. I have only had two panic attacks in my lifetime, and they have been a long time ago. However, more and more I just don't want to leave my house. I freak out over the thought of having to go out and do ANYTHING. Can you have agoraphobia without panic attacks, but with just anxiety? I'm on Welllbutrin XL and on Prozac. I take Valium occasionally, and have Ativan in case of panic, which I carry but never take. I also take Ambien to sleep. I've tried quitting the antidepressants but I get into such a fog my husband notices how withdrawn I become and gets me to take them again. I'm worried how this isolation affects my family. It's gotten to the point, I absolutely dread the therapist visits, doctor visits, dentist appointments, mammograms, those times I HAVE to go out. My fantasy is to live alone and never have to leave the house. Just me, my dog, my books, my computer. My therapist says I have low ego strength and I need to build my ego strength but I don't know what that means. So I found your forum and it's nice to know I'm not alone. Kathy
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